(((Reader's POV)))

I was laying upon the covers panting and uncomfortable... but it had not mattered because I was very excited to be clean I needed to be. My hands above my stomach looking up at the ceiling of the church before being called by the priest and the high ones. I smiled and I bowed sitting on my knees before them. They had told be to hand over my arm and they used black ash to slowly paint a circle in my arm... this cleansening must be extra thurough because I had never seen this before.

"Are you still feeling okay (y/n)?" the priest had asked. I dropped my head in respect and smiled "yes father I want this to happen, I love nothing more than to be perfect for our god. " the Highest interfiered with a wide eyes and told me to take off my robe so I did I was kind of surprised myself but I knew my skin was slowly becoming a lighter color I had gently sighed and the priest held my chin " I have a better idea.." he muttered and grabbed a dagger I had never seen. He had swung so fast after having grasped my arm with the circle again my only adult figure had stabbed into me and pierced through the skin of my arm in a crossed formation. 

Feeling the sharp silver blade pierce through my cold skin I jumped. I wouldn't have described it as pain.. I had always been covered in holes over my body, the leaders had said I was just special and that I was their beautiful little boy. 

The knife left my arm and I had an X shaped hole in my forearm.  looking through my arm I whimpered a little bit but my father had pulled my satin robes over my shoulders again. 

I didn't bleed as father or the leaders did, however I always liked to give the little children band-aids when their rough-housing would go a little far. The feeling of their blood was like water but thicker.. it reminded me of soup or dinner nice and warm inviting too. But I would never get to bleed myself sadly. When breaking thoughts I looked up to see my father holding my shoulders whispering to me "you are our special one, (y/n)" the leader smiled and pet my head avoiding my horn on the left not to agitate my old wound. "now go and do your tasks young man" he says letting me stand up and bow one last time to them. I ran down the halls I heard my barefeet tap the ground as I took in the sensation of the cold marble floors and bright colors in our church watching the light from the stained glass reflect on the floor in the big space. 

When I pushed open the huge doors I smiled brightly feeling the sun kiss my skin I ruffled my cleanly cut hair and jumped down the steps. I had seen  the kids playing outside playing a game of hop scotch and I watched the small reptilian girl she had cute purple scales and a bright happy look on her face. When people enter this place it's because we are too good to be out with the wild. The church is our saviour as all creatures alike lived here. 

I saw my friend his name was Davey and he was a cat like monster having furry ears and a cute big eye'd look, he had always played with me when were children and I'd ran into his chest and nuzzled him "Davey! It's been two days! where were you when there was training?" I asked impatiently jumping while holding his hand watching his face go red in what I assumed to be embarrasment and looked over "oh it was nothing (y/n) I just got to  do different tasks for my mother. What about you?" he had asked 

I couldn't help but laugh "sheesh I am fine I just got cleansed too! isn't it amazing?" I asked and he seemed equally excited "really? wow I am proud of you (y/n)" he hummed and I nuzzled into his soft furry neck one last time before staring into his green eyes brushing my hand over his firey fur. His face getting even more red than fire which I found quite amusing before turning to talk about some other things. After a while I waved him farewel and started to think back about that one day things went pretty badly.

I did feel bad when I was told that a little baby was to be euthanised for it's ungodly behaviours. It is a controlled haven and breaking the rules will get you punished. Not long ago two little kids and one grown man in our little village had to be punished. The man had admitted to feeling unfaithful to our god and his woman. So he has been euthanised and their children were quickly catagorised as unrepairable and we can't keep people like that here.

 The operator HATES them and so we need to take them away from our lives and extinguish that light in their eyes.

This thought had luckily not ruined my mood. It happened so often now and well it is very normal I just don't see a problem with it! I ran back to my little house and saw it was empty yet again. No one lived with me because I was left here so the house was a bit empty soft light wood floors and a sliding door without a lock. No one could look inside but people could always come if they wanted to or if there was something wrong.

I had lit up a small red candle and it lit the room a bit  finding an oil lamp and putting it on shining light on the daily rashion I got on the table I paused and looked at it.. that is weird there was no bread no vegtables or anything just red meat and some apples. I wasn't complaining I was just confused.. I had shrugged a little and looked at the meat feeling it with my grey fingers. "it's very soft I am sure it'll be amazing!" I had told myself and took a bite out of it, I felt sweat drop quickly putting it down on the table it was just.. 

God I had tasted it and it tasted amazing it was just too bad I wasn't allowed to cook it. But this didn't stop me from loving it. The white edges of fat were serene and the red meat still had little veins going through them and  it just exploded in flavours in my mouth. I moaned at the taste as it melted on my tongue. "god it must be some type of lizard or alligator because this has to be a tail with the extra fat reserves and these little purple annoying scales" I huffed a bit as I spit one out "god they' re so annoying but I am glad I got a young one. These taste way more tender and sweet almost"

After having an amazing dinner I looked at my room and grabbed a thin book of the shelf and it read "Operators Proxies and stories" it was always exciting to read! Today I had decided to read something on a more interesting note, a man called BEN.  When I read his story I could feel the shivers running up my spine through my horns up, it made me excited.

 It explained that BEN used hallucinations and tricks of the mind to do his work, he had died by drowning and when I read I felt terribly sad about it "poor guy. He didn't have to be drowned so respectlessly" I huffed and put it down getting onto my matress that layed on the floor close to the small firepit I had with a crackling small fire crying to be given more fule. I let the fire die before me having nothing left to burn it slowly dissipated as did my mind leap into a dark starry night filled with a dreamless sleep.

By the morning I woke up I felt the sun gracing over me and burning into my eye sockets slightly groaning in protest. "nooo.... I don't wanna get up" I muttered in a whiny tone. But the sun didn't comply and instead shone brighter making me wake up and softly curse the sun beneath my breath "Rude little thing..." I'd snarled.

I had gotten off my clothes smiling walking outside feeling the grass blades tickle my feet and holding a cloth and crouching by a small river by my house. I let the rag slowly dance in the bubbly waters foam before gently washing it over my face and greedily dunking my face in the water to clean my hair of the dirt and oil I had gotten over the last week of training for our leaders. 

I quickly snapped my head out the water and I gasped a bit feeling the same shivers as last night...  I quickly washed my body with the cloth there on the grass. The water was very cold but at least I'd be awake now.

After a bit I had dried off and pulled on my long cloak and robes walking along to the morning speech and they said their prayers as every morning we did. I participated and I hoped today would be fun. I usually felt a bit bad doing what the leaders did but I arrived and smiled looking over feeling my heart drop. I saw my friend Davey I had been around his family a lot and he was like my brother. God I wished training could be different today... but no.. 

the leaders had given me a small bandana over my eyes as davey got the same on his being stood over eachother we were told to- "(y/n)! Eliminate the threat!" the leader had yelled at me while davey was told to do the same and so. We'd ran into eachother but I knew that Davey had a weak shoulder... I couldn't controll myself I could feel my sharp nails dig into his frail upper body hearing his screams they were deafening and I didn't stop when he cried "(y/n)!!! PLEASE HAVE MERCY!!! I LOVE YO-.." Davey had screamed his voice breaking from the blood curling noise. He was pleading with me to stop and I wanted to I WANTED TO but I couldn't stop..

I had my nails through his muscle and before I even knew it I had ripped it off intirely his arm now completely gone  and the blood dripping on my arms and chest only beckoning me to destroy him more.. Who was I fighting again?.. I can't remember quite well. After I felt the body stopped struggling and the heart stopped beating I put my hands on the ground and stayed put until familiar hands removed my blindfold.  I turned back to look but the face had been hit so many times I couldn't really make out who it was.. oh well it can't be that important then! I turned to my leaders and bowed again "d-did I do good?" I asked my voice quivering softly. 

My leader had taken my hand and smiled "yes my child and you must remember that this was a nobody. You have never known them so they can't be important anyway right? " I listened and it made sense I nodded and grinned "yes sir!" I trotted back and gently hummed as I walked back a little girl watching me go back and what she'd screamed at me changed me..

"YOU MONSTER!!! YOU KILLED DAVEY!!!! YOU'RE DISGUSTING HOW DARE YOU!! HE WAS MY BROTHER!!!" She'd cried her messy pink dress getting wet from her tears hitting it and his little finger pointing at me accusingly. It fell back on me this was Rosalina she was Davey's little sister I had known her too for years... that thing that was left there.. it's fir was just red because of blood right?..

she was wrong...

..right?..

((2020 words))