Hello, Nmste, Assalamualaikum, Satsriakal to all the sweet people 🤗🤗🙋🙋

Happy Wattpad Writer's Day🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

I know acc. to google chachi writer's day id not today but I got to know watty's people celebrate it today😁😁

Guys it's not an update for sure😝😝

I recently saw asperstar Richz Di's and imaginary_poet2 Shivanshi di's (most probably u r elder than me😅) post where they asked us to share about ourselves and the experience of these some months and I really wanted to do this😌😌

So let's start....

The people who know me knows I'm quite cool and happy go lucky girl😉 and yes that's true but trust me that's just the me I want people to see😁😁

My life is like a semi permeable membrane (science student u see😅😅 )(a layer which allows selective things to pass through) so ya that means I only allow some people to lemme know me, I'm totally different here, if somewhere u meet me in person, u'll think I'm the most rude person on this earth😝😝 because people tell me that it was their first impression after meeting me🤷‍♀️ but when they start knowing me, they tell that their perception has totally changed😁

I'm different here, I'm saying this because y'all saw my cool and cute nature🙈🙈 at once only😁 and I'm really happy for the same as I got so many friends here, I don't have even half of that in real life😅😅 because not every one is patient enough to wait till they see the real me, I won't say I'm an introvert because I'm not, I love meeting new people and making frnds but I take my own sweet time for that😉

My nature is quite contradicting, sometimes I'm really sweet, sometimes unbearable😝, sometimes I behave like a chota sa bachha and other times I behave quite mature, sometimes I behave so simple and sometimes so bold that no one can stand me and my thoughts, reading my stories u'll feel I know so much about love, relationship and stuff but I don't believe in it's existence in real life🤷‍♀️ and now plz don't ask me why😅😅

Now y'all must be thinking why I'm telling u all this, so for that u have to see this post

Skip mt karna😂😂 u need to read this to read further😝😝

If u read it all honestly, then u must have understood the reason till now...
Thank you so much imaginary_poet2 for this, I really wanted my readers and frnds to feel close to me by knowing me, and this is the best day and way🤗🤗

So other than this if u wanna ask me anything else about me, u can ask freely😊

Now coming to the experience of this time...

Life is all about ups and downs, even in ESG machine until there are up and down lines there is life in a person, a straight line means death, so yes there is both happiness and sadness in life but this year has shown us the worst face of destruction😔

Whether u call God, Bhagwan, Allah or Rab but he's just one and giving a good punishment to all of us for all our wrong deeds so far😔

We are humans, acc to science, the homosapiens, the most intelligent creatures on Earth😏 but aren't we over intelligent? when any animal feels itself in danger, it attacks, but what we do? We kill😣😣, sometimes I feel how people are so cruel that they don't think about anything😖😖, how people are so heart less to kill someone similar to them and someone with whom they share this Earth😢

Starting from March, when this all began we took it lightly pr upar vale ne dikha diya ki jb uski laathi bajti h to aawaz nhi hoti pr tabahi bahut khatarnak hoti h, we tortured his other children like animals and innocent people and he showed his power with a full year of destruction😞

First Covid-19, which showed us that a tiniest of thing can shake the whole world up😏 so never under estimate anything, it changed our lives, we had always kept animals locked up in zoos for entertainment, he showed us how it feels to be locked at a place🥺😔, we polluted his Earth, he healed it in his own way🙃 and this has still not ended, hope happens soon🤞

Then that elephant incident😣😣 humans again showed how small and low they r, that innocent pregnant elephant believed some people and was given bomb in a pineapple😭😭😭, as much I know an elephant keeps its baby for about 1.5 or 2 years in its womb, just think for how much time she must have taken the pain and problems of pregnancy and that little one couldn't even see this world 😭😭, actually achha hi hua because use bhi shayad.....😣😣, after that I researched more and got to know that those people were asked why they did so as it became a nationwide event, guess what they were not even guilty about that😡😡 all they said was just to keep themselves safe they did this and this wasn't the first time, incidents as such are common in their region😠😤😭😭
At the same day a girl was brutally murdered by the owner for whom she worked😔 just because she freed a bird from it's cage, can u just believe this😢

Then we lost one of the most efficient actor Irfan Khan sir🥺 and the very other day Rishi Kapoor sir😢, but ye to vo naam h jo famous h isiliye hm inhe jante h vrna dekha jaye to this year has taken so many lives by some or the other way that it's not possible to count in numbers😭

Then natural disasters but still we had a lil hope that everything will get fine soon but our punishment isn't so easy and for short time, it's still continuing🙃 but Insaan ki darindgi ki hdd dekho ki even now they aren't stopping their sins😣

But the worst news for me was Sushant's death🥺, I'm sorry if this sounds wrong and mean but that's the truth, I can't help it🤷‍♀️

Talking about Sushant, I'm not from people who were his fan from much before but I knew him as an efficient actor from his movies "PK"(where he played Sarfraz) and ofc "MS Dhoni", being a fan of Mahi, this movie was special but from here Sush too became special😌, when on 14 I was in the other room and my mother in drawing room, she called me and told that do I know some Sushant, I told her I know many Sushants, like Sushant Khatri (a dancer), Sushant Mohindru (actor who played Aman in Naamkarann) and Sushant Singh Rajput and my mother was like "Ha vhi, Sushant Singh Rajput, he committed suicide", I was shocked would be an understatement, my whole world came crashing down😭 I just couldn't digest the fact and then my mother showed me the news and I didn't know how to react, all I knew was that he was quite happy go lucky chap and a positive thinker, how can he do so but then many things like his depression and nepotism in Bollywood came up and somewhere I accepted it

After some days I don't know why but I searched about him on Insta and got to know many things about him and I just couldn't help but admire that person, I searched more and more and became his Jabra fan but then reality striked me and it felt as if I lost someone close and dear🥺, me and one of my frnd talked daily about him and shared all the new information we got and then I got to know the murder angle of this case and we were sure it was a murder, a pre planned brutal one😣, I got to know what a multi talented and kind hearted person he was and I cursed myself for not recognising the true actor and running behind the star kids movies🙃, though none of the bollywood celebrity was my fav as I just adored them for their acting but still....dekha jaye to we r equally responsible for always supporting the already famous😔

With time I started disliking Karan Johar and team, star kids and a person whom I respected and was so thankful, Mahesh Bhatt😒, I always liked him and was grateful to him for giving us Naamkarann but now the things have changed, somewhere I'll be thankful to him for Naamkarann forever but the truth is apart from the first day and starting the show he never contributed in it🤷‍♀️ and after Sush's case, I don't like him at all and plz I don't want his defenders here✋

Then I got to know about "Dil Bechara", his last and I must say the most amazing movie I've ever seen, a lovestory so simple and soothing, when I was waiting for it, I knew I'll surely cry but didn't know with a smile, every movie is different and special in its own way, it makes us go through different emotions, but this gave me an all new feeling, a feeling of "peace"/"Sukoon", by the end I was crying with a smile on my face🥺🙃 and Sush became the peace of my heart❤️

Then I got to know all the Rhea and team crap😒 and this followed until some days before, I was so happy when CBI took over the case and ofc when Rhea got arrested😌😁
Sush changed the face of everything and exposed everyone even by his death🙃

So let's not stretch this, but this year has been worst for bollywood whether it's about loosing legends😔 or it's disgusting real face😏 or the drug connection😂😂

And this wasn't enough that China is hell bent to start a war🤦🤦, if someone Chinese here, so sorry it's not about u, it's about ur president, I don't understand ise chahiye kya hmse🤷‍♀️😅

We have witnessed a lot in just 6 to 7 months and the worst part almost everything negative😔, only Corona being positive😂

This was about the outer world, about my personal experience, I've learnt so much from this time, this year is like a reality check to everything around us🙁

When this started I was actually thankful to Corona because we got holidays😅😂 but then understood it's seriousness, I literally didn't step outside for about 1 to 1.5 months, then hearing negative news every day being scared and angered was a different case😤

U know there was a time that I got so ill, high fever and cold😝 and trust me I don't think so much about anything so deeply that I start fearing from it because I believe we should have control on our mind not the vice versa but that time I don't know from where this thought striked me that I could be having Corona😂, trust me I don't know why I felt like this 🤷‍♀️ but due to this I maintained a distance with my mother and brother as father wasn't home, I was so scared and couldn't sleep whole night😅 and then in morning I was like why the hell was I thinking like that😂 so this deep the Corona has set it's fear in us..

But then I realised that this was much needed, the earth was healing at such a great pace which it can never do under us🤷‍♀️

So now I'm gonna share with u something,

I'm not a poet but I like writing my feelings in verses 😅and I've written many such poems, so I did it once when a good weather forced me in this time😁, it's in Hindi, I've told meanings of all difficult words but still don't hesitate to ask meaning if u don't understand, it's quite long so u can also skip if not interested😝😝

Ye tere hi karm h!

Hawao ne zarokhe (big windows)khol diye,
Baarish ki boondo ne geet k bol diye,
Mitti ki saundhi (fragrant)khushbu man ko chhu gyi,
Prakriti ki khubsurti me vari meri ruh gyi...

Kaash ye vakt ruk jaye,
Ye aasma dharti pe jhuk jaye,
Iss pyaasi dharti ko tript (satisfy)kiya,
Mera man phirse jeet liya...

Pr phir dil me ek jhankar (chime) hui
Hakikat se aankhe char hui,
Ye samay nhi barsaat ka,
Phir hua smaran iss baat ka...

Aise mod pr hm aakar khade hue,
Sb alg alg h jo the Jude hue,
Ek shukshm (microscopic) vishanu (virus)ne aisa vaar Kiya,
Ki ek saath pura sansar haar gya...

Laakho ne apni Jaan gavayi,
Iss rog se kraye kaun rihayi?
Corona ka hr orr prakop ( rage) h aaj,
Aur vo pehne baitha yamraj ka taaj...

Ye samay hmare saath ka h,
Pr kuch k liye kissa jaat paat ka h,
Devdoot bane inn logo pe,
Hue anyaay (injustice) aur ghri ghat ka h...

Ek Naya samay, ek Naya dashak,
Bn gya na Jane kitno ka bakshak (eater),
Sitaro Ko bhi na chhora h,
Ye kaisa samay kathora ( difficult) h?...

Pr phir bhi mn me uthta ek sawal h,
Kya ye sirf ek Bura saal h?
Ya phir manav (human) k aaj tk kiye gye,
Hr dushkarm (wrong act) ki saza ka janjal (here, punishment)h...

Jb bhukh lgi to jungle the jate,
Pr phir vhi jungle ghr banane k liye kaate,
Jb pyaas lgi to nadi ka Piya tha jl (water),
Phir kyu dushit (pollute) Kiya use hr pl?...

Khud ki bhukh aur Shakti k liye hr trh ka jaanwar kha Liya,
Le aaj unme se ek ne sabka h badla Liya,
Jaise hi tune bahar Jana band Kiya,
Prithvi ne phirse khubsurat apna tan Kiya...

Galatfehmi (misunderstanding) h teri ki tu Mahaan h,
Samay k haath ki kathputli (puppet) h, kyu iss baat se Anjaan h?
Abhi bhi samay h smjh ja, tu nhi yha ka Swami h,
Iss prakriti ka chhota sa hissa h, bs auro se zyada manokami h...

Ab jb musibat charo orr h,
Tb tere Dil me ye shor h,
Ki nhi prabhu, ab bass hua,
Pr iss baar vo bhi na tas se mas hua (didn't budge)...

Phir ek hawa ke zhoke ne laya mujhe vapas yha,
Khubsurti faili h prakriti ki hr orr Jha...

Vo bhi kh rhi cheekh cheekh (yelling) k, abhi samay h Sambhal ja,
Isse pehle vo aapa (patience) kho baithe, ae Insaan badal ja,
Ye prakriti tere bina itni hi khush rhti h,
Aur jeevo (creatures) ki trh tujhko bhi sirf shti h...

Vo rkh legi apna khud dhyaan,
Tu bss apne sahi glt ka fark Jan,
Iss hawa ki aawaz sun, sun baarish k ye geet,
Chhod de ye moh maya (illusion) aur gussa, iski khubsurti ka banja meet (frnd)...

Phir se mujhe shaant krne, hawao ne zarokhe khol diye,
Baarish ki boondo ne geet k bol diye,
Gungunate (humming) unn geeto Ko m kho gyi,
Mitti ki saundhi khusbu ek baar phir mere man ko chhu gyi.....

That's it😁😁 I don't know what crap I've written but thank you so much if u read it all 🤗 and if u didn't, never mind 🤷‍♀️

So these are my views about things going around😊

Lekin sirf buri hi cheeze nhi hui, atleast in my life many good things too happened and best was meeting y'all, of course right, I met y'all in this year😌, I made so many friends this year, I learnt so many things from this year😋, so this year is both boon and bane🤷‍♀️

Hoping ki this pandemic gets over soon and next year brings double happiness🤗

We have to take and choose a good thing from the bad ones, there are thousand reasons to be sad and to cry on but life is all about finding that one reason to smile and make others smile😊, I do, hope u'll also do, don't search for happiness in others, be a reason of someone's happiness, u'll automatically feel happy🤗
We have many problems but still feel blessed to have got this life, this year is bad one but feel happy that u and ur family is still safe😊
U have things for which people are working day and night, so be grateful to the almighty😋
Be a reason of change even if it is small🤗

With this I'll say thank you so much for taking out moments from ur precious time and reading this, I hope I didn't bore u😅

Chlo phir m chlti hu, duao me yaad rkhna 🚶🏻‍♀️🚶🏻‍♀️

If u liked this and wanna share, do tag ur frnds😊

U'll be getting update really soon🤗

Till then tatuuuuuuuuuuuuu 🙋🙋

Take care, stay safe, be happy, stay blessed ❤️

Much love❤️

C❤️