Thomas' POV:

I woke up from the nightmare as soon as I heard the thunder strikes holding my shirt as I took deep breaths to calm down. I look at the spot where Alex slept, but it's empty.

I sighed as I lay down again trying to not wake up John.

After a couple of minutes thinking, I decided to get us on the bed. I put John on his pajamas and I put mines on too before crawling into the bed and tried to sleep. I'm not even sure what time is it, and if I'm honest, I don't want to know.

I can't go back to sleep, not after the nightmare.

We were on the beach for some reason, John was drawing on his sketchbook, I was watching the ocean and Alex was playing in the sand. Everything was good. 

But then, everything changed.  

The sky turned gray, full of clouds, storm clouds. I looked up and I could feel the cold air on my skin. I watched the point where Alex previously was and he wasn't there anymore. He was on the ocean. John and I ran towards him, but it felt like he was getting farther and father. We reach the shore and swam trying to find him. I got underwater and I saw him going deeper with the closest I get. We tried to go after him. My vision turned blurry as I felt the burning sensation in my lungs due to the lack of fresh air on them. I woke up seconds later.

I saw John squirming on his side of the bed. I wonder if he's having a dream, a bad dream or a nightmare. 

If it's a bad dream it'll just pass, but if it's a nightmare...

"Bad dreams are just light nightmares. You can continue sleeping if you have one, it'll pass like nothing. Nightmares, on the other hand, can wake you up and make you feel like shit". That's what Alex once clarified to us when we were discussing about if there was a difference between both. 

I sighed. I miss him. I know we fucked up bad, terrible to be honest. I wish that I shout my mouth at that moment so he could be with us right now, safe and sound.

I hear another thunder, this one is closer to the other and John lurched forward to reach for something or someone.

"Alex, wait!" he cried. He started to shake and look for him in his usual spot. He looked at me. "You couldn't sleep either?"

I shook my head. He sighed and sat on the verge of the bed. I crawled and sat next to him.

"A nightmare?" he asks and I nod. He rests his head on my shoulder and I wrap my arm around him. "Wanna talk about it?"

I explained what happened in my dream, my voice cracking in some points as I speak. Once I finish, I realized that I'm shivering. John sat hugs me trying to calm down.

"Heh... it's funny" I mumble. "I-I'm supposed to be the strong one but I'm here with you trying to calm me down..." 

"Tommy... you don't have to be the strong one just for me..." he said making me look at him. "I know you're worried about him, I am too... I'm scared that he could be in danger, you know how the things have been in the last couple of days... I want to believe he's fine, that he is safe and sound, but I can not believe it until I have an idea of where is him..."  

I look at his spot. "I-We said things that we shouldn't say and make him cry..." he sniffed. "And I won't stop blame myself until I saw him again..." 

"J-Jonh..." he looked at me right in the eyes.

"My point is... you've been always keeping things from us that you should share. You don't have to bottle them. I've known you since we were in middle school. We've been through a lot together, but you always tried to protect me and never the other way around. I'm more than capable to protect you as well..."

"I know... it's just... I don't know why I do that. I don't want to bother you with my problems, I always relied on Jemmy since he's my best friend, but you're right... I can't do this alone... We're adults and you two can defend yourselves... well, at least I know you can." I said.

He hugs me and I hug back. I sobbed and gripped on him. "I miss him... I miss him a lot..." 

"Me too, Tommy... me too..." He said.

That's when we heard the bathroom's light switch. We separate and look at each other. 

We stand up and slowly made our way to the bathroom. Once in front of the door, we hear someone is moving our things in there. I look at John and he nods. I kick the door ready to punch the idiot who gets inside our apartment.

I mean, I'm 6'2 and John is 5'9. I'm the tallest of the three, but John is the strongest. We're pretty much Alex's guards... or we were his guards.

And ends up the idiot who sneaked into our house is Maria.

"Mar? What you're doing here?" I ask.

"How did you get in here is a better question Tom..." John said.

She's wearing a soaked black onesie and red converse. Also, most parts of the thing that was in the cabinet that is under the sink are now on the floor.

"I... uhm..." she mumbled. She inhales before start talking. "D-did I woke you up?"

"No, we were awake... what are you doing here?" I said.

She crosses her legs. "I... woke up with the thunder and I was about to come here to comfort Alex, but I remembered that he's not here, so I sat on the couch and started thinking..."

John sighed as he sat down on the toilet. "And...?"

"Well... I kinda forget something when I was telling you what happened when Alex and I took the pregnancy test. I bought the test, but I also brought two other things in case he took a desition."

"And what did you forget that is so important that you get inside our cabinets?" I asked a little tired.

"I forget to check if he took the pills or the pamphlet." She said playing with a tuft of her hair.

"Excuse me... what?" 

"I bought the test, but I also bought prenatal pills in case he wanted the baby... In case he didn't, I took a pamphlet of an abortion place..." she looked down as we stared at her.

"How did you forgot to tell us something as important as that?" John asked a little harsh.

"I-I'm sorry... I don't know why I couldn't remember it, but once I did I ran here and start looking for one of them."

"It's okay... C'mon, I'll help you" I said kneeling and start looking for the two articles.

Well... At least is something.

Not even my best work, but I had free time. Another chapter. Maybe the next one is from Alex's POV, still not sure.

Anyways... I should sleep now. It's 01:20 a.m.

See ya!