Chapter 15: Michelle Flanders

I sat there in my room, prepared to finalize my decision. Only a few hours ago Benny had left me. He'd broken my heart even though we were never even together. He picked Cassie over me and I don't know why. He doesn't even like Cassie, at least it didn't seem like it. Unless he was so in love that it altered his personality just that much.

This was how my mind had been since he'd broken me. Cluttered. Side-tracked. Mismatched. Nothing really was making sense and I was trying to seriously reevaluate my life. I looked like Michelle, now. I could not be broken, because Emma and Rebecca are broken, not Michelle.

I would not be Michelle for much longer. She will just be another lost person in a sea of identity fraud.

I was giving up on one of my identites.

I would no longer be the girl with seven identities. I would only have six. Benny was right, I could not live as seven different people. Michelle was not important as others were to me. I could lose her for Benny. I would still have my other identities. They know more people and it would be harder to dissappear. Michelle only really knows Emily. It will be hard to say goodbye, but I must do it.

I made my decision and clicked the "call" button on Oovoo. It called her and started to connect. I took a deep breath and Emily's face appeared on screen.

"Hi!" she exclaimed from her usual place in her room, on her bed.

"Emily, I need to tell you something," I said sadly. She looked at me with concern.

"What's wrong?" she asked, worry lacing her voice. She pushed back the strands of hair that had fallen out of her pony tail and frowned, her deep blue eyes getting wider.

"I-I... There's nothing easy way to say this." After everything I'd been through, nothing had prepared me for this. Nothing had prepared me to let go of a part of me. "I'm dropping out of college!" I exclaimed quickly.

Emily popped a hand to her mouth in mock surprise. "No, you aren't, you liar!" She thought I was kidding, but the thing was, I wasn't.

"Emily, I'm not kidding. I really am dropping out." The smile dissappeared and her hand slid off her face.

"You always told me to never give up, and look at what you're doing! You're going back on your own advice and quite frankly you're being hypocritical." Her face turned away from the camera. She looked hurt. I'd hurt her.

I'd abandoned her.

"No, Emily, it's not like that." She did not look up. "Come on, Emily." I frowned. "Look, it's just something I have to do."

Her head snapped up and she practically yelled, "but why!?" I jumped at her abrupt exclamation.

"I-I-I can't tell you, I'm sorry. It's very complicated..." This was all I could manage to say. Emily looked so hurt, I couldn't go on speaking such horrid words to her, but I needed to.

"You told me to never give up!" she yelled and suddenly the screen went black. She'd disconnected. I tried calling back but she either clicked ignore or just let it keep ringing every time.

She was pissed and now she would never want to talk to me again. This is not how I imagined it happening. She was supposed to be cool with it and maybe there'd be a small arguement or something. We would continue to talk and slowly fade as a friendship until Michelle was gone. I did not want to break it off right away, but it looks like I will not have a choice now.

She thought I was dropping out because I was giving up. Technically I was giving up, but it was not my entire life. I still had six other lives to lead and six other ways to go. I needed to do this. I didn't particularly want to, it was just something I had to do. I would miss Michelle, but college is hard. Well it was, until I clicked the "send" button to e-mail the admin my drop-out forms. The deed was done and my choice was made.

I slammed my laptop closed and curled up into a ball on top of the sheets on my bed. I was freezing but I didn't care. A tear slipped from my eye.

I'd lost Michelle and Emily all in one night. I was no longer the girl with seven identities, I was the girl with six.

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Author's Note: Sorry for taking so long to upload and having shorter chapters. School's started. It's busy.

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