At 9am on a Sunday morning

Beep beep beep

James:
"Mm." What time is it why am I awake at 9am oh right kids choice awards I better wake up the guys and we need to go like now. "GUYS WAKE UP WE NEED TO LEAVE."

Kendall:
"Where do we need to leave?"

James:
"To the hotel they are coming in an hour and a half for hair and makeup and we are not there yet."

Kendall:
"Ok ok we are up."

James
"Good let clean this up then we have to go like now."

Guys:
"WE ARE UP."

James:
"Good then let start the cleaning and like boys."

Guys:
"Yea sir."

James:
"Good then let go."

After the clean up

James:
"Is everyone done cleaning?"

Everyone but not James:
"Sir yes sir."

James:
"Good then what are you waiting for go and get ready we need to leave like now."

Everyone:
"ON IT SIR."

After everyone is ready to leave

James:
"Carlos to you have your things and your family?"

Carlos:
"Sir yes sir."

James:
"Logan do you have your things?"

Logan:
"Sir yes sir."

James:
"Kendall do you have your things and all of it this time young man?"

Kendall:
"Yes sir and I am not a young man."

James:
"If you say so now let go."

Everyone:
"SIR YES SIR."

At the hotel

James:
"Go to your room do what you guys need to do but at 10 o'clock you guys need to come back here Reginald is coming with the hair and makeup team with our clothes so then we need to go got it."

Guys:
"Deal."

James:
"Then go and have fun."

Guys:
"On it sir."

James:
I went back to my hotel room. "NOVA."

Nova:
"COMING."

James:
She open out hotel door and she look tried and pale. "Baby."

Nova:
"Hi mum."

James:
She came and hug me. "Hey baby I miss you so much."

Nova:
"Hey mum I miss you so much too."

James:
"Baby are you ok?"

Nova:
"I kind of vomited the whole night."

James:
"Are you ok?" I said as I got worried.

Nova:
"Yeah this time I am ok I haven't slept all night and I am so tried."

James:
"Then come on baby girl let take you to bed you need it."

Nova:
"No I need for know how was it."

James:
"It was fun but baby you need to sleep."

Nova:
"But I want to stay with you mum I miss you."

James:
"I know baby girl I miss you too."

Nova:
"Mum."

James:
"Mm."

Nova:
"If I do sleep may I please stay with you and sleep on your chest."

James:
"Baby."

Nova:
"I know I am 16 but I need love right now mum I am asking you right now please that is all I am asking."

James:
"Ok and baby I was not going to say anything about you sleeping with sleeping with me I was going to say yes and that I love you so much but I think I should feed you."

Nova:
"Mum."

James:
"I know you don't like it baby."

Nova:
"Mum I vomited it everything out also your money is on the bedside table I couldn't use it because you know what."

James:
"Yep I do." I was about to put my shirt up when.

Nova:
"Mum please no."

James:
"Ok baby girl." She look really look like she need sleep right now.

Nova:
"Wait really?"

James:
"Yeah baby right now you need some sleep."

Nova:
"Thank you mum."

James:
"Of course baby I love you so much."

Nova:
"I love you too."

James:
"Now come on I am going to carry you to my bed."

Nova:
"Please carry me."

James:
"I will baby girl I will." I carry her to my bed. "Baby is that your pjs?"

Nova:
"No I change all of my clothes have vomit in them."

James:
"So this is your clothes?"

Nova:
"Yeah."

James.
"Baby I love you I am going to call hotel room laundry, room and they will come and wash your clothes."

Nova:
"Mum I do not want you to spend more money on me."

James:
I got her face to make her look at me. "Baby girl I love you so much I am your mum and no matter what I will be there for you love you make your safe and I will protect you with my life no matter what, do you get me."

Nova:
"Mum

James:
"I know you hate people doing things for you baby girl but I love you so much and no matter what I will be there for you do you understand me."

Nova:
"Yes I am understand."

James:
"Good girl now lay down on my chest and shh."

Nova:
"Mum."

James:
"Shh baby girl go to sleep." I keep on rocking her and saying shh the whole time and now she is asleep man I love her so much more then anyone will know.

Ring ring

Lady:
"Hello this is room laundry service how can I help you?"

James:
"Hi my daughter vomited on half of her clothes can I have a laundry person come and wash her clothes for me please I will paid how ever much you want me to paid."

Lady:
"Of course it is 20 dollars for clothes that have vomit on them."

James:
"Of course I will paid the 20 dollars but can I have it back before tonight at 10 she have to go back home by then."

Lady:
"Of course I will get one of our staff to come and get the clothes may I please get your room number."

James:
"Of course." After I told her the room number what I am not going to tell you guys.

Lady:
"Ok thank you someone should be there soon to get her clothes."

James:
"Ok thank you."

Ring ring

Doctor Tyler:
"Hello."

James:
"Doctor Tyler."

Doctor Tyler:
"James how can I help you is she ok?"

James:
"No."

Doctor Tyler:
"Ok what is going on."

James:
"I know she have them and I also know she have cancer right now she have all of the symptoms and you guys are not doing anything or tell her anything come on."

Doctor Tyler:
"I know you are mad at us James but we can't do anything in till she is done with her surgery then we can tell her."

James:
"And then what her tumour will grow more and you guys will not do anything by then."

Doctor Tyler:
"James we will do anything we can to help her and also you know that but right now she can't know."

James:
"You know this is bulls right."

Doctor Tyler:
"I know this is but I can't do anything about it right now I am sorry James."

James:
"Are you really?"

Doctor Tyler:
"James I know you hate this and I hate this too so much you have no idea but right now I can't do anything and I mean it I am so sorry but for now you just have to trust me in this."

James:
"I will trust you with this once she knows and I wish she knows right now but no she have to wait."

Doctor Tyler:
"James."

James:
"I know you are sorry and I am sorry for talking to you that why but she is my baby girl and I can't have her die in my hands just because your hospital will not let anyone know anything important just because they have surgery."

Doctor Tyler:
"I know James I will see what I can do to give you about the information right now and I will let you know as soon as I can."

James:
"Ok thank you so much and also if she does have cancer how many time does she have to come in for chemotherapy?"

Doctor Tyler:
"With chemo is different James."

James:
"What do you mean?"

Doctor Tyler:
"Ok I will let you this let just say I let Nova come to get chemo ever 2 we'll for chemo right."

James:
"Yeah."

Doctor Tyler:
"We let her body rest for a week then we will do 4 days a week it is like that."

James:
"So you guys do it every week?"

Doctor Tyler:
"Yeah petty much."

James:
"Ok thanks."

Doctor Tyler:
"Anytime I better go and find out for you bye."

James:
"Thank you so much bye."

Nova:
"Mm."

James:
"Hey baby girl."

Nova:
"Mum."

James:
"Hey baby."

Nova:
"What happen where am I?"

James:
"Nice joke baby girl."

Nova:
"Sorry."

James:
"Why are you awake now you only been asleep for 20 minutes."

Nova:
"Sorry I just you yelling on the phone and I just woke up like that."

James:
"That is ok baby girl it is ok are you fully awake?'

Nova:
"A bit."

James:
"Sleep more baby girl I am going to oder room service ok."

Nova:
"Sure."

James:
"Do you want anything?"

Nova:
"No thanks did anyone came for my clothes yet mum?"

James:
"No not yet baby."

Nova:
"Ok I am going back to bed." I was about to get up and go to my bed when.

James:
"Ok baby no wait sleep on me again."

Nova:
"Mum you need to move."

James:
"And I will baby I will leave the door open for them to come in to get your clothes and to give me my food."

Nova:
"Are you sure mum."

James:
"Yeah I am sure baby."

Nova:
"Ok if you say so."

James:
"Oh I know so." I went to the door and open it then I went back to my bed I lie down on the headboard and Nova put her head on my chest and fall asleep I love her so much. "I love you baby girl more then you know."

Knock knock

James:
"The door is open come on in."

Lady:
"Hi... oh sorry I am just here to get the clothes."

James:
"Thank you also their are in the bag over there."

Lady:
"Thank you also are you doing skin to skin contact without asking her?"

James:
"Yes I am why is that a problem?"

Lady:
"No but with us girls we like to know things before it happens."

James:
"I know but she ask me if she an sleep on my chest."

Lady:
"Yes but did she said that she want to do skin to skin contact?"

James:
"No she didn't but she petty much doesn't have a choice."

Lady:
"Ok if you say say so I am just going to take this also we take the 20 dollars when we come back with your clothes."

James:
"Ok thank you."

Lady:
"Of course anytime."

When Nova wake up

James:
"Hey baby girl did you have a good nap."

Nova:
"Yeah I did also I would not call it a nap."

James:
"Really then what do you call it young lady."

Nova:
"I call it sleep petty much."

James:
"Yeah it kind of is like that ha good time for you to wake up because now it is time for a feed."

Nova:
"Oh yay fun."

James:
"I know you hate this."

Nova:
"Oh you have no idea but go on."

James:
"Nova we both know if you do not do this and you know why we are doing this."

Nova:
"You mean you aka you force me into this."

James:
"Nova."

Nova:
"I know sorry mum not a full 8 hours of sleep over here."

James:
"I know baby don't worry it is ok also yes I know you are force into this and you hate his but remember why I am doing this."

Nova:
"Yeah I know why."

James:
"Then tell me why I am making you do this Nova."

Nova:
"Because you love me so much you love me so much that you do not want to see me die just because of me not eating."

James:
"You are right also there is something else."

Nova:
"What that?"

James:
"Because I am your mum I love you with all of my heart and I will do anything in my power to make sure you are safe and healthy baby girl."

Nova:
"I know mum wait I did not know that one bit."

James:
"I know baby I did not tell you one bit but please do this for me."

Nova:
"Like I have a choice."

James:
"I know baby girl I know."

Nova:
"Why do I have to do this mum why can't it go back to the way it was?"

James:
"What do you mean baby girl?"

Nova:
"I mean I was want my body to go back to the way it was."

James:
"You mean it look like that you haven't eaten in years or it look like you were about to die no baby girl I am not going to let your body go back to the way it was I am not going to let your body feed itself again just because you hate this do you understand me now stop talking and lie down on my lap right now."

Nova:
"Mum."

James:
"Don't now."

Nova:
"Yes mum."

James:
"Also you know that you are in so much trouble after I am done feeding you."

Nova:
"What do you mean?"

James:
"Well you just have to wait and find out ha."

Nova:
"Mum what are you talking about please tell me?"

James:
"Not happening." After I said that I took off my shirt and got her head. "Open your mouth and put it in my nipple now."

Nova:
"Not in till you tell me mum what do you mean?"

James:
"Now Nova I am not asking you I am telling you so do it."

Nova:
"Fine."

James:
She put her mouth on my nipple and I squeeze it. "I am not going to sing you a song because you deserve it how dare say that you do not say that ever Nova I do not care if you hate this but do not say this never."

Nova:
I move my head from my mum nipple.

James:
"You are done?"

Nova:
"Yes mum:"

James:
"Good on the other side."

Nova:
"Mum."

James:
"No Nova you do not get to talk in till this is done do you understand me."

Nova:
"Yes mum I do."

James:
"Good now stop talking dear daughter of mind and drink up because you need it."

Nova:
"Yes mum."

James:
We went back at it again she put her mouth on my nipple and I squeeze it I will not let her suck on it this time but oh boy next time I will. "I can't believe you Nova just because you hate something you said it is that how you feel?"

Nova:
.....

James:
"I know I told you not to talk but we are going to talk about this before your punishment."

Nova:
.....

James:
"I know you want to say something so bad but you are not going to say anything in till you are done."

Nova:
I touch his hand telling him I am done.

James:
"You are done?"

Nova:
"Yeah I am done."

James:
"Good now tell me why in the hell would you say why do I have to do this mum can't it go back to the way it was?"

Nova:
"Because that is how I feel mum."

James:
"So you do not like the connection that we have do not love me anymore Nova?"

Nova:
"Do you really think that mum?"

James:
"I do not know Nova you can tell me."

Nova:
"No mum I love you so much more then you can know but sometimes I miss how I was before I got adopt yes I was abused yes I had cancer and everything else but that did not matter to me mum I just miss the way that my body use to feed itself every time it wanted to eat mum."

James:
"I know you don't like this baby but this is helping."

Nova:
"Who is it helping mum because I know for sure it is not helping me I feel worse because of it."

James:
"What do you mean by your feel worse because if it Nova?"

Nova:
"I do not feel like myself anymore mum I feel like someone else that is it not me."

James:
"I am so sorry you feel that way but I do not want you to talk like that again now bend over my knees."

Nova:
"You are spanking me are you?"

James:
"Nope I am wrapping you with my belt."

Nova:
"Knew it."

James:
"Are you ready?"

Nova:
"How many?"

James:
"10."

Nova:
"Ok."

James:
"Are you ready?"

Nova:
"Yep."

Wrap warp wrap wrap wrap wrap wrap wrap wrap wrap

James:
"Why are you not crying?"

Nova:
"Because I am use to it did you forget I was abused I am use to people giving me pain mum."

James:
"I am so sorry baby I didn't want you to think I was abusing you."

Nova:
"Mum I know you were not abusing me you are just teaching me a lesson that I needed I think but I know I didn't need it because that is how I feel."

James:
"Baby you know you can't talk about yourself like that talking about going back to your old self."

Nova:
"Why not mum I miss it."

James:
"I know baby but I wish you didn't also baby do you miss being abused?"

Nova:
"If I do give you an answer would you wrap me again?"

James:
"No baby girl please just tell me."

Nova:
"Yes mum I do miss being abused I miss someone hurting me I miss the pain the sound of everything mum I just miss it."

James:
"You know what baby."

Nova:
"What mum."

James:
"I am happy I took you away from that life baby girl."

Nova:
"Why?"

James:
"Because I couldn't life with myself if I know something bad happen to you."

Nova:
"I love you mum and if you thinking about taking this life if it good for me then thank you for doing it."

James:
"Even if you didn't want that life taken away from you?"

Nova:
"I do miss looking after the kids and being abused but if it wasn't for you I wouldn't have met you I wouldn't have wanted someone to adopt me so thank you."

James:
"Anytime baby girl I love you so much."

Nova:
"And I love you too mum."