TW:

UNDERTALE SPOILERS

SELF HARM

SUICIDAL THOUGHTS

KNIVES

BREAKDOWN

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...I cut the night before... It felt nice. Honestly? It felt like my pain was washing away. All over my body I felt it the night before.

I have to hide this. I made sure the knife was clean before putting it back.

Now today's the day... I shall attempt. But I wanted to play my game, finish it before I did. I'm no good for this world anyways.

I booted up my PS4. I clicked on Undertale. I was doing a pacifist route. I played for a bit until I got to the dinner part of the game with Sans. I froze when I saw this pop up.

I immediately broke down and had second thoughts. I know he meant Toriel. But I believed at the time that it was Toriel AND him.

I cried as I looked at my fresh scars. I regretted cutting and even thinking of suicide...

I put the melatonin away. I cried and looked at the screen.

"Thank you..." I whisper.

Who knew my favorite game at the time would save me?

All because of that quote.

It made me think of everyone who cared about me and how they would feel...

I hid my scars but I got found out...

One parent forced why I did it out of me... I lied to them, so I wouldn't be in as much trouble.

The other? They waited until I was ready to talk about it.

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