⚠️⚠️ might be trigger to some people i don't really know it didn't go into detail but I don't wanna not put one and have people upset

Also I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while.

Millie's POV

I woke up from my alarm going off, since today's the first day back to school. God, I hate school. I looked down, and I was Finn's sweatshirt. Why didn't he ask for it back? Oops.

I get up to get ready, and I go into the bathroom and for the first time in months, I can look at my arms. I smile, take my medicine, and get ready for the day. Today is going to be a good day. I put on black jeans with a white T-shirt, and end up putting on Finns zip up he gave me. It's the only hoodie that keeps me warm.

I go downstairs and skip breakfast, because I'm not hungry. I sit in the couch and watch the news and go on my phone for a bit before I leave. Sadie and I park next to each other in the parking lot. The whole group just hangs out by our cars before the bell rings.

Sadie and I both arrive at the same time, and Sadie and I get out to go find the group. They were standing over by Caleb's car, everyone just talking. I met eyes with Finn, leaning against Caleb's car and looking at the hoodie, then at me. My cheeks immediately heated up, definitely turning red.

"I really don't want to go back. It's literally so much work." Noah said, and Lilia laughed.

"Noah, it's fine. We have all of our classes together, we'll get through it." She said. We basically all just chatted till the bell rang, and then walked inside. I went to my locker, and grabbed everything I needed, put it in my bag then shut my locker, seeing finn standing next to me. I have to look up to him a bit. He's tall.

"That hoodie looks familiar," he said, and I smiled. He smiled too, looking in my eyes.

"Shut up. It's warm, and nobody noticed it's yours and you gave it to me so it's mine now. A friend giving a friend a hoodie." I said.

"Exactly" he said, pulling at the string of the hoodie. He looked back up to me.

"Have a good day, I'll see you in class" he said, and walked away, leaving me with butterflies in my stomach. I started walking towards first period, and Maddie caught up to me, since we have the same class.

"So what's up? Anything new?" She said, and I shrugged.

"Not really." I said, and she smiled and looked at me.

"That sweatshirt is." She said, winking and walking to her seat. I rolled my eyes, and sat down.

My day is normal. English, Algebra, Spanish, History, lunch, Chem, study hall. Nothing exciting. I have English with Maddie, Algebra with Gaten Caleb and Jacob, Spanish with Finn, history with Lilia, Noah, Sadie and Jacob. I don't have chem with anyone.

The day went good. I wasn't anxious. Jacob was staring at me through algebra, which I didn't appreciate. Finn sits behind me in Spanish, so we talked a bit. I just wish History didn't happen.

I sit next to Sadie, Lilia and Noah sit in the back towards Jacob. We were taking notes on our new topic, and continued writing, focused.

The bell rang, and everyone got up to leave. It's lunch break for the entire school. We all eat lunch at the same time. Going in the hall during that time gives me anxiety.

"You coming Millie?" Sadie asked. I looked up to her.

"I'll meet you in there, I have to pack up." I said, and she nodded and everyone piled out of the room. Even the teacher left. I was packing up, when I heard the door shut, and the lights go off. I looked over and saw Jacob, shutting the door.

"Jacob, what are you doing?" I asked, and he came closer to me.

"I haven't seen you all winter break, I missed you." He said, and rolled my eyes.

"Let me leave," I said, but he got closer to me. He got really tall and muscular over break. Oh no.

"No, you are going to have some fun with me." He said, and my heart dropped. I looked at all my stuff on my desk. My phone, the book bag, and knew I wouldn't make it out of the room.

"Jacob please don't," I said, and he backed me up into a wall and started to kiss me. I was pinned against this wall, helpless. He hit me for not kissing him back, so I had to. He's never gone this far. Why is he doing this?

"I missed you Millie," he said, inbetween kissing me. I felt sick to my stomach. I then felt his hand move up my shirt, and grab my boob, and I screamed. I didn't get it out in time because Jacob put his hand over my mouth.

"If you let out one more sound, you will regret it." He said, and I nodded, tears in my eyes. I felt his hand roaming around under my shirt, then his other hand made it to my jeans. He unbuttoned them, and began to stick his hand down there, touching everything. Touching me.

I felt helpless. I felt numb. I felt like I was about to die. I was okay with dying. I let him touch me, because I can't fight him. I wouldn't be able to fight him. Tears were running down my cheeks, and I didn't look at him.

"You're lucky you're wearing jeans. Don't wear them again." He said, and he made me comply to him.

"I missed you Millie," he said, and left me there, and walked out of the room. I fell to the floor and started crying. I didn't know what to do. He just violated me. It all just happened so fast. He's never even laid a hand on me before. What happened that made him do it? Do I tell anyone? How am I supposed to go to lunch right now?

I forced myself to stop crying, fixed my jeans and hoodie, then grabbed everything and made my way to lunch.

I found our table, and sat down next to Noah, across from Finn and Sadie. Gaten and Lilia were to Noah's right, then everyone else was on the other side by Sadie. I really hope I look okay.

"Hey Mills," Noah says and play hits my leg, and I flinch really hard.

"Are you okay? I'm sorry." Noah said, I nodded and said yeah. They went back to conversation, and I stared down at my legs. I don't know how long I was staring, until I felt a little tap on my foot from someone else, and looked up at Finn who tapped me.

"You okay?" He asked in a low voice, and I just nodded, trying to hold back my tears. He was thinking, looking at me. Trying to figure out why I'm upset, but he can't.

"Are you going to eat?" He asked, and I shook my head no.

"Have you eaten today?" He asked, and I shook my head no. He looked at his small lunch, and gave me his banana. I shook my head no, but he nodded yes. I sighed, and ended up eating the banana, feeling Finn's dark stare at me the rest of lunch, trying to figure out what happened and what is wrong.

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"So, maybe you could come over later after school and we can work on the history together?" Sadie asked, and I nodded. Anything to get my mind off of it. We made plans and she left, and I was heading to my car. But I got held up after I heard Finn yelling my name. It was odd, because I've never heard him shout. He was running to catch up with me, and he started walking with me to my car.

"How was your day? Did you have a good day?" He asked, me seeing that emotion in his eyes, hoping I say yes.

"Yes, I did." I said, attempting a smile. He was inspecting me, knowing I'm lying somehow. How does he know shit I've never said out loud?

"I thought you looked beautiful today." He said, and it made me real smile. Finn said I looked beautiful?

"Like a friend saying you look beautiful." He said, and we smiled and I nodded.

"Thank you." I said, and he nodded.

"Well, bye Finn." I said, and he looked into my eyes.

"Bye Millie. I'll see you later. Text me if you need to." He said, and began to walk away, but as soon as he started to walk away, Lilia hugged me from behind and I shrieked, backing into the car, my heart racing.

"Oh god I'm sorry Millie I didn't mean to scare you, are you okay?" Lilia asked, concerned.

"Yeah I'm okay you just scared me," laughing it off. She laughed with me and said bye. I looked up and saw Finn still watching me.

"What?" I asked. His facial expression didn't change. I know he can tell I'm in pain. Not real pain, mental pain. He went to touch my arm, but I backed away, and tears started forming in my eyes.

"Please don't Finn please don't Finn," I rambled, and he took his hand back, his face showing sympathy.

"Take care okay Millie? Eat something tonight." He said, and I nodded. He said bye, and let me go.

I ate a little bit, and went to Sadie's.

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Yikes

How's everyone's June going so far?