[21] Victor opens his eyes
*One week later, Friday night, Vic Pov*
Saturday...Saturday was the day Oliver Sykes, the British kid who used to overly flirt with Kellin, some how found my house and told me about this plan Kellin 'has', I didn't think much of it, later that day Kellin took me to eat and everything seemed fine. Sunday came and Kellin took me to the movies, which was nice. We then went to our spot at night and looked at the stars, He would point at the brightest ones and make little cute comments about them. He seemed fascinated by them, his smile was wide. Everything was perfect.
Then Monday came, Kellin seemed on edge, he sat next to me in our first class like always but Oliver sat in front of me, which he never does. Obviously, why would he want to. Kellin started acting weird, he played with his fingers, this wasn't the Kellin I knew all these years, something was off, I've never seen Kellin so tense. He also seemed angry, I put my hand on his and he softened up and smiled at me, realizing I was looking at him. Jaime wasn't at lunch which seemed to have become a thing for him lately.
Tuesday, Justin came over to our table and sat in Jaime's normal spot, it was almost like he knew Jaime wasn't going to sit there. Justin just sat there like it was his own spot, Kellin was quick to put his hand in mine, almost like if he didn't I would get taken away, almost like he was hiding something, like if someone had a key they weren't supposed to and they slip it to the person next to them, but it wasn't a key he gave me it was his hand. Something I didn't hold on Monday, almost like he forgot I was next to him during lunch on Monday. Justin just sat there,looking at us almost like he was observing us.
Wednesday, in our morning class Kellin got held back after the bell rang, Miss.blue didn't seem happy, I picked up my stuff slowly hoping to hear the conversation but she didn't start talking until I left the room. During lunch I asked Kellin what was wrong and he seemed confused, I then asked him what happened with Miss.Blue and he was like 'oh,yeah her, she said she didn't want to see me in her class next year and said that she would bring up my grade but only if someone was to help me keep it up because she doesnt want to just lie about my grade and not have me get better' then I asked why he gives her so much attitude and he just shrugs 'I give it to almost everybody' he said obviously annoyed that I would even talk to him about that, I shrugged it off.
Thursday, I offered to help Kellin with studying but he said that he got it and he didn't need my help, he also said the reason he doesn't want my help was because he knows I have a lot on my mind and he didnt think I would need the rest of the stress.later yesterday night Kellin took me to eat dinner with him, it was nice, but it seemed so planed, I could've sworn I saw Justin sitting a few tables away from us.
and that leads to today, He had his hand in mine during lunch, just like he has since Tuesday. He seemed almost back to normal but then when Jaime sat at our table Kellin looked at him wide eyed almost like Jaime bullied him, it was the same look I give Jack most of the time. I looked over at Jaime who just shrugged. After school before Kellin dropped me off at my house, I asked him what has been going on with him lately, he told me he didn't know what I was talking about and that everything was like its always has been. He lied to me, to my face and that got me thinking back to what Oliver had told me.
"No Vic, I'm sorry that's not why, he talked to you because Justin was pushing him to go out with someone and that's when he picked you, you are one of his victims, what you have with him isnt real, hes lying to you"
That's when I realized, If Kellin could easily lie to me about everything being fine, Could he have lied to me about us? I tried taking the thought out of my head, but I couldn't. Everything all my friends have ever told me about Kellin just came back to me, thoughts and flashbacks off all the times Jaime would tell me, 'thats not going to happen' 'Kellic wont be a thing' 'Kellin is too not for you' it reminded me of all the times I would catch Mike being mad at Jaime while he thought I wasn't in the same room as them and he would be like. ' I know it wont happen but cant you at least let him think it will happen'
and the fact Oliver even told me, Justin was the one to push Kellin to get a boyfriend and then having Justin watching me the whole week, made me think even more about Oliver being right, he wouldnt just pick someone randomly and just happen to pick the guy who starts watching over Kellin and I.
I never really thought I had a chance, and when I randomly got one, I didn't really question it, I got lost in the fact that it was happening. I never thought I would take Olivers words on this,once I got home I told Mike what Oliver really told me and Mike got mad, he asked me why I never told him until now, and I said because I didn't think I needed to, then he asked me why I ended up telling him and I told him about seeing Justin most of the times while I was with Kellin, and thats when Mike left the house, I told him I would ask Kellin about everything and he said he wasn't going after Kellin. He didn't tell me who he was going to talk to.
I texted Kellin asking him to come over and now I'm just waiting for him to knock on the front door, its locked so he wont have a chance to walk in.
*Kellin Pov*
This week has been hell in my mind, Miss.Blue, Miss.Green whatever you want to call her has been on my back about work and how she doesn't want me in her class again almost as much as I don't want to be in her class again, besides that, Oliver seems to have told Justin his thoughts, and Justin has been on my back about Vic, asking me little questions about how Vic's doing, I would smile and tell him Vic is fine and that getting a boyfriend was the best thing I've ever done. Jaime was the one who gave me the tip about Oliver telling Justin, it wasn't a friendly heads up or warning it was a planed fact that Jaime wanted to give me the news to make me nervous, and he did make me nervous.
I try turning the knob on Vic's door but its locked, I knock on the door and I hear the flick of a lock and I watch as Vic opens the door, I smile at him but he gives nothing in return. He steps away so I can walk in and he doesn't bother closing the door.
"I need to ask you a question" He says with no emotion what so ever, my smile fades a little bit.
"what is it?" I ask
"is this fake?" He asks
"Is what fake? My hair? no, its real, I know its too good to be true"
"Kellin this is not the time, is this real?"
"is what real?" I act dumb hoping he doesn't go in the direction I think hes going in
"You lied to me when you said everything was okay, this week, you weren't you! You didn't seem confident and when you did you were a ass hole!" He raises his voice at me scaring me. "Oliver talked to me on Saturday and told me about some plan you have, or had, I didn't think it was real but this is me seriously asking you, is this a lie? Is this connection you and me have, fake? Do I even mean anything to you?" He adds, his voice trembling
"You mean the world to me, I don't have a plan,I've never had a plan" I say trying to make it seem true
"Tell me the truth"
"That was the truth" I state
"No its not, I want to believe you aren't lying to me Kellin, but something seems off, You seem off, tell me you aren't lying to me and prove it to me, whats something you like about me"
"....Your smile"
"I cant believe it, stop lying to me, you fucking hesitated"
I fucked up.
"okay fine! I had a plan to make you my boyfriend" I blurt out before second thought and I see tears come in his eyes
"But I started getting-" I start but then he cuts me off
"Don't you dare tell me you've gotten feelings for me, When you were sick I was scared to fucking death, I wanted to make sure you were okay and two days later we both went back to school and well I was absent for a while in the morning and you didn't text me, didn't see if I was okay! What if you got me sick, what if you passed on your fucking cold to me? you felt like shit when you were sick, I know that for a fact, if I felt that way I don't think you'd care, before you asked me out, did you even have a slight feeling for me? Wait don't answer that, it was a no, and whats your answer now in this moment, do you have feelings for me?"
I take a deep breath "No" I admit in a small voice.
"and here I am, I was so fucking stupid, I knew this was too good to be true, you don't like me and you never will" He says his voice cracking and tears coming down more.
"Vic please stop crying, I want to be friends, I really do" I say putting my arms around him, he gets out of my grip.
"Fuck you! You cant just do this to me and say you want to be my friend! Do you know how humiliating this is? i've wanted this for years, I wanted to be your friend for years, and I actually thought you liked me, you told me you loved me, I admitted I loved you! and after all this time, You felt nothing! Nothing! You aren't allowed to make me feel like the best person in the world and put words into my head that you didn't mean! I really did love you, and you never even cared about me! Mike, Jaime and Tony told me this wouldn't work along time ago before you even said Hi to me for the first time, people said you were a dick and used people but I never believed that! It was obvious you didn't like everyone so I wasn't surprised that you had so called, Victims, but then I became one of your own! I was and am another one of your victims!" He yells at me
"Vic no,no please stop crying, can we start this boyfriend thing over?" I ask maybe pushing my luck a little
"But you don't care for me! I cant pretend to be your boyfriend while I know you don't even like me like that"
"I can try to like you like that"
"Here how about this, You tell Justin whatever the fuck you want about us braking up, I don't care. Tell him I was too crazy, tell him I was too fucking attached! You win! Kellin Quinn, You've won your own game"
"Vic please, calm down" I say stepping closer to him and I put my hand out trying to wipe his tears away but he steps back
"Get out, I want you out of my house"
"Vic please" I beg
"Your plan worked, You don't need to be seen with me anymore, I know you dont want to anyways, Just go, right now" He says trying to stop crying. He goes over to the door and waits for me to walk out.
"Vic"
"Leave" He says raising his voice again and I have no choice but to walk out.
"I thought you were different" He says softly before slamming the door behind me, making me jump, I never thought I'd see Vic like that, his last comment actually really hurt me, I sigh before making my way into my car and just sitting in the drivers seat for minutes watching Vic's house replaying everything in my mind. Well At least Vic wont tell Justin this was fake.
Bạn đang đọc truyện trên: AzTruyen.Top