(Mentions of sex)

"Wait you want me to watch Jimin have sex with someone?"

~ Taehyung ~

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Taehyungs POV

"Do you think you could ask my parents for me to get me someone to hook up with?"

My heart sunk hearing Jimins request.

Of course he wants to hook up with someone but what hurts a bit more is that he's not referencing to me.

I am supposed to be his friend and not secretly in love with him.

"A-ah sure" I said trying to not sound upset even though my smile was disappearing.

"Thanks. I just don't want to talk to my parents myself about it" Jimin said to me.

They are evil so I understand why he wouldn't want too.

"I will go give your mother a call as they aren't home currently" I said getting up from Jimin's bed.

Jimin nodded and watched me walk out.

I gripped my chest once I closed his bedroom door as my heart constricted while aching.

God I need to learn he doesn't want me.

I stumbled too the computer room and then sat down in a chair as my legs gave out.

I took a deep breath before I typed in Mrs Parks phone number on the phone she supplied me with.

"Hello Taehyung. Is everything okay?" She asked picking up the phone call after a couple of rings.

"Um yes. Just Jimin wanted me to ask you something" I stated with hot tears blurring my eyes.

"Oh what is it?" She asked.

"He wants to hook up with someone" I said gritting my teeth.

"Oh. Wow. Okay. Um well I could possibly pay for someone to come over for him to play around with however we would need to have someone watch" She said pausing.

"Taehyung I want you to watch so you can find out the truth about Jimin not in his presence. Then maybe you will understand why I keep Jimin inside as I understand you both went for a run through the house and backyard today" She stated.

Of course she is expecting whoever he hooks up with to turn to stone so she wants me to watch it happen so I'm aware of the risks.

She is willing to start giving me the truth which may help me get answers for Jimin.

"Wait you want me to watch Jimin have sex with someone?" I asked shocked.

"Yes. I will order someone to come around tomorrow but can you go ask Jimin what gender he wants the person to be because we don't know his sexual orientation. And then just text me the answer" She explained.

"Ah okay" I said not wanting to see Jimin anymore.

"Also Taehyung. Before I hang up. Don't tell Jimin you will be watching" She explained.

"Okay" I said nervously before she cut the call.

I have to watch my only friend have sex with someone!

Watch the guy I'm madly attracted too in this timeline cum and be fucked? Are you kidding me...

I scoffed annoyed as I walked back to Jimins bedroom.

He looked up at me as I walked in.

"Your mother wants to know what gender person you want to hook up with" I asked.

Jimin snickered.

"I'm not gay so a female" Jimin spat.

I turned too the door feeling completely sick.

His words circulated in my brain.

'I'm not gay'

"I will go tell your mother. You can hook up with someone tomorrow. And I'm going to bed now so goodnight Jimin" I said before walking out the door not glancing once at the male.

I left my artwork with him but I didn't even care.

Honestly I wish I could never see him ever again and that I could just die again so I wouldn't have to deal with my stupid feelings.

I walked too my bedroom as tears threatened to fall down my cheeks.

I'd never felt this pain before because I'd never been apart of a one sided love relationship/friendship.

Nor any relationship.

I felt terrible.

Love can make you feel so ill when it's not returned.

I closed my bedroom door a bit too loudly because I wasn't happy but I didn't give a fuck.

I just ran and jumped onto my bed feeling the tears stream down my cheeks now that I was alone.

I held onto my pillow tightly and cuddled it as my cheeks were stained with tear streaks.

My mascara and eye shadow all streamed down my face leaving disgusting marks on my face.

My hot tears dripped down onto my white bed sheets making it damp.

I got up from my bed texting slowly Jimin's answer to Mrs Park that Jimin wants a women and then I grabbed a towel to go have another shower to take off my make up because I can't stand myself looking disgusting and feeling not fresh.

Jimins POV

I didn't want Taehyung to leave yet.

My face dropped completely seeing him wander out of the room.

I didn't even get the chance to tell him how amazing and grateful I was of his artwork of me.

I stood up and wandered around my room thinking about what I should do.

I felt like such a shit person for just asking things from him.

I should have just asked my parents myself and left him out of it.

I shouldn't let desires I crave but can't access take control of me. What is wrong with waiting till I leave this place? Why did I have to ask now...

I slapped my face angry with myself.

God why do I care so much about this stunning guy.

It's not like I have feelings in those ways for him.

I mean I wouldn't know the difference between friendship and romantic feelings as I've never had either but the way I feel around Taehyung surely isn't romantic feelings... 

"Ugh!" I shouted punching my wall.

I didn't care blood covered my knuckles.

I continued to hit it.

Is Taehyung possibly gay?

He didn't seem to like my response but wouldn't gay in his time not be allowed?

Did he even know it existed?

If he was gay would he give me a chanc-

What am I even thinking... I don't like guys.

But I do like Taehyung.

I sighed banging my head on the wall.

Then I opened my bedroom door and lead my way in front of the door I saw Taehyung come out of now that tears were rolling down my cheeks.

Why am I ashamed of slowly falling for someone when I've always dreamed to be truly in love with someone...

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(Oop- They both upset except one of them doesn't want to see the other and the other one does-

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