After planing my chemo and radiation plan

Nova:
"Ok what else did you want to tell me."

Doctor Tyler:
"You have chemo today."

Nova:
"What time?"

Doctor Tyler:
"One."

Nova:
"What time Tan is doing everything?"

Doctor Tyler:
"In 10 minutes."

Nova:
"Ok bye."

Doctor Tyler:
"Bye."

Ring ring

Greg:
"Hello."

Nova:
"Are you alone without Myles?"

Greg:
"Yeah why?"

Nova:
"I have cancer again and pee problem chemo is today."

Greg:
"When is he doing everything?"

Nova:
"9 minutes."

Greg:
"I will be there in a bit

Nova:
"No stay I just thought I will tell you that."

Greg:
"We both know that you can't stop me I am coming while you like it or not got me."

Nova:
"Yes sir."

Greg:
"Good I am on the way."

2 minutes later

Knock knock

Nova:
"Come in."

Greg:
"Hey I am here now give me a hug."

Nova:
"Come here then." He came to me and I gave him a a hug. "You know that you didn't have to come right."

Greg:
"Yeah I did but I wanted to."

Nova:
"Thank you."

Greg:
"Of course."

Nova:
"Was Myles mad that I didn't come to work yesterday or today?"

Greg:
"No he wasn't he know that their is something going on."

Nova:
"I know there is something else you want to say but you are not saying it what else."

Greg:
"I think we should tell him."

Nova:
"You want me to tell him everything then no I am not telling him noting."

Greg:
"And why not?"

Nova:
"Because I haven't seen him in years and he left me all on my own so no thanks."

Greg:
"I know you are mad at him but can you forgive."

Nova:
"No I will not forgive him."

Greg:
"Then why did you get the tattoo Nova?"

Nova:
"Not now please."

Greg:
"Answer me Nova why did you get that tattoo?"

Nova:
"Because he use to call me his butterfly or even my little butterfly there happy."

Greg:
"You are not telling me the rest Nova why did you get that tattoo?"

Nova:
"It is a sign."

Greg:
"A sign of what Nova?"

Nova:
"Friendship and that we will not leave each other for a long period of time ever again."

Greg:
"Then why can't you forgive him?"

Nova:
"Because ever since he left everything and I mean everything have went downhill from there and you know that."

Greg:
"Nova I."

Nova:
"You want?"

Greg:
"Noting."

Knock knock

Nova:
"Come in."

Nurse Tan:
"Hey.. little Nova what wrong

Nova:
"I." I couldn't even finish what I saw saying before I start crying again. "Greg I think you should go."

Greg:
"Nova."

Nova:
"Greg just please leave I will just get chemo on my own." When I said that I was cry again on nurse Tan chest hearing his heartbeat to calm me down."

Nurse Tan:
"Nova what happen?"

Nova:
"He said something I said something things and then this happens."

Nurse Tan:
"Do you want to talk about it?"

Nova:
"It is better if I don't but thanks."

Nurse Tan:
"Of course now let do this then you can go and get chemo done fun ha."

Nova:
"Really."

Nurse Tan:
"What?"

Nova:
"You know what."

Nurse Tan:
"Yeah I know I shouldn't have said that should I."

Nova:
"Nope and you know that."

Nurse Tan:
"Yeah I do now I am going to stop the Iv and just take some blood with this blood we are going to court your blood cells to see if we can still do your chemo ok."

Nova:
"Ok what is the blood cell count do I have to get to have chemo."

Nurse Tan:
"3000 or 4000 Nova."

Nova:
"And if it lest."

Nurse Tan:
"Then that might may delay your next round of treatment or lead your doctor to reduce medication dosage or prescribe a new medication."

Nova:
"So let just say that doctor Tyler does do it then he would have to give me a different kind of chemo."

Nurse Tan:
"Yep."

Nova:
"Fine."

Nurse Tan:
"Oh I know ok I got your blood I should see you in an hour."

Nova:
"See you."

An hour later

Nurse Tan:
"I am back."

Nova:
"And?"

Nurse Tan:
"You can do chemo."

Nova:
"Oh fun."

Nurse Tan:
"You have no idea Nova are you ready for your first medicine."

Nova:
"No."

Nurse Tan:
"Ha ha very funny here drink this."

Nova:
"What is this?"

Nurse Tan:
"Dexrazoxane drink it."

Nova:
"Fine here thank you."

Nurse Tan:
"Your welcome I will be back in 10 minutes then we will get started."

Nova:
"Ok."

10 minutes later

Nurse Tan:
"Ok so now I am going to give you dexametgasone which is going into your system for 5 minutes then we will wait for 3 minutes before I come back and give you something g else for 10 minutes got it."

Nova:
"Yep are you going to inject it by a syringe?"

Nurse Tan:
"Yes I am are you ready?"

Nova:
"Yep." I got everything ready.

Nurse Tan:
"Ok this is going in now."

Nova:
"Man that is cold."

Nurse Tan:
"Sorry should have warned you."

Nova:
"Umm yeah you should... sorry pre chemo mood swings."

Nurse Tan:
"That is ok I get it do you want me to keep you company when you have chemo."

Nova:
"No thanks I think I am just going to do some schoolwork read or knit I do not know yet."

Nurse Tan:
"Ok I will always be here for you."

Nova:
"Thank you."

Nurse Tan:
"Of course... ok I am done see you in 3 minutes."

Nova:
"See you."

3 minutes later

Nurse Tan:
"And guess who is back little Nova."

Nova:
"You nurse Tan."

Nurse Tan:
"And that is right Nova now I am going to give you something but I can't remember what I am giving you can you remember?"

Nova:
"No I can't remember."

Nurse Tan:
"And why not?"

Nova:
"Because a very silly nurse didn't tell you."

Nurse Tan:
"Well that nurse is very dumb is he."

Nova:
"Yeah he kind of is but I love him."

Nurse Tan:
"Aww thank you Nova."

Nova:
"Thanks for making me feel like a kid."

Nurse Tan:
"You need it are you ready?"

Nova:
"Yep what are you giving me now?"

Nurse Tan:
"Now I am giving you diphenhydramine it goes in you for 10 minutes then it will stay in you I will be back in 7 minutes after that then I will give you something else ok."

Nova:
"Yep."

Nurse Tan:
"Good are you ready?"

Nova:
"No I am not but this is the life."

Nurse Tan:
"Yeah it is little Nova ok I am going to start now." I got her iv line and injected it in punching it bit by bit and just talking to Nova I wish she didn't have all of this problems but she does. "Ok and that is in I will see you back in 7 minutes then i will be back."

Nova:
"Ok then what act are you going to do?"

Nurse Tan:
"That is for me to know Nova."

Nova:
"Wait before you go what is the weather like?"

Nurse Tan:
"It so very sunny out why?"

Nova:
"I was thinking of going outside before my chemo."

Nurse Tan:
"I think you can." I said rubbing my chin.

Nova:
"You think I can."

Nurse Tan:
"You know I am joking of course you can."

Nova:
"Thanks nurse Tan."

Nurse Tan:
"Of course see you in 7 minutes."

Nova:
"See you."

7 minutes later

Nurse Tan:
"Ok little Nova this is the last one."

Nova:
"Then I can go in the garden."

Nurse Tan;
"Yep then you can go in the garden are you ready."

Nova:
"Nope but like I said I do not have a choice to I."

Nurse Tan:
"I am sorry little Nova but no you do not have a choice."

Nova:
"Yeah I kind of know that."

Nurse Tan:
"Ok I am going to put it in now in 3 2 1."

Nova:
"Wait what are you putting in me?"

Nurse Tan:
She ask when I am injecting her with the medicine. "I am giving you omeprzole which go in you for 20 minutes then after that you can go to the garden then come back in 2 hours then we will start chemo."

Nova:
"Oh fun."

Nurse Tan:
"Yeah I know right."

20 minutes later

Nurse Tan:
"And I am all done I will see you back here in 2 hours then we will go to the chemo room and then we can go up and get you chemo done got it and if you are late by one minute I will have the whole hospital looking for you got me."

Nova:
"Yes nurse Tan got you."

Nurse Tan:
"Did I scare you little Nova."

Nova:
"Yes."

Nurse Tan:
"Good remember what I just told you now go."

Nova:
"Yes Sir."

10 minutes later

Ring ring ring

Nova:
"Hello."

Logan:
"Hey Nova."

Nova:
"Oh hi uncle Logan"

Logan:
"Hi what are you doing now?"

Nova:
"Just siting done reaching a book why?"

Logan:
"Your mum is worried about you."

Nova:
"Why is he worry about me for I am fine?"

Logan:
"I do not know do you mind calling him also when you are going to get some work done I haven't gotten an email back saying that you have done them yet."

Nova:
"Yeah sorry uncle Logan is had just been a busy 2 days I will get it done today and sent it off."

Logan:
"Ok good I better go now bye Nova."

Nova:
"Bye uncle Logan also is mum doing anything right now?"

Logan:
"Yeah he is worrying and talking to Kendall."

Nova:
"Ok I will call him now bye uncle Logan."

Logan:
"Bye Nova."

Nova:
Mum why are you worried about me I did not tell you anything did I man I do nor even know.

Ring ring ring

James:
"Hello."

Nova:
"Mum are you ok why are you worried?"

James:
"Ok good baby you called and no I was worried about you."

Nova:
"Yeah why wouldn't I be ok?"

James:
"Because I was worried about you."

Nova:
"Why were you worry about me mum?"

James:
"Because Greg call me saying to call you saying that something happen."

Nova:
"Of course Greg will call you mum but no I am fine."

James.
"Nova tell me the truth please."

Nova:
"When are you coming back home mum."

James:
"In 2 hours Nova why?"

Nova:
"Just because well I better go now bye mum."

James:
"Nova do not hang out this phone right now young lady."

Nova:
"Mum why no?"

James:
"Why are you keeping this from me Nova."

Nova:
"Because it do better to tell you in person."

James:
"Then call me on FaceTime."

Nova:
"Wait what now?"

James:
"Do it Nova."

Nova:
"Agh yes mum."

Ring ring ring

Greg:
"Hello."

Nova:
"What in the world did you tell my mum for?"

Greg:
"Nova."

Nova:
"ANSWER ME DAMN IT."

Greg:
"I tell him something bad happen and that he need to call you."

Nova.
"You know how worried you made my mum right now."

Greg:
"Nova."

Nova:
"Why?"

Greg:
"You are his daughter and he need to know."

Nova:
"He need to know when I see him face to face not on the phone."

Greg.
"I am sorry Nova but I think that you need to tell him I need to go bye."

Nova:
"Bye."

Ring ring

Nova:
"Hello mum how is it?"

James:
"Nova tell me."

Nova:
"Mum I am fine don't worry about it."

James:
"Nova Area Johnson Smith Maslow you tell me right now young lady."

Nova:
"Yes mum."

James:
"Good now tell me."

Nova:
"Yesterday I went to have the surgery."

James:
"And?"

Nova.
"They found out that I have stage 4 of heart cancer and pee problem again so fun."

James:
"When did you find out Nova?"

Nova:
"Yesterday mum."

James:
"Oh Nova I am so sorry."

Nova:
"That is ok also I have chemo today."

James:
"Oh baby."

Nova:
"And I just got the medicine in me before chemo."

James:
"Baby I am so sorry are you ok to do the kick boxing competition?"

Nova:
"I really do not know mum I am sorry mum but I really have to go now bye I love you."

James:
"Bye I love you too I will home soon love you."

Nova:
"And I love you too bye."

At Nova hospital room

Nurse Tan:
"Hey little Nova are you ready for chemo?"

Nova:
"Who isn't ready for chemo so fun."

Nurse Tan:
"I know how much you hate chemo but you have to do it and you know it can help you."

Nova:
"Yes it can help you but it can't make it go away."

Nurse Tan:
"Yeah I know Nova come on let go to the chemo room."

Nova:
"Coming.. hey guys."

Everyone:
"Hey Nova."

Nurse Tan:
"Come on little Nova.. arm please.. thank you."

Nova:
"What chemo are we using this time?"

Nurse Tan:
"The same one Nova Anthracyclines and if we need to put it down you know we would."

Nova.
"Oh trust me I know you would."

Nurse Tan:
"Good now I will be back in a bit to check up on you ok."

Nova:
"Ok love you."

Nurse Tan:
"Love you too little Nova."

Kid:
"Nova come and play uno with us."

Nova.
"Hold on let me take this photo then sent it off to someone ok."

Kid:
"Ok."

Nova:
Hey mum drew this when I just started my chemo love you miss you see you soon

James:
Oh baby girl I love you too and that is really good love you too

Kendall:
"Ok James what is going on?"

Logan:
"Yeah we know something is going on so what is it?"

James:
"Guys."

Carlos:
"No James tell us right now what is going on right now."

James:
"Nova has stage 4 cancer and her pee problem is back also she is having chemo today and I am not there to be with her."

Kendall:
"Oh James we are so sorry."

James:
"All I want to do is to be there for my baby girl."

Kendall:
"James we all know how much you love Nova but it is hard when you work as a singer you try to make time for everyone in your family and friends but you just can't no matter what you do, you are always stressing out and think that you are doing everything wrong but no James look at me.. you are not doing anything wrong you are doing the best thing you can do, as a parent and trust me when I say this your best is all you can give to the people you love."

Logan:
"He is right James Nova is an amazing person she can do this on her own and we all know that."

Carlos:
"So let see if we can get an earlier flight so you can go and see your baby girl."

James:
"Guys her chemo will be done in 2 hours."

Carlos:
"Yeah and we will be there in an hour."

Logan:
"Yeah but the same we will be in the hospital it will be all over."

Kendall:
"James we know that you want to be there for her but right now you can't and you know that or stop that you just can't James."

James:
"Yes I can Kendall."

Kendall:
"I am sorry James but you can't."

James:
"But I need to see my daughter."

Kendall.
"Listen to me you can see your daughter but you will not be there for her when she having chemo do you understand me."

James:
"Yes Kendall."

Kendall:
"Good now let go we need to be at the airport soon."

James:
"Ok."

2 hours later

Nurse Tan:
"Hey little Nova."

Nova:
"Bye nurse Tan."

Nurse Tan:
"Are you tried?"

Nova:
"Yeah I am."

Nurse Tan:
"Come on let take you to your room so you can have some sleep before you go home ok."

Nova:
"Mm."

Nurse Tan:
"Shh I know you are tried you are ok."

Nova:
"I know." I got my phone and messages mum. Mum at the hospital having a nap if you want to come after an hour you land you can pick me up from the hospital when you get to the front desk ask for nurse Tan he will tell you everything ok well I better go now mum love you mum

Nurse Tan:
"Hey come on the bed you ok."

Nova:
"Ok."

Nurse Tan:
"Have a good nap little Nova."

Nova:
"Thanks nurse Tan."

In Nova dream

Dad:
"YOU CAN'T LET YOUR DAUGHTER BRING ABUSE."

Mother:
"AND WHY WOULD I CARE ABOUT MY DAUGHTER FOR HA SHE IS NOT EVEN MY DAUGHTER."

Dad:
"YES SHE IS AND YOU KNOW THAT."

Mother:
"Why are we even arguing about her anyways let go and have fun."

Dad:
"I am not going to have fun with you I am leaving you and taking our daughter with me."

Mother:
"You are not leaving me."

Dad:
"Yes I am."

Mother:
"Fine then."

Nova:
She got a knife took my dad to our basement.

Dad:
"Baby you do not have to do this."

Mother:
"Oh yes I do you want to leave me then I will let you leave me but not the way you want to leave me."

Dad:
"What are you doing no."

Mother:
"Oh yes."

Nova:
"NO DAD."

End of Nova dream

Nova:
"NO DAD... ah ah ah ah ah." What happen where am I.. oh right it is a dram a damn dream I need to be hurt.

A few seconds later

Nurse Tan:
"Little Nova are you ok?"

Nova:
"Hey nurse Tan I will be out in a second."

Nurse Tan:
"Ok I will be here."

Nova:
"Ok." Damn it he is here damn it he is going to know then he will tell my mum please let him not my mum.

Nurse Tan:
"Little Nova are you ok in there?"

Nova:
"Yep I am coming in a bit nurse Tan." I wrap my hand of where I cute and where a long sleeve shirt so he does not know yet. "Hey nurse Tan."

Nurse Tan:
"Hey little Nova how was your nap I was about to wake you up."

Nova:
"Really why?"

Nurse Tan:
"You need blood?"

Nova:
"Oh right."

Nurse Tan:
"Ok what are you hiding?"

Nova:
"I am not hiding anything nurse Tan."

Nurse Tan:
"Don't lie to me young lady tell me right now what are you hiding .. wait you wasn't wearing a long sleeve shirt you were wearing shot sleeves shirt Nova take off that shirt right now."

Nova:
"No no I am fine."

Nurse Tan:
"Now Nova."

Nova:
"Fine." I took it off.

Nurse Tan:
"Nova why are you bandages on both of your arms for Nova?"

Nova:
"Umm."

Nurse Tan:
"Nova I am going to ask you again why do you have bandages on your arms?"

Nova:
"Nurse Tan."

Nurse Tan:
"Come with me."

Nova:
"Nurse Tan please no."

Nurse Tan:
"Are you going to tell me or else I am going to tell doctor Tyler and we are going to get you a psychologist in till you talk which one?"

Nova:
"Umm."

Nurse Tan:
"I need an answer now Nova."

Nova:
"Fine I will tell you."

Nurse Tan:
"Good girl sit down and tell me."

Nova:
"I self harm."

Nurse Tan:
"You did what why?"

Nova:
"Chemo dream." If you do not know what that mean in this hospital we need nightmares after chemo is chemo dream so every time you have chemo you get nightmares so yeah I do not know for how long for also you can have fear of going to sleep, restless sleep, and daytime sleepiness so yeah.

Nurse Tan:
"What the dream was about Nova?"

Nova:
"Mum and dad arguing about me being abuse then mum told dad let go and have some fun anyways dad said no he was going to take me and stop being with her and he was going to take him she was not going to let him so she took him to the basement she got a knife and kill him and I was watching it."

Nurse Tan:
"Oh Nova I am so sorry."

Nova:
"Why does it have to be him why nurse Tan why?"

Nurse Tan:
"I do not know Nova I do not know shh it is ok you are ok."

Beep beep beep

Nurse Tan:
"Hey I have to go to the front desk I will be right back."

Nova:
"Ok wait nurse Tan."

Nurse Tan:
"Yeah little Nova."

Nova:
"Please don't tell my mum."

Nurse Tan:
"Ok I will not tell your mum but I will have my dad to clean your cuts ok."

Nova:
"Ok." I walk out of her room and page my dad to clean Nova cuts he should be there soon.