Finn POV

After I dropped off Rachel the worst thing happened...

I got home Burt and Mom were out and maybe Kurt was home I wasn't sure.

I went inside and took off my shoes and coat.

"Kurt!" I called out.

No answer.

"Kurt!" I called again going to the kitchen. "I'm home bro!"

I got a bottle of water and took a sip. I went up to Kurt's room just to see if he was there.

I opened the door and....

Blood.

A pool of blood that Kurt was in the middle of. there was a hole in his shoulder and a gun that fell from his left hand.

I dropped my water and rushed to get my phone out of my pocket.

I dialed 911 and rushed to Kurt. I got towels out of the bathroom and put it on his shoulder.

"Kurt come on Kurt! Talk to me! Come on I can't lose you too!" I tried.

I checked his pulse he was still breathing for now.

The ambulance came and got him. I rode along in the ambulance. I was a panicking mess.

When we got there I had to wait in the waiting room. i decided to call Burt and Carole.

"Hey Finn how's it going!" Burt's cheery voice said into the phone.

"No good.. it's Kurt.. He-he shot a gun in his shoulder I'm at the hospital now there taking care of him. I don't know it's all... I can't I'm freaking out I think I might Faint !!" I said.

"Whoa what! We'll be right there hang on!" Burt said an hung up.

I decided to call Rachel she could calm me down.

"Hey Finn miss me already." Rachel said and laughed.

"Well yeah but Kurt.. he shot himself. in at the hospital and I'm freaking out I don't know I called Burt and my mom and he's on his way. But Rachel I'm scared I'm so scared. I can't lose him not now!" I said.

"Shh shh Finn it's ok I'll be right there hang on ok I promise I'll be right by your side I'm coming!" She said.

She hung up and I was left panicking in the waiting room.

She finally came after 20 minutes. I saw her and hugged her tight.

"Rach... Rach I'm so scared." I said.

"It's ok it's going to be alright I'm here he's gonna be ok." she said.

She tried comforting me as we waited.

Burt and Carole finally made it.

"Where is he!" Burt said tears almost breaking from his eyes.

"There working on him. Burt I'm so sorry I should of gone out he.. he's my brother I-I.." I tried.

Burt hugged me tight. "it's ok thank you. it's not your fault." he said.

Burt sat down and I hugged my mom who was behind. "He's a fighter Finn he'll be alright." she said.

"But even fighters break.." I sobbed out.

We sat and waited for what seemed like forever.

"The family of Kurt Hummel." the nurse said.

We all stood up quick.

"How is he?" Burt asked.

"Your son is a true fighter. he's on pain medication for his shoulder so he's asleep right now but you can see him. he's lost a lot of blood but he's ok. if you didn't find him in time he might not have made it." the nurse said with a sad smile looking at me.

"Can we see him?" My Mom asked.

"Follow me." she said leading us to his room. 228.

I don't go in first me and Rachel stayed outside while my parents went in. they came out I hesitated going in. Rachel wrapped around my arm and Burt patted my shoulder. I went in with Rachel. I hated the sight.

Kurt was lying looking almost dead in the bed. his skin was paler than usual. he the blanket covered his thin body. he had a wide bandage wrapped on his shoulder. I think he was shirtless too. he also had a cut on his cheek I've never noticed before.

He looked tough but to me he just looked broken.

"Rach can you step out I just want some alone time." I said.

"No problem." she said tears coming down. I sat down on the chair next to the bed. what happened? He use to be happy... what kind of secrets is he keeping?

I slowly fell asleep in the chair.

I was waken up by Burt.
"Finn you fell asleep. you doing alright?"

"Mhmm yeah I'm alright just thinking." I mumbled.

"Rachel went home. she said to call her." Burt said.

"Ok.. has he waken up?" I asked.

"No not yet... soon I hope." he said.

I nodded looking a Kurt how still laid in bed sleeping.

"You want some breakfast?" Burt asked me.

"I'm not hungry." I said.

"I'm gonna grab something I'll be right back." Burt said and went out of the room.

I nodded looking back at Kurt. he stirred a little and opened his eyes looking at me.

"Hi." he said in a weak voice.

"What the fuck were you thinking?" I said on the verge of crying.

"I-I...i can't say Finn..." he said.

"Why no I'm your brother.." I said voice breaking.

"I'm depressed ok. I just wanted all the pain to go away." he said weakly.

"I could help. talk to me. first you become a skank then you try..i-I it's like I don't even know you." I said.

"I'm just going through a lot ok... Look I'm sorry can we talk about something else I don't want think about this anymore." he said.

"Yeah fine. I was scared for my life you know. I'm still shaking. I swear to do if you ever do that to me again I swear to god!" I said sternly.

"I promise never again.." he said.

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Kurt POV

The night was a blur.

Not just because I lost blood but it all.

I was stressed I needed relief.

Relief of life...

I remember getting my dads gun and pointing towards my right shoulder. I shot and fell. then everything got fuzzy and black.

Then I woke up here greeted by an upset Finn.

We had that little discussion then my dad came. I talked with him for a long while about everything without Finn in the room.

After a while Finn finally left and my dad hung around.

As I was sleeping he knocked on the door. I woke up to his really loud knocking.

"Yeah?" I answered sleepily.

"Blaine's here he said it's important." my dad said.

"Mhmmm fine couple minutes." I mumbled.

My dad nodded and went out of the room. a terrible looking Blaine walked in. his shirt was messy and his hair was loosening up from the gel so curls were peeking out.

"Hey." I said weakly. I wanted to insult him but I didn't have the strength.

"Hey I-Um heard what happened..." he said waking in with his hands in his pockets his little thumbs sticking out.

"Finn." I asked.

He nodded. "So why'd you do it." he said from my bedside.

"Reasons." I said.

"Yeah. what's yours." he said.

"Nothing you'd care about." I said coldly.

"Do you really think I would be here right now if I didn't care?" He said eyebrows raised.

"What do you want?" I asked.

"An answer to why'd you do it?" He said.

"I was depressed ok." I said sharply.

"We're all depressed that's not good enough there's another reason I can tell." he said.

"How can you tell you know nothing about me?" I said.

"Really I know nothing about you? You do remember we were boyfriends. I know more about you then Finn does." he said.

"Like what my birthday?" I said.

"Like how you are in bed. your irrational fears. your guilty pleasures. your dreams your plans your fantasy. like your Dr. Anderson sex dream and how your secretly scared of thunderstorms. and you secretly have OCD but you mange to keep it away from everyone using it on your cloths. I know you listen to me singing teenage dream when you need to calm down. I know more about you then anyone else. now tell me." he said sitting down in the chair.

"I don't trust you." I said.

"You don't have to trust me just tell me." he said.

"I rather that it die with me." I said coldly.

"I know you hate me but I still love you I always will. and I know you still have some feelings for me your hiding deep deep inside." he said.

"I know." I said.

He gave a crooked smiled and held my hand and squeezed. he got up and slowly let go of my hand.

He was about to step out when I stopped him. "Blaine wait!"

He spun on his heels and looked at me. "thanks." I said emotionless.

"Just know people care about you Kurt your dad ,Finn ,Carole ,Rachel ,Mercedes-"

"You." I cut him off.

"Me... before I go..do you still love me?" He asked.

"Somewhere I do... I just can't feel it right now." I said.

He nodded and left. I think I sunk even lower in my bed. there was that empty pit feeling in my stomach. it felt almost filled when Blaine was here.
Maybe I do still love him...
Heck I'm lying.
I do love him.
I just can't...

A/N
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