Ian's POV:
"That's a dumbass fucking move. For how long?" Mickey asks.
I'm going to the army tomorrow.
"4 years minimum." I said.
The look of heartbroken was all over his face. I know this hurts, but I can't do it anymore, I can't pretend to be okay with the fact he is married to someone else.
"What do you hope, that I tell you not to go." Mickey says with watery eyes.
"I'm gonna chase after you like some kind of bitch?" Mickey looks like he is about to cry, but I can tell he is holding it in.
"I didn't come here for you." I tell him as cold I could.
As I turn to walk out, he says "don't."
"Don't what?" I tell him.
"Just..." He stays quiet.

I kissed him and ran.
I'm a fucking asshole! All I'm doing is leading him on, when I know nothing will happen.
It hurt.
This hurts.
Mickey's POV:
He kissed me.
And then he ran.
I can't do this with him.
I'm not good enough....I can't be enough for him. I love him but I have to let him go. He deserves to be happy again, even if it's not with me.
My face feels wet. Am I crying?
I wipe my tear and get out of the bathroom and look for Alex.
I find him by the bar talking to some guy.
"Let's go." I tell him.
"Babe are you okay?"
No I'm not. I want to chase after the guy I love but i can't.
"Yeah I'm okay. I just want to get out of here."
He says bye to the stranger and we leave.
I have a massive headache.
Once we get into the taxi I lean my head back and close my eyes.
Flashback

"I just want to let you know I'm leaving." Ian tells me.
"Okay, I'll see you back at the place." I tell him.
"No don't. We're done." What the fuck?
"The fuck are you talking about?" The fuck is his problem.
"I don't have interest in being your mistress anymore." You're not my mistress, what the fuck?
"Jesus Christ, when did you get so dramatic?" I tell him.
"When I realized what a pussy you are." He snaps at me. Yeah like I have it easy with a homophobic dad.
"Say it again, imma kick your fucking ass." I snap back.
"Come on. Come on big guy." He steps closer.
"You think you're a tough man? You're not. You're a coward." Fucking dick, he doesn't understand.
"Fuck you. You don't understand-" he cuts me off.
"Oh I do, I understand better than anyone....that your afraid of your father, afraid of your wife... Afraid to be who you are." He pushes me away and turns to grab his jacket and starts walking away.
"Well good, leave. What the hell do I care, bitch?" I yell back at him.
"Fuck" I say under my breath. I can't let him leave.
What do I do? And then it came to me.
Before he walks out the door, I bang on the table.
"Hey! Excuse me! Can I get everybody's attention please!?" The music stops and everyone looks at me.
"I just want everybody here to know, I'm fucking gay! Big ole 'mo" Everyone looks at me with shocked eyes.
"Thought everybody should know that." I look at Ian who look surprised I came out. "You happy now?" I ask him from across the room.
The music comes back on and everyone goes back to what they were doing. Welp seems like no one actually gave a shit.
End of flashback.
I feel my shoulder being moved.
"Mickey. Wake up, we're home."
What the fuck am I doing with my life. I need him, but he doesn't need me anymore, he is happy now. If he moved on then so should I.
I look at Alex. Then I grabbed his face and kissed him.
"Let's go in?" I asked him.