It's been so long lol. I have 19 drafts on this book so I will be posting them!!! So get ready for more of this story lol. Go read some old chapters if you can't remember what has happened since then.

Millie's POV

"That's actually the cutest though." Lilia said, waking me up. I didn't open my eyes, I didn't feel like it. Apparently everyone came into the guest room because Finn and I were the only ones still sleeping.

I could tell Finn was still holding me from last night. I waited till he woke up to figure out he cuddled with me last night. I heard him shift around and groan, holding me tighter. Finn, wake up.

He opened his eyes, and realized he was holding me. He immediately let go, and backed up.

"Shit," I heard him say, still pretending I'm asleep. Not dealing with this awkwardness right now.

"Finn, that was adorable. So are you guys dating?" Sadie asked, and I could tell how confused Finn was. His head was probably pounding from the alcohol, and confused as to why he was cuddling me last night.

"No, we're not dating. Why would you even think that? Ugh, fuck, my head hurts." He said, and laid back down on the bed.

I opened my eyes and pretended to wake up, not aware of what happened. I'm gonna need to talk to Finn about last night.

"We're gonna go eat breakfast. Join us when you can stand up." Lilia said, and they all left. I looked over to finn, and he was holding his head, sitting up.

"Finn-

"No. I don't want to hear it. It was bad, wasn't it." He started. Has he done this before or something?

"Yeah." I said, and he groaned.

"I'm sorry. I probably didn't mean anything I said." He said, looking at me.

"I'm pretty sure you meant all of it." I said, trying to recall everything he said.

"Did we..do anything? Did you stop me?" He asked awkwardly. It's weird to him, not to know everything and not to be in control of it.

"You tried to. I wouldn't let you." I said, and he nodded and rested his back against the wall next to the bed.

"I'm sorry if I did anything to upset you. I'm really sorry, I shouldn't have gotten drunk. Bad things happen." He said, groaning.

"Nothing bad happened. I stopped you. That was it. Besides that you were crying and then going dark and telling me you want your family gone." I said, and he turned to me. He made me look into his eyes just by the look he's giving me. God, can his eyes get any darker?

"Dark? What do you mean going dark?" He asked, and I shook my head.

"Nothing, nevermind. I'm going to get breakfast. I said, getting up, but Finn grabbed onto my wrist.

"What do you mean dark?" He asked, and my heart started to race. Why would I say that out loud?

"Um, it's just the way you..look at me. I can tell your emotions by the way you look at me. You know everyone calls you a creep Finn. From the way you stare. I just call it emotionless. You looked like you were going to kill me last night." I said, and he let go of my wrist.

"I'm sorry. I should've controlled myself, I know I shouldn't have drunken." Finn said.

"It's okay, nothing bad happened." I said, and he nodded.

"Are you going to eat?" He asked, and I shrugged.

"I'm gonna go but I'm not eating. I'm not hungry." I said, avoiding eye contact.

"Please eat." He said, and I nodded. I'm not eating.

I walked out of the room, because I couldn't handle it anymore.

What if I woke up next to him like that all the time? What if we were something more?

Shut up, Millie. Stop that.

I hear my phone buzz, and I pick it up to see who texted me.

Jacob: I enjoyed the other night. Come tonight.

No, Jacob. I can't. I'm with my family.

I won't go. I can't go. The day away from him was a blessing, I can't do this anymore.

Jacob: You're going to come over. I have some things to tell you.

I just put my phone down, and try to calm down. What things? Fuck.

I eat some toast and everyone is just chilling out, talking. I look to Lilia and Noah, and they're sitting next to each other, smiling and laughing.

They're adorable. Honestly, I'm surprised that the group hasn't had a romance sparked yet. We've all been together for years. I guess it's just because I see most of them as brother and sister.

Finn..not really. I've never had a close bond with him. He kept to himself, sat back and watched. It's okay he did that, I just wish he was closer with all of us. I guess you can say that I'm closer with Finn, but it's nothing serious. Just a better friendship. God, he's just so god damn hot. How can you look at him and think he's not attractive?

Caleb and Gaten are alright. They don't really catch my eye in attractiveness. Mostly just Noah and Finn. The girls are pretty, but they're basically my sisters. I would never have any sort of feelings toward them. 

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"Hey mom, I'm gonna go to Jacobs for a bit. Is that okay?" I asked, walking downstairs to see her on the couch. She just got off of work.

"Yes, honey. Be back at a decent time though." She said, and I nodded and grabbed my keys.

"Thank you! I'll be back soon." I said, and walked out the door, and got into my car. I sat there for a couple minutes, debating on going or not.

I have to. I don't have a choice. I wore leggings just incase. I don't want him to yell at me. Or hurt me.

I drive to Jacobs house, and he lets me in as soon as I get there. I still don't see his parents. Where the fuck are they?

"Come sit down on the couch." He said, leading me to the couch. I look around and nobody else is here. That's nice, at least. His house is honestly really nice. Clean. Modern. I just wish he was nice and clean.

"What did you want?" I asked, sitting on the couch, as he sits next to me and faces me. I face him. He eyes me up and down, and my heart starts to race.

I don't like when he does that. I'm really only comfortable when that someone else does it.

"We should date." He said, and I raised my eyebrows.

"No." I said, and I could tell his face was more stern than relaxed. I don't want to be forced into a relationship.

"Well," he started, taking his hand and setting it on my knee, "I think you should say yes. Shouldn't you, Millie?" He said, moving his hand higher up my leg. I didn't flinch, but I didn't like it either. Why was it so natural with Finn?  Stop thinking about Finn, Millie.

"Why would I say yes?" I asked, him moving closer to me, moving his hand to my inner thigh. My heart is racing, and I don't know what to do. I can't stop him, he would overpower me in a second.

"Because we would make a nice couple. I already know all of your...weak spots, you could say." He said, and moved his hand up my inner thigh to somewhere I didn't want him to touch. I didn't want to make a sound, so I didn't say anything back.

"Is that a yes?" He said, still touching it, basically trying to seduce me. I felt weird. I felt different. Why would I say yes? I don't like him. If I say no he will continue to harass me, but probably make it worse. If I say yes it won't be as bad. But I don't want to say yes. But I don't want to make it worse for myself.

"Yes," I lied, and he placed his lips onto mine, not moving his hand. I mean, I guess it would feel nice if someone else was doing it. Jacob is basically sexually harassing me. But I never said no. Would that make me a slut? God, I don't know what to do. I'm stuck.

He leaned me down into the couch, and moved his hands up my shirt, touching me. I let him. I couldn't say no.

And so it continued from there.

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