"Ember?"

"What?" She asked looking up from the sink. I took a deep breath and prayed that I wasn't about to lose the most important person in my life.

"Can we talk?" I asked, rubbing my sweaty palms on my jeans.

"Sure." She said turning around and leaning back against the counter with her arms crossed across her chest.

"Remember that girl I told you about? The one I was interested in?"

"Of course. Didn't you just apologize to me for this like an hour ago?" She laughed.

"I was thinking of telling her how I feel about her..." I mumbled rubbing the back of my neck.

"That's great Hannie!! What's her name? I need to know all about her!" She said excitedly running over and hugging me.

"Who is she?"

I pulled away from her and looked her in the eyes, those light brown, honey like eyes that were always so beautiful to me. Taking a shaky breath I spoke.

"You"  I said quietly between us as I brushed a piece of hair out of her face and put my palm to her cheek. The smile faded from her face slowly but she wasn't running away. That's good right? Please, dear god, tell me I didn't just screw up.

"m-me?" She stuttered, still not sure of what exactly was happening. By now she was so close to me I couldn't think. I looked at her face, her lips, her eyes, and put my other palm on her other cheek pulling her closer to me and pressing my lips to hers. It took her a minute to kiss me back, but when she did she tightened her arms around my waist. The kiss was short, it was simple, but it made me feel like I was on top of the world.

When she pulled away from me I searched her face for any sign of rejection, but I didn't find it. She stood there quietly with her arms still around my waist and my palms on either side of her face. We stared at each other for what felt like an hour, but it was probably only a minute or so. She leaned into me again and pressed her lips against mine. This time I lost my balance slightly and she backed up to a wall. I moved my hands from her cheeks down through her long hair and to the back of neck and then back of her head.

This time when she pulled away she had a huge smile on her face. "I've had feelings for you for years, Hannie." She said quietly as I pressed my forehead against hers. "I just didn't know how to tell you."

I smiled widely and kissed her forehead, "I've been in love with you since the day I met you."

"You love me?" She said in the most adorable way, smiling up at me brightly.

"I love you." I said as we stood there together in the dimly lit kitchen. Nothing else in the entire world existed except us in this room, in this apartment, in this city.

"I love you too, Hannie" She whispered as I turned us around and pinned her against the wall. I moved my lips to her neck and we started clumsily walking toward the stairs to her loft. Not for one moment wanting to be too far apart from each other.

At the top of the stairs, she pulled my shirt up over my head and slowly ran her fingers along my bare skin. I kissed her neck and pulled her t-shirt over her head, revealing her bare chest. She was beautiful, her skin was so creamy and smooth. In my head, this didn't seem real. I slid her shorts down over her hips and walked her back towards her bed. She undid the button on my jeans and pushed them off of me . Feeling her hands rove over my body while she looked up at me was something I'd always dreamed of.

In turn I also let my fingers explore her body. I took my time, kissing and relishing every single part of her that I could. Trailing kisses from her mouth to her neck, shoulders, her chest, and down to her navel before bringing myself back up to her again. I'd been dreaming about this since I was fifteen, I wasn't going to rush through it. She ran her fingers through my hair and had her legs wrapped around my waist pushing me farther into her. I burried my face in her neck as pleasure overtook me. She moaned loudly in my ear, luckily not loud enough that her neighbors could hear. To be honest, though, I didn't really care who could hear us. My dream girl just told me she was in love with me.

A little while later she was in my arms, drawing patterns on my chest with her finger. She had her head on my shoulder and we were tangled up sheets and each other. There was no other place on the planet I wanted to be.

"Jisung" She said quietly without moving.

"Hmm" I mumbled back as I kissed the top of her head.

"How in the world did you have a crush on me when you met me? I was a mess." She asked honestly, also trying not to laugh.

Emotionally she wasn't at her best when we met, hence the pink hair. Her dad had died a couple months before she moved to Malaysia. She had told her mom she wasn't going to go, but it had been one of the things her dad told her she had to do when he was gone. So she went anyway, no matter what. She doesn't handle emotion well sometimes, especially grief. She stuffs things down until she can't feel them anymore. One night she knocked on my door in the middle of the night in tears. Eyeliner and mascara were pouring down her cheeks. She missed her dad, and all I could do was sit with her while she cried and hold her hand.

I let out a laugh, "The real question is how did you have a crush on me? I was so awkward and...weird."

I was. I had glasses, ugly ones. Not to mention my hair was constantly covered with a beanie, even in summer. Something about showing my entire head felt odd to me. I had the emo bangs always in my face and pretty much wore the same pair of jeans every single day until they literally fell apart.

"Yeah, I don't know. You kinda wormed your way in. Probably when you sang that song you wrote in class."

Ahh, the song. It was the first song I ever wrote about her, and one of the few classes we had together when we were in school. Also, the only song that I wrote about her that I recorded and released. I was always surprised she didn't know it was about her.

"You know that song was all about you, right?" I asked rolling on my side and looking at her.

"No it's not." she said surprised. Ha, I knew it. "It is?"

"Of course it is. I write about you all the time." I confessed, "Of course most of them get shoved in a notebook and put in a drawer."

"I wanna see them." She said smiling.

"Nope." I laughed, "No"

"Oh come on. Just one?" She begged snuggling up closer to me. I kissed her and pulled away, "No." I said again.

"Why not?" she pretended to pout.

"Maybe someday. Not right now. They're embarrassing."

"Oh fine." A comfortable silence fell between us as I put a hand on her hip and pulled her towards me.

"I have to warn you." I said smirking, "The rest of the members took bets on when I would tell you how I felt."

"Psh, of course they did." She said snuggling her head into my chest. "I'm surprised Chan didn't let it slip to anyone."

"What?" I said sitting up a little.

"I talked to him a couple times about maybe telling you how I felt." She shrugged her shoulders.

"Wait, what?" I said again, not really believing what I was hearing. "When?"

"Not too long after I came over for dinner that one time. Um, the same night I came over and slept in your room for the first time."

"Holy crap. I talked to him that night too! He said you looked at me like you're in love with me or something." I laughed rolling on my back in shock. He was hinting at it, he already knew how she felt. He was hinting to me that I had nothing to be afraid of. Damn, I completely missed it.

"Damnit, Chan" She laughed.

Eventually she stopped talking and her breathing evened out. I laid there for another few minutes trying to comprehend what just happened. But when I did fall asleep, it was the best night sleep I'd had in my entire life.

***
The next morning I woke up and she was still there. Snuggled under the covers, pressed up against me, just the way I've always wanted. I snuggled my face down into her neck and laid there, just soaking it all in. I slept with Ember last night. She's in love with me. She's mine now. We love each other. Is this real life?

She started to stir in her sleep and slowly rolled over to face me. "Mmph" She smiled. I brushed her cheek with my thumb and smiled down at her.

"Mmph" I repeated to make fun of her.

"Don't you dare move. I'm comfy" She answered not even opening her eyes. I smirked as I kissed her on the forehead and closed my eyes.

"I won't. I'm comfy too." I whispered to her. Her hair was splayed out on the pillow behind her and she wrapped her arms around my waist. My girl, she was my girl now. I don't think my brain was ever going to fully comprehend that fact.

We laid in bed until around noon, just enjoying being around each other.

"I should go soon. Chan set up studio time around three." I said kissing the top of her head.

"Don't tell them yet." She said looking up at me.

"Why not?" I asked, wondering to my self why that was the word that came out of my mouth.

"I just want you to myself for a little while before we tell everyone. That's all."

"You got it." I smiled giving her one more kiss.

Eventually I pulled myself out of her bed, which proved much more difficult then I had anticipated. She held onto my waist and didn't let me stand. But eventually I managed to get dressed and kiss her goodbye. If it wasn't for the studio stuff I would have stayed in bed with her all day. I'd be giving her a reason to be in bed naked all day.

***

"JISUUUUUUNG!" Changbin yelled when I got to the studio, "Where the heck you been all night?"

"I fell asleep over at Ember's. What're we working on?" I asked as Chan came back in the room and sat down in his chair.

"You fell asleep?" Chan challenged, "Or did you do something that made you fall asleep?"

Rolling my eyes I answered "We were watching a movie, Chan. Get your head out of the gutter."

"Seriously, are you ever going to say anything to her? Or are you going to wait until she's in love with someone else?" Binnie said pulling his hat down over his eyes.

"Someday. We'll see. I kinda met someone yesterday." I said shrugging. Why not have some fun with this right?

"Uh....You suddenly met someone and you're no longer hopelessly in love with Ember?" Bin asked. "I don't buy it."

"I didn't say I was over Ember, I just said that I met someone I like. I might see if she wants to go on a date. That's all"

Chan twirled around in his chair and looked at me confused with one eyebrow raised. He REALLY didn't believe me.

"What?! Am I just supposed to sit around forever hopelessly in love with a girl that will never see me that way? Or am I allowed to try and find someone else?" I asked innocently. Oh, if only they knew the things I was doing to Ember last night. They wouldn't believe me then either.

"OR..." Changbin started "you can just tell Ember how you feel. Still don't understand what is so hard about that. Honestly, Jisung. Just freakin' do it."

"You know why I can't say anything. If I say something and she doesn't feel the same I lose her. I'd rather forever have her in my life as a friend then lose her forever. I haven't decided what I want to do yet." I said shrugging my shoulder. Thank god I made the right choice and told her how I felt. Flashes of what we'd done just last night kept popping into my brain and making it hard to focus. The way she looked underneath me and how her body felt against mine. Pretending like this was going to be even harder then working up the guts to actually tell her how I felt.

"I dunno, something still seems up with you. You're.....glowing or something, man. You look like you got some and you're holding out on us." Binnie joked.

"Yeah, he definitely looks a little...different." Chan chimed in before turning back around to his desk. All right! BACK TO WORK SLACKERS!" He said clapping his hands together.