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Chapter 35.

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Shehroz.

I step out of the airport and look around to find the car I hired to go to the hotel where I could find Zoya. I walked toward the guy who was standing beside the car waiting. When he saw me he handed me the keys and left. I sit in the car and mentally sigh before I start driving toward the hotel.
It is 7:30 here and I decide to meet her now so I could do things after that my way. I already made my mind if she didn't listen me then I will do everything to make her hear me out. I even book my room in the same hotel as her. I really hope I will be forgiven by her in the end.

I slow down when I saw the hotel in my view and sigh heavily before stopping in after 2 cars. I check my phone to see if I get a message from Shaheer like he told me but I didn't. I sigh mentally and looked up before frowning when I saw Asim standing in front of car with Amir. I was about to get out when Amir walk toward the driving seat and get in his car before driving away. When he reverse and drive past me, I saw a glance of Zoya with him.
I started my car again and drive after him. I know it is the chance for me to talk Zoya because if Asim see me with her then I don't know what he will do. I follow him when he cross the city and soon he started driving on empty road that was covered with trees everywhere. I park my car in some distance from him and saw as Zoya step out of his car and walk toward the grassy ground before he drive away.
I was confused because I couldn't believe that Amir leave Zoya in this place all alone. I drive my car to somewhere, where no one could find it. I get out and walk on the way where Zoya went. I don't know why she is here and how could Amir leave her alone. As I walk all the way up, I saw Zoya now standing at the end of the mountain. I was worried and confused. Worried that she is on the edge and if she fall down. Confused what she is doing here all by herself.
On my left I saw some lightings and a board where something was written, but I didn't bother to read it. I was confused, but shrugged it out because it is her life and she will do what she want. I just have to talk to her and I know I didn't get better chance than this. Taking a deep breath, I step out of the shadow and walk toward her. I was a few steps away from her when she heard my footsteps and turned around with a smile but it faded when she saw me. She freeze and her eyes were open wide.

"Z-Zoya." My voice comes out like a whisper. I tried to grab her hand but she back away. I saw hater in her making the guilt rising in me again.
"Shehroz." She says my name emotionless. I close my eyes but it quickly open when I feel sting on my cheek. Did she slap me?

"Did you really slap me?" I asked her shocked. She take a step forward and suddenly my face snapped to left and a sharp pain shot on my left cheek. 

"Yes, I did and you deserve that for whatever you did." She says and started slapping me again and again. I didn't stop her because I know she is right. I deserve this. After few mintues, when she get tired, she stop breathing heavily.

"Relax Zoya. I am not going to hurt you. I am here to talk to you." I say and take two steps back because I don't really want to get slap from her again. She glared at me and look away. 

"There is nothing to talk about Shehroz. Please leave from here." She says and her voice crack, but I shake my head and refused to leave.

"There is a lot to talk about. I have to explain why I take a big step by running away. I have to tell you everything and want you to forgive me. Please hear me out." I pleaded her. She sighs and take a step forward. 

"You have 10 minutes. After that I want you to leave from here because Asim will be here soon." She told me. I nodded and started to explain her everything. Why I run away. What I was feeling that time. What I feel for Aminah and I only think about our future that time. I know she feels jealous of me thinking about Aminah and me. I told her why I am here and know that Asim is her husband and about the babies. 

"Please Zoya. I know I did wrong, but please forgive me. I want to start my new life with everyone and I don't want anyone to be angry with me. I want to forget about everything. Please forgive me. Please I beg you." I get down on my knees and fold my hand looking up at her with watery eyes. She look at me shocked and tear filled in her eyes as well. She shake her head and covered her mouth with her hand as a sob broke from her.

"Please Zoya. I came here only for you to forgive me please. I will do anything that you want me to do as my punishment but please forgive me. I am all alone. My parents, Rauhan, Shaheer and everyone else back at home didn't want me back in their life. I know why they didn't want me because what I did with you but now I want to make things right between us, between me and my family and between me and Rauhan. Please help me with this. I really want everyone back in my life. I can't live without you all. If I didn't get any of you back then maybe I will... I will die. Please Zoya everything is on you." I looked at her and try to hold back my tears, but I failed when they slowly slipped from my eyes.
"S-Shehroz please. I-I can't do this. I want some time to think about it. Please go from here." She turned away from me and I heard her sobbing quietly. I sigh and stood up. I turned around to walk away, but stop.

"I am staying in your hotel, if you want to talk to me then I will see you there. Before leaving I want to tell you something that whatever I did, not to hurt you. I had never meant to hurt you or leave you, but I had to because if I don't then maybe we both will be unhappy in our lives but now I know what I did was good for you. You found your true love. I wish you best luck for your future with Asim. Good Bye Mrs. Asim." With that I walk away. I walk down and then to my car. I sigh heavily when I sit and shake my head as my eyes again get teary. I control myself and drive away.

Zoya.

I close my eyes and heard his footsteps fading away. After a few minutes of controlling myself, I open my eyes and take my phone out before dialing the number I want to. I waited for him to pick it up and when he did I take a deep breath before saying anything.

"I want you to go back. I am waiting for you." I cut the call without waiting for his reply. I turned around and walk from where I came up here.

I don't know what I am feeling. I had no idea that Shehroz decide to come back and ask to forgive him. I don't know if I am going to forgive him or not, but I do know that I want everything now want to end. I finally started to live again then why he showed up again and ruined everything. I look down at my phone and saw that I have been here for about 3 hours and Asim didn't come. I know Amir will not do anything on time. Suddenly a horn of a car makes me jump. I looked up and saw Amir stopping his car in front of me. I walk around and open the door of passenger seat before sitting inside.

"Take me back to hotel." I told him without looking at him, but I could feel his confused gaze on me. I don't know what to do. I want to forgive Shehroz but at the same time I didn't want to. I know he did wrong with me by leaving me alone, but if he didn't then I wouldn't be able to find my real love for Asim. I should thank him, but I don't want to. I am so confused. 

"Did he do something?" Amir asked, breaking the silence between us. I look at him confused.

"Did you know he is going to be there?" I asked him completely shocked. He look at me frowning before turning away.

"Yeah, I tell him you were in danger like we decide." He shrugged without looking at me. It took me a few minutes to know what he is talking about. 

"I am not talking about Asim." I sigh and look out of the window again.

"Then who? Who was there?" He asked me worriedly. I swallow and think if I should tell him or not. I know he will be angry, but he is my brother and had right to know everything. 

"Shehroz." I put my hand on the dashboard when he suddenly slammed on breaks. If I wasn't wearing seatbelt, then I would have bumped my head in front. I look at him annoyed, but sigh when he glared at me.

"What he was doing there? I tell Asim to come there not Shehroz. How he dare to come near you after Rauhan Bhai warned him." He says angrily and slammed the steering wheel by his hand. I flinched back and don't say anything. He didn't get angry often, but when he did, he will be the most scary person. 

"D-Did Rauhan B-Bhai know about h-him?" I stuttered. He takes a few deep breath and nodded.

"Yeah, before you called me, I got a called from Rauhan Bhai and he tells me that Shehroz is back and he want me to warn you but I guess I am late for that. Anyways, he tells me that Shehroz wants to meet you and was asking everyone to forgive him. Rauhan Bhai also told me to tell Asim that you guys have to stay here until everything cool down at home. I will inform Rauhan Bhai about his presence here." Amir says calmly and started to drive back again. I nodded and look out of the window again.

I don't know why, but I feel like everyone is doing wrong with him. He did all that to be happy, but instead of being happy, he is sad and alone. I don't know if I forgive him, then will everyone accept him again or not, but I do want him to be happy and start a life without any burden or anything. I would feel relief when he will be free from everything because sometimes I feel like I moved on in my life and he didn't. Everyone has right to move on and start everything again, then why we are not letting him do that? I am so confused and I know only one person can help me with this.

"Zoya." I look at Amir when I heard him calling my name. I look out of the window and saw that we were in front of the hotel. 

"Thank you for dropping me. I will call you tomorrow." I say and give him a side hug before getting out. I walk toward the glass door and stop to turn around to smile for the last time. I wave and saw Amir driving away. I walk inside and straight to the elevator to go upstairs in the room. I don't know if Amir was saying right that he did message Asim and if he did then why didn't he come?

'I will find out about it now.' I say to myself and step out of the elevator.

I walk toward the room and frowned when I saw it already open. I step inside and close the door behind me. As I walk further I saw everything dark. When I open bedroom, I frowned when I saw Asim already in bed sleeping. I quickly walk over him and feel his temperature if he was sick but he wasn't. He is okay, but I didn't understand why he is sleeping this early. I shrugged and told myself to ask him tomorrow. 

I stood up and walk in the bathroom after grabbing my cloths to change. I take a warm shower and changed into my cloth before walking out. I walk to the dresser and start drying my hairs. When I was done with my hairs, I sigh, putting the hair brush down. I turned around and smile sadly when I saw Asim sleeping peacefully. I feel bad for not telling about Shehroz but he was sleeping and I can't wake him up to tell about him. After living with him a long I get really open to him and I never keep things from him. I actually like that whatever I tell him, he tell me what should I do and he help me with that.

I walked up to him and carefully sit beside him trying not to wake him up. I smile slightly when I saw him frowning in his sleep. I take my hand out and gently place it on his forehead before softly erasing out his crease from his forehead. I leaned down and softly place a light kiss on his forehead.

"I am sorry." I say softly after pulling away. I am sorry for everything, what I did, how I behave but I am not sorry for loving him. I hope I will tell him about my feelings for him soon.

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Update! I hope you all like it and please let me know what you think about this chapter. Next chapter will be out soon. Only few chapters left then this book will be completed.

Next update will be of The Second Chance by tomorrow night (Insha-Allah). 

For Silent Love readers, Don't worry I will update it soon.

I am still confused about Shehroz and Aminah separate story. Please make this clear If I should write or not. I am Confused. 

The video above is just random as I was listening while writing this chapter. I suggest you to listen it because it is really good. Tajdar-e-Haram by Atif Aslam. 

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-Maddy.!