I don't know whats going to happen now

Its graduation soon and you'll be there and I'll be there

We're never going to see each other again

Ever

Never again

We'll share one last longing look, but neither of us would dare to reduce the distance between us. I can just picture it happening

I guess we're both just insecure in our own ways

I feel like we're meant to be, but maybe not

But what do I know?

I'm going to miss you

I'm going to miss you so much

I don't know how that's possible though; missing something, someone I didn't even have, but I will. I will miss you

And I'd like to think that maybe, just maybe, you'll look back one day, five years from now, or twenty years from now and remember me

Maybe you'll remember the way i used to smile, or the way I would look when I would catch you staring. I hope you remember the way I would look at you when I thought you weren't watching

Maybe you'll remember my jokes, my dry sense of humour

It doesn't matter what you remember about me

I just want to believe that maybe you'll miss me

Even a little bit

But I don't think you will. In fact, I know you wont

How can you miss something that was never there? That you never had?

My heart aches as i write this, on October 23rd, in the middle of the night.

It might be too early, but I just know

I don't want to say I love you, because that's impossible and it would hurt too much

More than it does now

I'll always remember you

I'll never forgot you