JUNGKOOK POV

After arguing he finally took me to his apartment, when he opened the door I heard Jin greet him, I could see Jin from behind Ken's body.

He approached Ken and when he wanted to hug him he stopped walking because he saw me.

"J-jungkook.." Tears were flowing down his cheeks, when I approached him he stepped back as if avoiding me.

"Ken, why did you bring him here? I already said I don't want to see him again."

"Jin calm down, I met him at a meeting today, I think this is an opportunity for me to talk to him, we can't get married if he is still your husband"

"He's not my husband!"

"Jin.."

"NO! don't come any closer" Ken immediately ran and hugged Jin, calming him down by stroking his back, Jin was crying on his chest, in front of me.

"I don't want to see him again!" Ken just looked at me as he continued to rub his hands on his back.

"Jungkook, I think you should go now, I'll see you later"

"I guess.. I don't think there's anything to talk about anymore, he said he doesn't want to see me again, so I'll prepare the divorce papers" I left before Ken could answer my words.

My tears don't stop flowing, it feels so broken, it really breaks me right now. I hate myself! Even now he hates me too! I not only lost my father, but I lost my loved ones and my baby, i lost everything.

SEOKJIN POV

After Jungkook came home and Ken carried me to the bed, he sat beside me and continued to hold my hand.

"Why are you like that with him Jin?"

"I can't Ken, you see me now? I'm pregnant with your child, I can't be with him, I don't want him to bear all this."

"But you love him"

"You said love doesn't have to be mutual, right? I chose to let him go, it was the best for him"

"Then what is the best for you?"

"Ken-"

"Jin, I realized then, I regret doing it, I shouldn't have let my lust overwhelm me that night, you just called his name Jin and that's when I realized, I wasn't supposed to be there with you, you needed him but when you said you were pregnant, I must be responsible because this is also my baby"

"I'm sorry-"

"It's not sorry that I want to hear Jin, I want you to be honest with yourself, love doesn't have to have each other but your story and mine are different. You lived happily before his father died and he was like that because of the shock of losing his father, you also know he didn't really mean to say that, you read all the messages he sent and he is very sorry for what he said, he hopes you contact him and get back with him"

"My decision has been made Ken, I want us to get married"

"But not because of love Jin"

"We can love each other, maybe when this child is born"

"It's not as easy as you think Jin, I will take responsibility for our child, but if you ask me to marry you, I want you to think about it again, I can't marry someone who loves his own husband and I can see from his face, Jungkook really misses you Jin, he I was devastated when you said you didn't want to see him again."

"But he's going to divorce me soon, he—"

"Meet him and talk to him before he actually divorces you"

"But-"

"Please Jin" I just nodded.

I miss him, miss him so much, when I see him in front of my eyes, I really want to run to hug him and kiss his lips.

FLASH BACK

Ken kissed my neck and lifted me up, my legs wrapped around his waist and he took me to the room and laid me on the bed, I immediately helped him undress all of his clothes and he also helped me to undress all of mine.

Once naked, he climbed on top of me and kissed me passionately.

"i want you"

He immediately spread my legs and pushed his dick into my hole. I immediately squeezed the sheets tightly and tears welled up in my eyes.

"Fuck!!! Jin you're so tight"

"mmpphh ffaster..please aahhh"

He moved quickly, making my body move in sync with his movements.

"Ahhhh fuckk.. i miss you Jungkook...mmmphhh"

"I'm coming" He dropped his body on top of me and buried his head in my neck, I hugged him while whispering in his ear.

"I love you so much Jungkook, please stay with me"

After 3 weeks I didn't contact Ken, I finally got up the courage to call him and ask him to meet, I gave him the pregnancy result which stated I was pregnant. He was surprised, not only him, the first time I found out I was shocked too. I can't believe it and feel disgusted with myself. I'm still Jungkook's husband but I'm pregnant with another man.

PRESENT TIME

Since then he asked me to live in his apartment because he wanted to be responsible with me, I started to tell him about Jungkook and why I moved here and left him.

He told me to call Jungkook and tell him about this but I didn't want to, I was embarrassed to say it and thought he wouldn't care about this. But I re-read the messages he sent me, I felt I had let him down, he apologized to me and regretted it, but I'm here instead carrying someone else's child. I'm angry with myself. I have failed him, his father and my mother.

Two days later

'Dingg..dong'

The bell rang, Ken approached the door and when he opened it, Jungkook was standing in front of him with a big envelope in his hand.

"Jungkook, what are you doing here? come in" Ken said and let Jungkook in. I saw him from the living room and he didn't look at me at all.

Ken invited him to sit in the living room with me, Ken sat beside me and Jungkook sat in front of us both. He opened the envelope and took some papers out of it and placed them on the table.

"This is the divorce letter you asked for" My heart was broken to hear that, I asked for it but now I am sick because of my own request.

"Jungkook, you two better talk first, I'll leave you guys" When Ken wanted to get up from his chair, Jungkook held Ken.

"No, I didn't come here to talk to him, what he said yesterday was clear enough for me, I'm only here to tell you about our divorce, if it's signed you can return it to me"

But before he left, I got up and grabbed his hand.

"Wait, I want to talk to you before it's over"

"I'll go" Ken took his car keys and left Jungkook and me.

Jungkook still has his back to me.

"Jungkook, please—"

"Please for what Jin? I think it's pretty clear."

"No, it's not what you think, I just wanted to explain what happened"

"I don't need your explanation, he got you pregnant, he wants to be responsible and I will divorce you, done"

"Jungkook please, look at me" He slowly turned around to face me. I could see the tears on his cheeks, his puffy eyes, this must be hard for hin, but it's also hard for me.

"Why Jin?"

"I'm sorry, I'm stupid Jungkook, I'm sorry"

He immediately came up to me and hugged me tightly, making me hug him back, I miss him. We're both crying right now.

"I'm sorry Jin, I'm sorry, everything I did, everything I said hurt you, I know, I lost everything. I'm sorry"

I can't say anything, I just want to keep hugging him like this, I really miss my husband.

I let go of his hand and looked at him.

"Jungkook, but now we have to separate, we have to divorce so Ken can take responsibility. This is his child and I don't want you to bear all of it, I'm sorry, I was stupid for doing this, I was disgusted with myself when I realized it, but this has happened and we can't be together."

"Are you happy if you divorce me? Are you sure he can make you happy more than me?"

There's nothing more beautiful than being with you Jungkook.

I nodded.

"Then sign the letter and return it to me as soon as possible, live happily from now on Jin"

Those words were like arrows that pierced my heart.

He pulled me by my neck and kissed me, instantly my body began to respond to his kiss. But when I wanted to return my kiss he let go and put our foreheads together.

"I miss you and I love you Jin but I'm sorry for everything" He kissed my forehead before finally leaving leaving me standing there alone.