Millie's POV

It's the end of the week now, Friday. It's happened every day. Except today. He told me to meet him at his house instead. And I have to say okay. I'm at lunch. It's been normal today.

I haven't really spoken to Finn much after Tuesday. I ended up telling Sadie and the rest of the group what I did and the reason, but I didn't go into full detail like I did with Finn. They understand, and they're always here for me. I appreciate it.

"How's your day?" Finn asked, and I shrugged. I couldn't even look at him. He had to have told someone to make it spread around. Nobody else knew. I just feel hurt and betrayed.

"It's okay." I said, looking at the table, into nothingness.

"You look nice today." He said, trying to get my attention. It didn't work. I was wearing leggings with a sweater. Not that nice.

"Guys, do you all want to stay over today? My parents are going camping." Sadie said, and I furrowed my eyebrows.

"It's winter though." Finn said, and Sadie nodded.

"Haven't you noticed the snow is all gone and it's literally 80° out?" She said, and we laughed. The weather is crazy here.

"But yes," Caleb said, and everyone else agreed.

"I might have to come late." I said, and they asked why. Fuck.

"I'm going to Jacobs tonight." I said, and the girls "ooooo"ed. They don't know what he's done and that he's teased me and all that shit, they just know he's a guy.

"That'll be fun! Is it a date?" She asked, and I flinched at the word. Finn noticed.

"Yeah." I said, and they were happy for me. The guys didn't seem to care, they just want me to be safe.

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"So when are you coming?" Finn asked me as we were walking out to my car.

"When I leave Jacobs house." I said, and he nodded. He looked me up and down.

"Since when did you wearing leggings to school?" He asked, and I shrugged.

"Millie what's wrong?" He asked me, and I looked at him.

"You told the whole school I cut myself." She said, and Finn groaned.

"I didn't, Millie. I swear to you." He said, trying to get me to realize. I didn't.

"I'm gonna go." I said, meeting his eyes. They're dark now. It's kind of scaring me. The way he looks. I don't know how he does that, but he's such an emotional person. I don't understand. It's like a flip switches.

"Okay. Bye Millie." He said, and walked away. God, now he's pissed. It's fine. I have more important things to do. I have to get ready to go to Jacobs. I'll just go to Sadie's straight from there.

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I walk inside his house, and see his parents are not home, nowhere in sight. I see other guys in the house. My heart started to beat in terror, hoping nothing really bad happens today.

"She's here," Jacob said, and the guys hollered. What the fuck is this?

"Come with me Millie." Jacob said, and brought me upstairs to his room.

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Sadie's POV

Everyone is over, and we're all just hanging out. Talking. I miss Millie, I wish she was with us. But it's good she's finding someone new and trying things out. I'm just really surprised her and Finn didn't go anywhere. I swear they were getting somewhere. Finn needs someone in his life, and so does Millie. I feel like the pieces just fit together. I guess not.

"So what are we gonna do?" Lilia asked, going through her phone.

"I don't know, Millie isn't here." Noah said, and they all just looked around.

"Noah, you're acting like Finn. We can do stuff without Millie." Maddie said, and the guys laughed, not Finn.

"I don't act like that." Finn said, and the girls started talking his ear off.

"Yes you do! You're actually so in love with her but she can't see it." Lilia said, and Finn laughed. God, I can't remember the last time I heard Finn laugh.

"I'm Millie's friend. We're close, nothing more. She's with Jacob." He stated. He doesn't really show emotion. It's kind of a creepy turn on if that makes sense.

"That's why you're all sad," Caleb said, and Finn raised his eyebrows at him.

"Millie and I are not more than friends. Trust me on that." He said, and we shrugged it off and teased him, then went outside and started a fire and did s'mores and stuff.

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Millie's POV

I feel used. I feel broken. I feel nothing. I don't know what to do anymore.

No, they didn't rape me. They know how much trouble they would be in. They still made me do other stuff with their you know what's. I don't feel like saying it. It was disgusting. I can feel all of them individually touching me, everywhere. Places I didn't know you could touch. I feel abused. They all left me up here and went to drink downstairs. They tore all my clothes off, so I'm laying here with nothing on.

But I need to go to Sadie's. Just think. It could be worse, Millie. It can be worse.

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I knocked on the door to Sadie's, and she let me in and smiled.

"Hey! How was Jacobs? She asked, and I smiled.

"It was nice." I said, and she nodded. We walked to the living room where everyone was hanging out, and all the girls "ooooo"ed. Again.

"What'd you guys doooo?" They asked, and I forced a smile.

"Stuff." I said, and the girls got even more interested.

"Like what?" They asked, and all the attention was on me.

"I don't really want to talk about it. Private stuff, you know." I said, and the girls groaned. Thank god they stopped.

I can see Finns stare in the corner of my eye. He doesn't know, Millie, so stop acting like he does. If he knew before it happened, he would've stopped you from going. I have to apologize to him.

"What've you all been doing?" I asked, and they talked about everything they did. We all decided to back out to the fire and sit and talk. It was a nice night with my friends. But I just feel so helpless. Everyone went inside to get food, but I stayed out. I felt a hand set on my shoulder and I jumped and turned to see who was behind me. It was Finn.

"Can I sit next to you?" He asked, and I nodded, trying to stop my hands from shaking.

"What did you do at Jacobs house?" He asked, and I shrugged. I met his eyes with mine.

"We watched a movie. And talked." I said, lies slurring right of my mouth. He raised his eyebrows, and looked at my hands, then back up at my eyes.

"Did you?" He asked, and I nodded. We just looked at the fire after that, and everyone ended up coming back out with food.

What a fucking night.

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Poor Mills I'm really doing her dirty right now I feel bad