The debate with myself about whether I should move my sisters with my aunt, I got to the decision of doing so. One thing was done too, my aunt was more than happy to have my sisters with her. Now the hard part, talking to Kyung-mi and Ju-won about it. And that is not going to be easy. I can already sense it. Ju-won is definitely going to throw a tantrum and Kyung-mi, i am not too sure about her reaction. What I have to make sure is that they don't end up hating me for it. Whether I have to give them a bribe, or lie to them, but I need to do it. I can't handle them anymore.

•••

"What? No! I am not going to live with  aunt!" Ju-won yells at me. Guess my gut was right, she did throw a tantrum.

"You will have to go." I say calmly even though I wanted to just smack her head against the wall because of how loud she was being.

"Why? You don't even have any reason for that!" She yells again. Darn it. I do have a reason and if I tell you, I am sure you will hate me forever.

"I do have a reason."

"What is it then? Let me hear it too!"

"I- My boyfriend is moving in with me." What the fuck am I saying.

"Huh? Boyfriend? Really?" Her eyes lit up almost as if someone placed a lamp inside her sockets. How fast did she switch up. "Yes." I say. Even though I knew that I wasn't going to get into another relationship for a long time, I did have to pretend I have a boyfriend so that they'll happily move out.

"Can we meet him?" She asks with the same lighted eyes. Where the hell do I get a boyfriend from now?

"No." I say it without any emotion. Almost monotone.

"Why not?" The light in her eyes disappeared. Guess, she's really desperate to meet my non-existent boyfriend.

"He said he doesn't want to meet any of my family members for now." I lied again. How many lies I say a day to live peacefully.

"He sounds like a jerk." She raises an eyebrow.

"He is not." Because he doesn't even exist. "Pack your bags now." I completed my sentence.

"But-" I cut her off before she could protest more, "Ju-won."

"Fine." She say with a disappointed expression and tone. So desperate to meet my boyfriend who I made up in under two minutes.

I did it! I successfully did it! I will finally be living alone! I will finally have the privacy I love! This feels so surreal, please don't be a dream. Wait, what if it is a dream? I should check.
     I then bring my hand to my other arm and take some skin between my fingers, aggressively pinching myself. Ouch, that hurt. Nevermind, it is not a dream! They will be leaving tomorrow, and from tomorrow on, I will finally have the time and space I want!

•••

"Good afternoon, aunt." I say happily and bow to my aunt before taking her inside the house. Ju-won wasn't still so happy about my decision but after I fooled her into thinking that I have a boyfriend, she didn't seem to be that mad. And as for Kyung-mi, she didn't react much. She said that as long as she won't be living there alone, she is fine. Kyung-mi, my only smart sister.

"I see, Ju-won isn't happy to be living with me." My aunt says and takes a seat beside me on the couch. Only if you knew what lie I had to feed her to even make her agree. Only if you knew, aunt.

"No, no, it's just she's on her period so she's looking moody. She was really happy to be living with you!" I said. Another lie but what else was I supposed to do? It's not like telling her that Ju-won, in fact, doesn't want to live with her would be a smart decision.

"Bye, iseul." Ju-won says, as if she were soulless. I mean, yeah, she kind of was. She was unwillingly going somewhere, of course she would be looking and sounding soulless. But I really don't need to care about that right now, because now if she sounds soulless, or her soul actually gets less from her body, she will definitely move into my aunt's.

I think my wording is a little harsh.

"Bye. Don't trouble aunt too much." I say and smile at her, which she returns with a forced one. I am not going to lie, she looked funny.

"Bye, kyung-mi." I smile at her and pat her head. She smiles back at me. Finally someone who smiled genuinely at me. I needed a genuine smile. But what I need more is that they should leave quickly because I really cannot wait to have the whole house by myself.

"I'll drive them here soon." My aunt smiles at me and pats my head just like I patted Kyung-mi. Not going to lie, no matter how strict my aunt was, she made sure we were leaving in peace and was really sweet. I practically grew up with her. She's like a second mother to me. When my mother was in the hospital, she was the only one who took care of me and my baby sisters when no one else even cared.

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"This is so refreshing!" I exclaim stepping inside my house after making sure my aunt and two sisters drove away and locking my door.

I can finally step out of my room and dance to What Is Love in the living room!

I can finally watch The Eve choreography on TV without being judged!

Sehun, I can finally simp on you without getting weird stares from my sisters. I hope you accept me now.

Oh no, my delusions.

Oh god.

Please no.

This dizziness is killing me.

Why do I always feel sick when I get happy? Yeah, not always when I am happy, but whenever I am chilling, I suddenly get sick.

This has been happening to me for almost a year now.

I can't live with so much dizziness, no appetite, no energy and with swollen feet.

[AUTHOR'S NOTE]
Hello everyone!

i wrote a pretty long chapter hmm

Thank you for reading!