A/N: New cover! I was like, wow this needs a change...So that's what I did! Do you guys like it? No?
Remember when I updated like every day? Yeah sorry I haven't done that lately! This is still in Kellin's point of view.

Song of the chapter: Sunny Days & Hand Grenades by Chiodos

"Take a seat, sit right down, and welcome to all of the lies
The tension, the guilt, the hate, the unspoken misery
Cheating, faking, hiding, pretending
Neglecting, demeaning, fighting
The resentment, the drugs, the abuse!
Have a seat, get uncomfortable, and enjoy the show."

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I walk to the lunch room, I sit at my table out of normal instinct.
"Kells" Oliver says softly and I look over at him,
"What?!" I snap at him and he just looks away then looks back.

"Don't you sit with Vic now?" He asks confused
"His table was a one time thing, they don't want me there, the silence was real, well not talking to me was what happened", I mumble and I start running my fingertips on the top of the table.

"well wheres Vic?" Justin asks and I sigh.

"I don't know" I mumble...Wait, I really don't know, he didn't meet up with me after class.. Where is he? Well he will find a way here, no need to worry.

"Hey" I hear Vic say as he kisses my cheek and sits to my left
"there you are" I say as I put my arm around him.

"You guys are making me want someone" Jack mumbles and Justin starts laughing, I glare at Justin and he slows down his laugh and tries stopping it completely.

"What is that supposed to mean?" Vic asks as he steals a fry off of Oliver's plate and starts to eat it, Oliver not even realizing it.

"I just mean" Justin clears his throat, "how you guys started wasn't a normal way" Justin adds with a shrug. "So Jack, find a nice boy you really like" Justin says with a huge smile and I remove my arm from Vic as Justin stands up.

"Why did you have to say that? Its over now?" I state the anger slowly making its way to my face. I feel my face start heating up.

"Why cant I say it?" Justin asks showing no emotion, I stand up but before I can get closer Vic puts his hand in mine and tugs me to sit down.

"Its not your story to tell" I say harshly before obeying Vic's wish and sitting down. Justin walking away.

"I'm sorry" I mumble under my breath as Vic loosens his grip on my hand and removes his hand and puts it on my leg giving it a reassuring squeeze 
"I know you are" he says, his voice soft and calm.

"Hey guys, what did I miss?" Alex asks as he sits down on my other side.
"Nothing" Oliver says and he glances at me giving me a small sympathetic smile. Oh like hes one to apologize, him and Justin are one. Who broke my fake relationship? Oliver and Jaime... Its Oliver's fault, but also because of that I realized I actually liked Vic. Whatever.

After Alex trying to brighten the mood by saying lame jokes I went to my class and sat far away from Justin not wanting to be too close to the air hes breathing. Hes such a backstabber, I would make his life hell but he knows my past, he knew me when I thought I was straight, he dealt with me being mad with no sleep and being more of a bitch then ever, he was with me the day after I finally accepted the fact I was gay. He was the one who listened to me say bullshit about how I hated how Jack would call me gay and the fact he was right all along, Justin was with me when I went through my, 'I don't need sleep, I don't need food, I don't need anyone' time period in my mind, which lasted a week, he knows me more than anyone. But yet, he is turning against me.

I walked into music class and didn't even bother talking to anyone, I gave Vic a smile and he smiled back. The teacher started talking about this project about writing a song, and before class ended she started pairing us up. The words she said was not what I wanted. 'Kellin and Alex, Vic and Oliver' I was about to open my mouth and argue but then the teacher gave me a warning glance like she knew I would want to disobey her words so I kept my mouth shut. The bell rang and Vic told me he would love to hang out with me after school but he has work, he kissed my nose and left me with Alex in the class room where everyone seemed to be rushing out yet I just stood in place.

"We should get started on this song later after school" Alex suggested as he put his hand on my shoulder. I turned to look at him causing him to drop his hand from my shoulder and put it uncomfortably in his pocket.

"The sooner we start it the faster we finish, right?" I asked and he nodded, I sighed and agreed to working on the song, I asked him if he drove today and he said no and that he took the bus, we agreed to meet at my locker after our last class....I let him sit in the passenger seat of my car. I shouldn't have because now I realize he smells of sweet perfume, almost like a girl but its mixed with a bit of sweat.

Once we got to my place Alex started talking about some song ideas, he asked me what kind of instruments I wanted in it, I told him I could play a few notes on the piano... And he smiled and told me, 'I can sing' and like that it was decided, I will play the piano while he sings. He asked me if I had a piano, it made me cringe, But then I lead him to a room on the top level of my house that no ones been in for years, I opened the door and there it was, the grand piano, still not touched since my last lesson, my mom made me learn it when I was younger, who knows why..It was unnecessary and useless for me. We stood there at the door way as the images of a younger me wearing a Metallica shirt and black skinny jeans sitting in front of the piano comes into my vision, I picture myself sitting there playing classic songs, I can hear my old thoughts, 'why cant I just go to my room and listen to green day'.

"Hey, listen Kellin, we don't need to start this today, or we could just make the lyrics first" Alex said breaking the silence and I watch my younger self disappear.
"yeah, lyrics first" I said and I closed the door and instead of going back down stairs I led him into my room and now here we sit criss cross on my bed and I grab a note book and a pencil and put it in between us.

"that's cute" he says pointing to my left, I turn behind me and my cheeks turn red,

"Vic got it for me" I say softly and then I realize I'm acting soft and I look up at Alex with no emotions "now forget the stuffed animal, lyrics, we should start on the lyrics" I add

"Now, lyrics..." Alex says as he picks up the pencil and starts writing word

"How are these" Alex asks and I look at the paper, turning it to face me,

'Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye
It could be for the last time and it's not right.
"Don't let yourself get in over your head, " he said.
Alone and far from home I'll find you...

Dead, like a candle you burned out;
Spill the wax over the spaces left in place of angry words.
Scream, to be heard, like you needed any more attention;
Throw the bottle, break the door, and disappear.

Sing me to sleep, I'll see you in my dreams,
Waiting to say, "I miss you. I'm so sorry."' it reads

"can you sing it so I can hear how it would sound?" I ask and he nods his head before taking in a small breath and singing the words, I get lost in them,I get lost in all the words as they leave his mouth.

"perfect, okay we can work with that, do you have the other lyrics in mind?" I ask snapping back into reality when he finishes.

"yeah, well give me a few minutes" He says as he turns the notebook back to face him and he goes back to scribbling down words. about an hour after exchanging glances and not talking Alex turns the notebook back to me.

"Forever's never seemed so long as when you're not around
It's like a piece of me is missing.
I could have learned so much from you but what's left now?
Don't you realize you shot this family a world of pain?
Can't you see there could have been a happy ending we let go?

Sing me to sleep, I'll see you in my dreams,
Waiting to say, "I miss you. I'm so sorry."

Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to sleep (You've taken so much with you...)
I'll see you in my dreams, (But left the worst with me...),
Waiting to say, "I miss you. I'm so sorry."
I'm sorry, I'm sorry! " It reads, he sings the song for me and I feel something in my chest, oh  thats him taking my heart out with song lyrics.

"fuck that's an amazing song" is all I can manage to say, "its beautiful" I quickly add...And for some reason it makes me want to cry, but I wont.

"you think?" Alex asks
"yeah I do, meet here tomorrow after school and I can try playing the piano again?"
"I'll be here" he says getting up and he waves goodbye "see you tomorrow Quinn" he says before disappearing from my sight.