CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT: CAN YOU FORGIVE ME?

"Never waste a moment, it might be the last with someone you love"

---

THIRD PERSON'S POV.

The song 'Another One Bites the Dust' by Queen was playing out loudly on the speakers as Ben was holding a bottle of champagne that Diego opened with a sword while Y/n, the Sparrow and the Umbrella was in the living room, celebrating that they have saved the universe.

Ohh, let's go

Ben poured some champagne in Five's glass.

Steve walks warily down the street

Sloane and Fei were both holding a glass with champagne as they were dancing.

With a brim pulled way down low

Lila wrapped her arm around Five's shoulder who looked over at Y/n who was sitting on one of couches with a smile.

Ain't no sound. But the sound of his feet

Lila ruffled his hair with a smile.

Machine guns ready to go

Y/n smiled as she saw the others partying.

Are you ready? Hey, are you ready for this?

The Sparrows and the Umbrellas all started dancing around the living room.

"Y/n, come over here and party" Diego said to Y/n "Hey, I'm the one that will have the first dance with her" Five said to Diego "Are you jealous of your brother asking me to party with him?" you asked Five "When I had you all to myself for years, can you blame me for being jealous" he replied before he turned his head while he tried to hide a smile as it grew on his lips.

Are you hanging on the edge of your seat

Fei and Sloane smiled as they cheered with their glass.

Out of the doorway the bullets rip

Allison was standing far off the side with a bottle of champagne in her hand. She had a frown on her face.

To the sound of the beat yeah

Fei bow to Allison before she rejoin the dance floor.

Another one bites the dust

Ben was pouring the champagne bottle down his mouth as Diego gave him a bump from behind with his chest.

Another one bites the dust

Luther uncorked another bottle of champagne before he sprayed it all over.

And another one gone and another one gone
Another one bites the dust yeah

Viktor was smiling to see his family having fun.

Hey I'm gonna get you too
Another one bites the dust

Allison and Viktor looked at each other and Allison turned around before leaving.

How do you think I'm going to get along
Without you when you're gone

Viktor let out a sigh before leaving the living room.

You took me for everything that I had
And kicked me out on my own

Five smiled as Lila pulled him closer to the others.

Are you happy are you satisfied?
How long can you stand the heat

Ben poured down more champagne into Five's glass.

Out of the doorway the bullets rip
To the sound of the beat look out

Ben was pouring the champagne bottle down his mouth as Diego gave him a bump from behind with his chest.

Another one bites the dust
Another one bites the dust

Y/n then got up before leaving the room

And another one gone and another one gone

---

The sound of distant explosions booming was heard as Luther was sitting on the edge of the Academy, looking down at a book he have found in Sloane's room.

He let out a sigh as he looked up and out on the destroyed city.

"Are you avoiding me?" Sloane asked and he turned around to look at her.

"Busted" he said and she chuckled as he turned around before he jumped down.

He then cleaned his throat as he walked over to stand in front of her.

He let out a sigh as he showed her the book "My travel guide?" she asked as she looked up at him.

"I, uh, made you a new list" he said and she grabbed it "It's all your favorite Italian monuments that are still left standing, color-coded by region, of course" he said with a smile and she let out a soft chuckled "Nerd" she said with a smile.

"Well, you just saved the world. You deserve to finally see it" he said and she looked at him before looking back down at her book, flipping through the pages.

"And...I'd like to see it with you" he said and she stopped when she spotted a ring in between two pages.

She picked it up to see it was a golden ring with a moon stone.

"I, um...I made it myself. I couldn't exactly find a diamond on short notice, but the stone is moon rock. Um, I brought it back with me, and I've kind of been keeping it for a special occasion, and, well, I--" "Luther, it's beautiful" she said as she looked at him and he smiled.

He then lifted his hand and he slowly took the ring before he took her hand and slowly got down on one knee.

"Sloane, will you marry me?" he asked and she smiled before she nodded and chuckled causing Luther to smile.

Luther slid the ring on her finger and while looking at each other he got up before they kissed.

---

YOUR POV.

I was sitting outside on a window ledge with my legs hanging out of the edge as I was looking up at the orange sky that The Kugleblitz had cause.

I was sitting moving my legs back and forth while my palms was on the ledge.

"Hey" a voice said and I turned her head to see Five behind me "Can I sit?" he asked.

I was still angry at him but I didn't want to ruin this moment "Yeah, I guess" I said and he sat down next to me.

"Y/n I want to a--" "No" I said, cutting him off "I don't want to hear your excuses. I just want to enjoy this moment" I said and he nodded before the two of us looked up, admiring the red and orange sky that the Kugelblitz had cause.

"Why wasn't their a view like this in the apocalypse?" I asked "I don't think that is that bad. But it look a bit like the view we had in the apocalypse" he said "Yeah, only a little bit" I said before I took a deep breath.

It's funny 'cause I've always dreamed of me and you
Now here we are
Staring at the stars

"Well, we did alright, for the end of the world" I said "Do you miss it?" he asked "Do I miss the apocalypse?" I asked and he nodded.

You just broke my heart
Even though you promised you'd never do that from the start
But I guess we can only make it so far

I missed how simple things were in the apocalypse and how easier it was for the two of us, but I didn't miss the hard days, like those days where we almost froze to death or all those close call death experiences.

'Cause time wasn't in our favor
This isn't goodbye, this is simply see you later

"I miss the apocalypse. Not the survival or the first years, but I miss our home and the random belongings we had collected and claimed as our own, and I miss the peace you and I had as the last two people alive. And I miss our sons. Thinking about them and missing them every day" I said "So do I. Every day" he said with a sigh.

Let me know when it's time to come back
Maybe when your life is on track
And you don't have to hesitate
Hopefully it isn't too late

"What do you think our lives could look like if the apocalypse had never happened?" he asked "I would have living that life I was supposed to live" I replied "What if you and I met somewhere else?" he asked "I don't think I would have falling for you, since I hated you the first years we met" I said.

Luckily for you I'm patient
I'm ok with you making me wait and
As long as you're near, I'll be here
Even if it takes ten years

"Yeah, but if now fate wanted us together and you had falling for me, what do you think would have happen?" he asked "I don't know. Maybe we would have had a long happy marriage without secrets" I said and he let out a sigh "And we would have had kids at some point. Children that we didn't lose" I said.

Can't fall in love, when I found the one
How am I supposed to move on
When you're never really too far gone?

"It's not your fault that Adam died" Five said "It is, Five. He had inherited my ill heart. And Milo...." I said and Five let out a sigh "We only lost Milo because we didn't had any medicine or medical things to treat him with" he said "And he would have being alive and lived a long life" I said as a single tear felled from my eyes while I thought about my sons.

I really wish they were here.

The memories won't go away
I feel pain every time I hear your name
But I always think of you the same

"You would have been a good mom. I might have made a questionable dad" he said "Well, you were a good dad that short time we had both of them" I said before I took a deep breath.

'Cause time wasn't in our favor
This isn't goodbye, this is simply see you later

"You would still be a good dad, with or without me" I said "And I know for sure that even if it was not with me, you would be an amazing mother, you were one for Milo and Adam" he said and I let out a small smile.

Let me know when it's time to come back
Maybe when your life is on track
And you don't have to hesitate
Hopefully it isn't too late

It fell silent between the two of us for a few moments, leaving our minds to wander further, picturing the normal life we could have had together.

Luckily for you I'm patient
I'm ok with you making me wait and
As long as you're near, I'll be here
Even if it takes ten years

"Just so you know, I don't blame you for the apocalypse" I said and he looked at me "It's just, I wish you would have told me about the truth as soon as you found out, 'cause we would have figure it out together, because all my life I have always wondered how I ended up in coma and how I landed in the apocalypse" I said "I know and I'm so sorry for not telling" he said.

Let me know when it's time to come back
Maybe when your life is on track
And you don't have to hesitate
Hopefully it isn't too late

"I hated you when I found out, but after thinking about and after having a talk with a few people, I realized that it wasn't your fault" I said before I let out a sigh "But I'm still not over that you kissed someone else" I said "I know" he said with a sigh.

Luckily for you I'm patient
I'm ok with you making me wait and
As long as you're near, I'll be here

"I never meant to hurt you Y/n/n. Before I married you, all I ever wanted was to keep you safe and the day you said yes to be my wife, I promised that above everything I would put you first and I thought by not telling you, was keeping you safe. But I was wrong, it just tore us apart. I hate myself for not telling you the truth. I didn't wanted to tell you because I was scared of losing you. But not telling is what made me lose you. And I know it's not my place to decide what you get to know and I should have told you the truth the second I found out and I'm so sorry" he said and I looked down.

"I know you hate me. I hate myself too" he said as he also looked down.

"I don't hate you" I said which cause him to look at me "I hate everything that went on between us because of us" I said "I hate it too" he said and the two of us looked at each other.

Even if it takes ten years
Even if it takes ten years, oh, oh
Even if it takes ten years

"Five, I'm not angry at you for being the main reason I got stuck in the apocalypse and ending in a coma, I'm angry at you for not telling me. And I'm angry at you for not telling me about you and The Handler. And keeping such big secrets it's not okay" I said and he nodded "I know and I'm so sorry" he said, his voice breaking a bit "If I could turn back time, I would travel back and tell you the truth the minute we arrived in 2019 for the first time or the minute I find out" he said before he took a deep breath.

"I'm so sorry, Love" he said "Stop calling me that. I'm not your wife anymore" I said "But you are still my love. That hasn't changed" he said "You're insane" I said "You will still be my wife in every timeline" I couldn't help but smile when he said that. 

"Can you forgive me?" he asked and I looked at him.

Let me know when it's time to come back
Maybe when your life is on track
And you don't have to hesitate
Hopefully it isn't too late

"No" I said as I shook my head "I don't think I can ever forgive you for that" I said and Five's face fell as he looked down.

Luckily for you I'm patient

FIVE'S POV

I tried my best not to shear a tear, I have lost her.

But then I felt a hand on top of mine, causing me to look at Y/n   

"But I would like to try" I said as she looked at me.

When she said that my heart began to pound, I haven't lost her just yet.

"I like that" I smiled.

 "I need time" she said "I will wait, no matter how long it takes" I said and a small smile appeared on her face which cause me to smile as well.

"I made mistakes but I'll try my best to win back your heart and turn things around because you deserve the world and I'm willing to give you more. I'm not afraid of anything because I know you're the person I want to be with whenever" I said.   

I'm ok with you making me wait and
As long as you're near, I'll be here
Even if it takes ten years
Even if it takes ten years, oh, oh
Even if it takes ten years

---

THIRD PERSON'S POV.

Diego was sitting up on the second floor, looking at the paintings that was hanging on the wall when Lila walked over to him.

"Sorry about your robot mum" Lila said "She wasn't my real one" Diego said "Okay" she said before she sighed "Sorry I lied to you about Stanley. I miss him too, you know. I liked that little shit and his wonky ears" she said and he looked at her "He deserved better" he said "Yeah, he did" she said and he looked back at the paintings.

"Do you know why I brought him to you?" she asked "Because you're a sociopath?" he said "No. Because I'm a coward" she said and he looked at her "Dropping a kid in your lap and seeing if you're reject us and run felt safer than telling you the truth" she said "Which is?" he asked "I'm pregnant, Diego" she said.

There was a few second of silence before he got up and was about to walk away but she stopped him "Diego" she said, grabbing his arm and turned him around to look at her.

"I'm pregnant" she said again and his eyes widened as he look at her knowing that she was telling the truth.

"I'll pee on whatever stick you want later, but for now, please, can you just..." she said before they both sat down and he sighed.

"My mum put a bullet in my heart. Did you know that?" she asked "Yeah. Five told me. How did you know?" he asked "Infinite Switchboard. I missed your stupid face, so I snuck in to get a glimpse of you. And instead...Thing is, I'm not gonna be very good at this...mother thing. Apples and trees. But I saw you with Stan, and you're a good dad" she said "What do you want from me, Lila?" he asked "Okay. Truth? I think you should run from me" she said and chuckled "I, um...I think I'm a bloody mess. And I think that someone who's...who never had a family is in no position to ask for one. But that's what I want. With you" she said.

There was a few second silence before he spoke up "Can I think about it?" he asked and she chuckled "Yeah. Of course" she said and he sighed.

---

YOUR POV.

I have told Five that I went back to the hotel.

So when I returned to the hotel, I quickly walked into one of the many bathrooms.

I took a deep breath before I pulled a pregnancy test out from my pocket.

I have bought the pregnancy test by one of the gas stations on my way to the Academy.

I let out a sigh as I just stared down at the pregnancy test.

"Nothing is gonna happen if I just keep staring at it" I said to myself.

I have realized why my hormones have being swinging like crazy for the short time, why I had gotten so furious and why my anger issues was harder to control.

I didn't knew when it started since I had being too focus on everything else.

It could have happen back in 63' or after the fight against the Sparrows, or when Five and I was on a road trip and we did it in the car or after we returned back from The Commission.

I didn't even knew if I really was pregnant. But it could explain my hormones had being swinging back and forth and why my anger issues was harder to control. 

Beside Five and I had being trying and those times we were trying, I was most fertile, so the chances were high.

I had only being pregnant three times and I only knew it because I found out that my period were late by two months, I had morning sickness and was sensitive towards smells.

I haven't had my period yet but I couldn't wait on that, so now there was only one way to find out.

---

THIRD PERSON'S POV.

Five knocked on a door before he opened it and enter to see Viktor sitting on a couch "Hey, want some company?" Five asked "Sure" Viktor said "Okay" Five said and closed the door before he walked farther into the room.

"Hey, that was really nice of you. Kill Mom so Diego didn't have to" Viktor said as Five walked over to the desk "My God. We are a weird family, aren't we" Five said as he grabbed a small box on the desk "Sorry. Yeah, I heard it as I said it" Viktor said "It's all right" Five said as he sat down on a chair next to the couch.

Five put the box on the coffee table before he opened it and exhales sharply as he took a cigar out of the box, before putting his right leg over his left.

"What are we gonna do about Allison?" Viktor asked "We're all worried about Allison. I'm scared for you" Five said "Seriously?" Viktor asked "Yeah" Five said as he leaned back.

"She killed someone. I was trying to do the right thing and save Harlan's life" Viktor said "Do you know why I wanted this last jump to work so badly?" Five asked "Because you're old and tired?" Viktor replied "Because Y/n and I slaughtered a boardroom full of people to buy our way back here" Five said "Shit" Viktor said.

Viktor hasn't realized just how much Five had done for them until now. He didn't know what he did so they could get back. He hasn't realized just how much Five sacrificed and lived through for them.

"Little advice from someone who's been there?" Five said and leaned forward a bit "Don't do the math. That equation does not exist. Theres no 'save five Harlans for every two Claires' formula. People like us, we will never save enough lives to make up for the ones that we take" he said "I don't accept that" Viktor said "Then you'll drown. This is the price of being powerful. Sometimes we step on ants. And the sooner you face that, the safer we'll all be" Five said "What is that supposed to mean?" Viktor asked "It means you're very dangerous, Viktor Hargreeves. The decisions you make impact the entire world. So no matter how benevolent they may seem, you don't get to make them alone" Five said and Viktor looked down "You know what they call a superhero who works alone and doesn't listen to anybody?" Five said before taking a deep breath.

"A villain" he finishing and Viktor looked at him.

"I am not a villain, Five" Viktor said "And, Viktor, I hope to God you never will be. But that remains to be seen" Five said and put the cigar back in the box before he got up with a sigh.

"No more going rouge. If you ever need anything, I'm always here for you. But lie to us again..." he said before taking a deep breath.

"Viktor, I'll kill you myself" he finished and Viktor looked at him.

I knew that it was cruel to say that to my own brother, but I meant it.

Viktor was growing too careless to be the hero he once wanted to be. Therefore I couldn't risk him becoming a villain.

If Viktor's action will become a threat and put those people I love  in danger especially Y/n. I will have no other choice than to kill everyone who is a threat or put the rest of my family especially Y/n in danger, even if it means killing my own brother to protect Y/n and the rest of my family.

---

YOUR POV.

I was still in the bathroom, looking myself in the mirror while my hands were by the sink.

I was taking some deep breaths as the pregnancy test was laying upside down next to the sink.

"Alright, it's time" I sad before I took a deep breath "Please, be good" I whispered to myself as I grabbed the test before I lifted it up.

I let out a sigh as I turned the test around and my eyes widened as I saw the result.

"Shit"  

Then suddenly a drop of blood fell from my nose again but before I could wipe it off, I cough and my eyes widened when I saw that blood had came out.

That is not good.

Okay I have to find out what's wrong with me.

I grabbed my jacket before I walked out of the bathroom and out of the hotel.

I knew a doctor that was living nearby who had opened 24/7, I hope he is still there.

---

I knocked on the door and a older man with gray hair opened "Hello miss, how can I help you?" he asked "I know that you need an an appointment, but I really need to talk to you" I said "Well, since I don't have any clients I guess I can see you" he said before letting me in.

---

"Okay, what seems to be the matter?" he asked "I need you to examine me. Drop of blood sometimes fell from my nose and I cough out blood" I said and he looked at me "Let's run some test.

----

After the doctor had examining me, he look through the result.

I could see on his face that it was not good new "What's wrong?" I asked "Is your parents with you?" he asked "No. I lost them" I said "I'm sorry about that. But isn't there any other adults?" he asked "No. Just please tell me what's wrong" I said.

"Well the good news is that you are pregnant" he said and I smiled but then it quickly disappeared again.

"And the bad news?" I asked "I can see on the result, that your heart is very ill" he said "I know that" I said "Did you know that it have become worse?" he asked and I looked at him "That's why blood will sometimes drip from your nose, it's the side effect that your heart is getting weaker. So you have to be careful not to get too scared or angry or stress. It can't take another panic attack or seizure. It might kill you" he said "Yeah, I have a feeling that it soon can't take it anymore" I said, looking away before I look back at the doctor.

"What about me coughing blood?" I asked "Well, you have leukemia" he said and my eyes widened "What?" I asked "Leukemia is a cancer of the blood's white blood cells, which are called leukocytes. The task of the white blood cells is to defend the body against foreign invasion, including infections" he said "I know what it is, but are you sure?" I asked "Yeah, it explain you cough up blood and you being pale and feeling tired and exhausted all the time" he said "Can it be cured?" I asked and he looked at me "I'm sorry, but no" he said and I looked down.

"How long do I have until---" "If you take really good care of yourself, don't have another panic attack or seizure, then you will have eight to nine months left to live, if you are lucky 10 months" he said and I looked down "I'm sorry miss" he said "Well, I knew that death would come to me eventually" I said before I took a deep breath "Thank you for your time doctor" I said before I jumped down and left.

---

THIRD PERSON'S POV.

Ben, Chris and Fei was sitting in the living room in front of the fire place.

"I'm glad we made peace. It all worked out" Ben said as he poured some champagne in Fei's glass "Yeah" she said as she leaned back and Ben put the champagne bottle on the floor next to him.

"But we're definitely killing them in the morning, right?" Fei asked and Chris said something "And Chris has dibs on knife boy" Fei said.

"No one is killing anyone" Ben said "Why not?" Fei asked and Ben looked at her "We followed your plan, merged the families, saved the world. We don't need them anymore" Fei said "I'm not done yet" Ben said "Done what?" Fei asked "That's between me and Dad" Ben said before taking a sip of his champagne glass and Fei leaned forward in her chair "You made a deal with Dad?" she asked "Maybe" he said before he put his glass down on the floor.

"Fine. I'm done" Fei said as she got up "Sit down" Ben ordered "No. We don't recognize your authority anymore. You're a terrible leader with no loyalty to anyone but yourself" she said "You don't speak for Christopher" Ben said and Christopher said something causing Ben to get up "Really, dude?" he asked him and Fei let out a small laugh.

"I'm Number One. You'll do as I say when I say it" Ben said to her "Not anymore" Fei said before she looked at Chris "Here's to a new life without this dickhead" she said before she cheered her glass on Christopher and drank the glass empty.

But then the sound of energy fluctuating was heard and Chris started to shaking violently causing Fei and Ben to walk slowly closer to him.

"Christopher, what's wrong?" Fei asked but Christopher just kept shaking more as cracks appeared on him.

"Back away, Fei" Ben said "Chris, it's going to be okay" Fei said as she stepped closer to him while Ben took some step backwards "Fei!" he shouted "I'm going to help you. Just--" Fei said but then Christopher exploded and Fei let out a dying screams as The Kugelblitz pulled her in while Ben was knock to the floor.

Another shockwave pulsing was heard as the whole Academy started shaking before collapsing.

---

Five and Viktor ran out of the room as the whole place was shaking while it started to fall apart "We gotta get out!" Viktor said as Five spotted Ben laying unconscious on the floor in the living room while the Kugelblitz got bigger and bigger, closing in on him.

"Wait. Ben!" Five shouted before he blinked into the living room, grabbing Ben and he reach to blink away before they could get hit by the Kugelblitz.

The whole Academy was suck into the Kugelblitz together with other buildings next to it.

---

YOUR POV.

I walked back to the hotel. How the hell am I going to tell Five?

'Hey I'm pregnant and dying'

But then I was almost knocked off my feet by the Kugelblitz wave.

"What the hell" I said before I looked outside and my eyes widened when I saw the explosion of the Academy and of the many other building.

It was not over.

"No" I said.

Then I spotted Five, his siblings, Lila and two members of the Sparrows came running down the street towards the hotel that was still standing.

Weird.

"What happen?" I asked as we all walked inside "Fei and Chris are dead" Ben said "It's not over. The plan has failed and it have now speeded up the end of everything" Five said and my eyes widened.

"So what now?" I asked "I don't know" Five said with a sigh before he looked at me "I'm glad that you are okay" he said.

Well, if you count that I would be dead in around eight to 10 months anyway okay.

I could tell Five what I have found out, but I decided to wait, knowing that now was not the best time.

"The worst feeling, isn't being lonely, it's being forgotten by someone you'd never forget"

A/N: This is also one of my favorite chapters. I like Five's and the Reader's talk.

So The Reader are pregnant and dying.

Do you think that you will forgive Five?

What would you do now?

What do you think about Five's and The Reader's talk?

How do you think that Five will react when the Reader tells him?

What do you think about this chapter?

Leave your answer in the comment.

Hope you like this chapter, vote or comment if you did.

That part of Five asking Reader if she will forgive him is taking from 'The Last of us' Ellie tells Joel that she don't know if she will ever forgive him, but she would like to try.

Five and Reader talk are inspired from a scene I saw.