SEOKJIN POV

After returning to Korea, Jungkook and I went home to rest. I hugged Jungkook from behind and rested my head on the back of his head. I could hear him snoring from behind him.

I'm grateful that I met him that night at the club, if only he had never been there, maybe I wouldn't be here, maybe someone else would be here hugging him.
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I woke up from my sleep and saw Jungkook was not beside me, I got out of bed and went out of the room, but there was no one.

"Jungkook.." I called his name hoping for a response.

"JUNGKOOKKKKKKK"

"I'm here." His voice came from the gym, so I went straight to it and saw him standing in front of the mirror with sweat all over his body.

"What's wrong baby?"

"I thought you were leaving, why are you exercising at this time of night? Aren't you tired?"

"I can't sleep" I walked over to him and hugged him.

"I'm sweating Jin"

"I know, why can't you sleep? are you thinking about something?"

"Not important thing"

"If it's not important why does it keep you from sleeping?"

"Jin"

"Hmm"

"What did you think when you said you wanted to try making love to me?"

"I don't think anything, I just feel sorry for my mother, I didn't get to tell the truth about this marriage, she always talks about grandchildren and I always give her hope by saying that I will give it, so I don't think about anything other than my guilt, but when you kiss me, when you touch me, I think there is another reason I think, I like it, even I want to continue to do it with you, I didn't expect anything at that time, I also didn't realize that I love you, but over time, I make myself a husband, and feel that serving you is my responsibility, so I don't think about reciprocity from you, if you say you don't like a relationship and feel nothing will happen between us, I can't do anything and enough for me to take the responsibility, without expecting more from you."

He looked at me with sweat dripping down his face.

"Why did I realize it so late? I have an angel in my house, all this time living with me and already mine, Taehyung and my father, they always give the best advice for our marriage, without them I might not be able to open my heart and eyes if it turns out I've loved you long enough, I can't promise happiness for life with me, so far you know what I am, this is also my first time in a relationship, I still don't understand many things, but I can promise you loyalty, my father and mother are my role models in a relationship, my father must have told me how he met my mother, the same story as our meeting, but the difference is that my father immediately realized that he fell in love with my mother at first sight, whereas I only realized now. Since my mother left, I've been afraid of having a relationship with someone, I'm afraid of losing, maybe that thought is now haunting me."

"Jungkook, death is certain, we are only given time in this world, but death is not the end of someone's love journey, if heaven is eternal, then I will wait for you there and wait for me there too"

"But I can't lose anymore, losing my mother was enough to break me down and now I'm starting to love you, what if I lose you again? what if i leave you? What if-"

"Sshhh" I hugged him tightly and he hugged me back, he was crying on my shoulder, I could feel my shoulder getting wet.

"I love you, I love you so much"

"I love you too baby, I'm sorry"

"I don't accept apologies and you know what? I will submit my resignation to Namjoon."

He let go of my arm and looked at me.

"Are you serious?" I nodded.

"I don't want to create new drama in my relationship, living happily with you now is my goal, so I don't care if I don't have a job, my husband says I don't need to work"

"More precisely, my father said that you don't need to work, he wants you at home and only me to work, I just say what he said" I pouted in front of him, then he pecked my lips.

"But now I will forbid you to leave the house without me, it turns out that there are a lot of men who are out there, I have many rivals all this time" I chuckled and hit his chest gently.

"You need to rest, quickly clean yourself and go back to sleep" I let go of my arms and walked to the door.

"Do you want to clean me up?"

"Aish pervert! come here"