I was never as interesting as others, just a shy ordinary girl. There are times when I suddenly feel useless. I made some really bad decisions in my past, the feeling of guilt and regret hits me every time I think about it. I have dealt with self harm in the past, hurting myself because of others was something I never thought I would do but then there are phases in your life where you do the unexpected.

Being the shy and introverted girl, I was never able to make new friends or even talk to new people. Today, too, I feel left out when I talk to my friends, I feel like they don't want me because I don't go out with them. Staying alone never bothered me but the way my friends see me when I refuse to go out with them did, my father's disappointing gaze did when I told him that I write poems. There was a time when I was perfectly fine physically but I was broken inside, sometimes I even thought I shouldn't have been born!

But time heals everything, it healed me. I wouldn't say you can escape from pain, be it physical or emotional but it surely does not define you. I am still the shy introvert who does not know how to make friends, I still get anxiety attacks, I feel the sudden urge to cry my heart out without any particular reason but I love myself for the way I am. Our past will always be a part of our journey but it will never define us. Stay strong and love yourself, because you are worthy of love.