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No way.
"You are joking!" I exclaim with a big smile on my face.
"No, I am not!" He exclaims back with the same energy as me. Damn, three good looking and great guys saying yes for a date with me?
"Are you sure you are not pranking me?" I ask, a little suspicious. Even though I knew he wouldn't joke around with a thing like this, I still had a question like that in my mind.
"Do you think I am pranking?"
"No?"
"You got your answer." He says as I could feel a few things shifting on the other side of the call before he spoke up, "So, when are you free?"
I turn my head to the side of my office table and squint my eyes to check the date before answering, "I am free tomorrow."
"Okay, so Jay and Sunghoon for tomorrow and Jungwon for Sunday because he has some work?"
"Sounds good."
"Great. Slay on your date, though." I physically hear the sass in his voice.
"Thanks, bestie." I reply back with the same amount of sass in my voice and tone of words.
Damn, I really am going to be in a relationship again. I got lucky to have three good guys say yes for a date with me.
Wait, no.
I really should not get my expectations up. Because the last time I thought I was going to get in a relatinship with a good guy, I ended up being physically and sexually abused which made the apparently 'good' guy one of my worst nightmares. I would really do anything to not cross paths with that bastard again, or he might actually end up dying by Jake's hands, and I do not want that. I don't want a close friend of mine in jail.
But, those three are not like them.
Those three are far better han those dickheads who either used me, abused me both, sexually and physically, didn't let me live my life. I am sure about that.
I would be lying if I say I wasn't scared to date again, but that doesn't mean I am going to stay single forever. But that also doesn't mean I will stay with someone ruining me or my mental health. I have many people with me as well, so I really wouldn't stay with someone how I did the previous times. I really don't want to fall for the wrong person again.
I will lose myself I go through something like that again.
"Iseul? You didn't change yet?" Eunjoo enters my room after knocking on it to make me aware about her entery. "Are you crying?"
I don't know when or why I started crying, but all I know is that I am crying even more after she asked me.
It was just a single tear flowing out my eye when she asked me, but why am I crying a waterfall now? I don't even know the reason of crying.
Probably because I am scared, or the memories just flooded back in again. Whatever it is, I am really crying for a stupid reason.
"Oh god, What's wrong?" She says and marches towards me at full speed, almost as if she would start flying if she ran any faster.
"I don't know." I mumble and wipe the drop trying to fall out my eye with the sleeve or my shirt. I hate when I feel like this. Miserable and vulnerable. I am not usually like this, but when I am, I start to hate myself for it.
"Whatever it is, it's alright. I am here." She says, pulls me in for a hug and pats my head as I hold onto her, letting the tears flow out without any sound.
It was a few minutes in the comforting position before I withdrawed myself from the older and smiled at her with my puffy eyes feeling heavy as I smiled. She tucked my hair behind my ear and patted my back.
She is the older sister I never had.
"It's alright, yeah? Go on and take a shower so we can chill together later on. I will order some pizza too." She smiles at me wider and says. How did I ever get so lucky to have her in my life?
"Sounds good. I will be back in a minute."
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I really don't know how we manged to make a mess like this. All we were trying to do was some karaoke and eat. Guess, me hitting that high note made me too excited that I tossed everything. And her being excited with me, tossed things too. We just tossed things together. But nonetheless, she really made me feel so much more better.
"Eunjoo? Can I tell you something?"
"Go on."
"I am," I take a deep brethe in, "going on a date with Jake's friends."
"Wait! A poly?"
"No! separately."
[AUTHOR'S NOTE]
this chapter feels a little fast paced and rushed, but i swear that wasnt my intention. i just dont know how to lengthen my stories withoit being boring, so give me tips please.
i hope you enjoy! I love you!
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