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Layla already knew about Ben and I, and even when I texted her a long paragraph on everything, she simply left me on read. Honestly, I shrugged it off. Even when I would try and talk with her in person our conversation never carried very far, and at this point I gave up on trying. In 30 days we would be graduating and I had nothing to worry about.

Ben and I were watching criminal minds, laying in bed. His hand was resting on my lower back, making circular motions that were very soothing.

"Ben.." I trailed off as I felt a leap of energy enter my system. Something just appeared to me as clear as day, today (or tonight) was the day I would tell my parents about us. Don't ask me why I suddenly wanted to, believe it or not, it was actually a miracle we have been able to keep this a secret for so long. It was stupid.

"What?" He asked, grabbing my arm gently. I couldn't help my eyes from trailing down his shirtless chest.

     "I'm telling my mom" I said, before standing up and walking out of my room. A million thoughts were running through my head as I walked down the stairs with Ben rushing behind me. I didn't slow down until I reached the kitchen where my mom was standing at the sink.

     "Back for more mac and cheese?" She asked with a chuckle, but I simply couldn't let the secret stay a secret for any longer.

    "Ben and I had sex" I said loudly. As soon as I said it the whole room went dead silent, I could almost hear how awkward Ben was feeling when he shuffled his feet, and my moms hands were frozen on the dish she was washing. To make matters more awkward, my brother poked his head out of the living room, a shocked expression on his face.

Slowly, my mother turned around.

    "You.... what?" She asked in a deadly tone, her eyes started to narrow.

     "We had.. sex" I trailed off, slowly I was starting to get less confident. Ben's hand grabbed mine in a protective manner. My mothers eyes were like darts, and we were the dart boards.

    "Get out of my house Ben" she Said, almost calm. But I could hear the amount of anger behind her words. "I said, GET OUT OF MY HOUSE BEN" She screamed even louder. "How dare you sleep with my daughter, you could have gotten her pregnant. You are never the boy I wanted my child with, always sleeping around, drinking. HOW DARE YOU" She yelled even louder. I could sense Ben was insanely uncomfortable, embarrassed even because he started for the door instantly. My hand was still attached to his, holding him back.

    "How could you?" I said, looking at my mother straight in the eyes. "Ben is the love of my life, he's always been there for me. What is your problem?" I question. At this point I could sense the tears directly behind my eyelashes, they were ready to pour out any second. My voice was starting to crack.

       "My problem is the fact that Ben's mom is a cheater, he's a cheater. He'll break your heart faster than anybody" She glared. She knew? She knew all this time and never said anything, not that it matters anyways. Ben was not like his mother, he was different, he was way better. "I only pretend to like her you know" she spat. I started walking towards the door.

      "I love your daughter and I would never break her heart. Ever" Ben said, he looked at me, and then back at my mom whose face was steaming.

   "Leave" She said strictly, pointing towards the door. I started following Ben, grabbing his hand tightly. I wasn't leaving him.

"You stay Elizabeth"

But I left, my mothers screams followed us out the door and down the road as we drove off.

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Ben and I drove for what seemed like forever, until he finally pulled over in the dead of night. He stoped the car in a parking spot at the beach, nobody was around, it was dead silent.  His hands gripped the steering wheel tightly, his muscles tense with built up frustration and anger.

    "Ben.. I love you, you know that right? My heart is yours, only yours" I breathed. At this moment I have never felt so in love with someone than I do right now. I have never yearned for someone more than for Ben.

     "I love you too. That's the thing that your mom doesn't understand" he said, his voice cracking as he slowly got louder. "That I'll love you till the day I die, I will always love you Elizabeth.  I'm not just saying that, I mean that in the deepest part of my heart" he explained, he grabbed my hand, holding it more tightly that anything. "Nobody can take that from me"

I stared him for a long time, admiring him. His beauty, his heart and hands.

"Ben... can I ask you something?" I hesitated

    "Anything"

I stared at him before speaking "How did you restrain yourself from kissing me. All those years, you should've just kissed me" Ben chuckled, twirling my hand around in his, playing with my fingers.

       "You should have kissed me at that party" He smirked, I only chuckled. "So Libs... I dare you to kiss me"

All I could hear was our breathing, so soft, but so rushed and turned on.

I climbed over to him, slowly placing my hands on his shoulders so I was finally sitting on top of him. I ran my hands down his abs slowly until I got to the waistband of his jeans. He moved his hands to my sides, holding me closer to him.

"Cmon Libs....." He breathed, kissing my neck slowly. "Kiss me"

I grabbed his face softly in my hands and kissed him, softly but meaningful. It was so much energy pushed into this, so much love and happiness spread throughout my body like the ocean. So much happiness and joy, love and laughter, in his arms was where I always will and always want to be.

Ben held me closer to him, kissing me softly, gently. These were my favorite type of kisses, not the ones that were fueled by lust, but the ones that were fueled by love.

His strong muscles held me tightly, his hands wrapped around my torso, holding my face and my legs. We pulled away.

Oh God, I love this boy.

He reached for the side and lowered his seat down until it was like a bed. He was laying underneath me as I straddled him, just admiring his body. I followed him down, kissing his chest roughly until I made it to his lips again, kissing him for what seemed like another 10 minutes. I sat up, out of breath but so in love.

"There's blankets in the back seat if you want to cuddle" Ben said, pointing towards the back, I reached behind him and grabbed the softest one.

"There's so many things I'd like to do to you" He said, but I only laughed.

"Be patient my darling, we have our whole lives ahead of us" I whispered in his ear, softly. I could feel Ben shiver underneath me. In one quick motion I removed my shirt, so I was only in my bra before I laid down next to him, wrapping the blankets around us. He turned his head, staring me directly in the eyes.

      "You're so beautiful... you know that right?" He asked. I nodded my head, staring at the way the midnight stars bounced back at me through his eyes. I loved that look, the way his lips looked so soft and his eyes looked so deep and blue in the dark. 

"Ben? I want to get married to you" I said suddenly. He chuckled, pulling me closer to him.

     "We will. Nobody will stop us"

I'm pretty sure we fell asleep

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I woke up and the clock on the car read 2:00 am. I had a thousand missed calls from my mother, worried sick. Truth be told though, I didn't care all that much. I didn't want to return home, but the inside of the car has already gotten insanely cold over night. I threw my shirt back on and woke Ben up, his eyes flew awake.

    "What babe" he questioned, sitting up tiredly and rubbing his eyes.

     "I think we should get home, could I spend the night at your place?" I asked. I was almost sure my mom was asleep by now, and Ben's mom was probably asleep as well. Right now nothing seemed nicer than sleeping in a warm house with a warm bed with a warm Ben. That sure would beat a freezing car.

     "You don't even have to ask anymore" he laughed while starting the engine and raising his seat. "Are you cold?" She questioned, Handing me the blanket instantly. I smiled. "Make sure to buckle up too" He added.

    I put on my seat belt as he pulled out of the beach parking lot which was deserted. It was so dark outside that I could barely see Ben's face clearly, just the outline of his jaw. So handsome and perfect.

"Are you sure you're not cold?" I asked for the billionth time, I mean, he wasn't even wearing a shirt. He looked at me and shock his head.

   "That avocado onesie though" He said, bringing up a good memory. I laughed.

      "That girl was totally feeling you up though when she put her hand in your pocket. Am I right?" I asked with a laugh, Ben nodded.

   "Oh yeah, she was so grabby" He said with a twist of his nose in disgust. I laughed and grabbed his hand, pulling it close to me.

        "If I were that girl I probably would have done the same thing, you did look pretty hot in that thing" I said, giving him a smirk.

   "You would've been too shy, but if you did get the courage I wouldn't have stoped you" He said calmly, squeezing my hand tightly. I smiled to myself.

   "Yeah I probably would have been to shy. " I chuckled "But I guess that's why God made us best friends, so we could find each other... you know?" I said, looking at his features as he drove.

      "God has a plan for everything, he led me to y-"

     "BEN WATCH OUT"

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