"I sincerely apologise. We could not save him." I 'sincerely' apologised and looked down to the ground. Of course, it is sincere. Which surgeon dares to give an insincere apology to the family of a person who just died, all because of the surgeon himself? Well, now i think i used too much sarcasm. I am the surgeon who dares to give an insincere apology to the family of someone who just died, all because of me. Why? Isn't it too obvious as well? Of course i like the feeling of indirect murder. Indirect, for the people who stayed out the operation room. While for the nurses there, it was too direct.

"Hyunjin, you cannot just go around and kill people like that. Please wake the human inside of you." Jake said and walked up in front of me. Concerned. That expression, my second favourite. Scare, My top favourite. "Why not? It's just a hobby." I said, flipping the pages of the file that was in my hand. How sad for the poor, now dead person who i just killed. My second unofficial murder. "A hobby should stay harmless." He says with a gaze that could burn wholes in the spirit of anyone. Not me, of course. "It is harmless. Look at the bright side instead of making me the bad guy." I close the file and sent the glare back to him. I couldn't tell if he was actually not budging or just trying to keep his cool.

"Making you the bad guy?"

"Of course. You're framing me as if you have never done anything wrong."

"That was just one time, hwang hyunjin. That too because i was protecting you."

"Yeah, protecting me, but a murder is still a murder."

He stayed quiet this time. Guess, i won again from him this time. Just like the good old times when me and him were just kids.

"You're an asshole. I hope you know that." He finally says and takes the file that I was previously going through in his hands and leaves the cabin. Too bad he left like that, I had more business with him.

It won't be a surprise if one day jake comes to me with a gun and tries to shoot me. He already looked like he would cut my head open here and now, but of course he didn't have the guts to do so after he 'protected' me years ago. I can't even call that protection considering how it was all the reason that made me like this. This, as in someone who likes to see blood pour out of bodies. He showed me that scenery for the first time, i got drew to it, i wanted to see more, i tried, i succeeded, and now here i am. If it never were for that one day, I would've stayed innocent and not a 'murderer', as he decided to name me as after he learned how i failed a surgery on purpose.

Jake and me, you could say we were the best pair of friends ever known to humankind. But this one night, everything changed. He was terrified, while i felt pretty good for reasons i still don't know. Yes, i was kind of terrified too, but not as much as him. He was all sweating, shaking, breathing hard. I also know some of the people are confused as to what happened that our frienship fell apart, but i rather not talk about it that much. Especially in front of someone who can create harm to me if they knew what had happened. Guess, it will stay buried forever. Not sure, but for now, it won't be taken out.