...Okay I know I haven't been updating these days but right now, I'm really struggling with my mental health. It hasn't been good for the past few week.

I've been feeling weaker, My head spins around, I feel insecure with all the pretty girls in my classroom. They are really pretty.

And another thing to mention, I have this crush that also has a crush on me too but...I can't help but feel like he's playing with me and that his feelings for me are just fun and jokes.

I want to build a friendship with him, I don't want to rush things, I want to take it slow.

But when I try to talk to him, He'll ignore me or just say one word or if i'm lucky two words.

I feel jealous whenever he talks to my friend, Because he just walks past me.

It really hurts, At school this afternoon we were practicing for our nutrition jingle, I saw them talking and laughing so I excused myself to the bathroom.

So I can cry freely, My friend was really beautiful too I felt really insecure.

Thank you guys for taking the time out of your day to read what is really happening with me i'm really thankful for each and everyone of you.

(Edit: Me and my crush are getting closer and closer by the day, And i'm happy about it! He's the one that makes me so so happy. And I hope he knows that)

I know you guys came for the oneshot but I really wanted to get it off my chest.

Anyways I hope all of you have a nice day, Night and afternoon.

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Author's P.O.V
Hoseok gulped as he stared at the door that led to his caregiver's room.

He could hear his daddy's and his friends loud curses, Through the thin walls causing him to still be awake at this time.

It was 11 at night but his daddy put him to sleep at 9, He couldn't fall asleep because 1; Yoongi and his friends were playing games while loud curses and slurs were around the house.

2; Hoseok wanted to have cuddles at a cold lonely night but his daddy refused to give him cuddles because his friends were over.

Maybe it was because Yoongi's friends didn't know that he regresses into littlespace.

He knocked and a few seconds Yoongi's friend opened the door "Oh Hoseok hyung!! Come join us!" He pulled Hoseok inside the room.

Hoseok was beyond shocked at the sight infront of him, Pizza boxes were around the place coke and beer cans were shattered around and Yoongi's black sheet were on the floor while Yoongi and his friends were screaming curses.

He was horrified, Hoseok walked towards his boyfriend and tapped his shoulder.

"Hold the fuck up i'm playing!!" Yoongi cursed at Hoseok.

Hoseok took a deep breath and exhaled to stop his tears from forming "Baby can you guys be alittle more quiet? I've been trying to sleep" Hoseok said softly.

Yoongi threw the controller at the floor when they lost "STOP BEING SUCH A FUCKING BABY AND LEAVE US ALONE!!" Yoongi snapped.

His friends laughed as Yoongi pushed Hoseok out of the room, Then slammed the door into his face, While he was pushing Hoseok his friends were yelling insults at Hoseok.

Hoseok looked down at his feet as he turned to his heel with his heart slowly becoming heavy and his eyes quickly forming warm tears for him to shed.

His own daddy just yelled at him infront of his friends, He humiliated Hoseok infront of his friends.

When Hoseok got to his room, He slumped on the bed and his tears finally had enough and fell down his flushed cheeks.

Actually Yoongi has been inviting his friends over alot these days this would repeat itself but Yoongi didn't yell at him, It was only today that he yelled at Hoseok.

Even if Yoongi was drunk and was completely out of his mind, It still hurts to hear him say those words. Those words stabbed his heart with many knives.

Hoseok cried into his hands while the darkness around him swallows him in loneliness, sadness.

His fingers suddenly found their way to his necklace, It was the necklace Yoongi gave him their 1st anniversary.

He didn't even know why Yoongi started drinking every night, But Hoseok is sick and tired of it.

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Hoseok sighed as he looked at the big and horrible mess that was made in his caregiver's room.

He was holding a big trash bag and other cleaners.

He started off by taking out all of the pizza boxes, Soda and beer cans before placing them in the trash bag.

"Ew what the hell is this smell?" Hoseok scrunched his nose and took out the trash bag into the trash bin outside their house.

He walked back inside and started to mop the disgusting room's floor.

After everything was all spotless and in place, He sighed contentedly and smiled.

He then got the doorbell, Hoseok grunted as he got up from the couch to open the door.

"Hm? What's this?" Hoseok picked up the boque of flowers and the box of chicken nuggets that was close to it.

Hoseok squealed happily as he thought that his daddy bought him.

He took them inside and hummed happily as he felt all bubbly inside.

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"Daddy~!" Hoseok called out as Yoongi walked through the door.

Yoongi ignored him and collasped on the couch before reaching for the remote to turn on the t.v.

Hoseok sat close next to him and Yoongi said "Don't sit close to me, I need space".

"Daddy! Thank you for the chicken nuggets and flowers ealier!" Yoongi scrunched his face and said "What the hell are you talking about?".

Hoseok giggled and said "The nuggets and flowers that you sent me this morning! I love them!" Yoongi scoffed sarcastically.

"I didn't sent them dumb hoe" Hoseok pouted and stood up before going to him room.

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"H-Hyungie I-I just don't know what to d-do anymore" Hoseok sobbed into Jin's shoulder.

Jin engulfed him into a hug and said "Seokie honey..." Comfortingly and rubbed his back.

"Don't worry baby, I'm here for you" Hoseok hiccuped into his shoulder.

"Sweetheart...How long?" Jin asked, Implying on how long has Yoongi have been ignoring him.

"A-Almost 3 months, I-I thought he w-was just b-busy" Hoseok sobbed louder into Jin's shoulder making Jin's heart clench painfully at the sight.

He didn't know how to tell Hoseok that Yoongi found someone that he could feel the spark like he used to with Hoseok.

"Sweetheart listen to me...I think it would be better if you two split, You guys used to be so so happy but the spark is gone..." Hoseok sniffled.

"You know, I told you back then... If one is happy and the other is sad, It wouldn't work out anymore" Hoseok nodded.

You're still going to miss him and I know that, But I would take my chance when the time comes before it goes away Jin thought.

Jin smiled softly at Hoseok and wipped his tears "Now stop crying, Hyungie doesn't like it when you cry sweetheart".

Hoseok wipped his tears with his forearms and said "T-Thank you h-hyungie".

Jin ruffled his hair and said "No problem honey...I'm always here for you".

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"Mr. Min someone would like to take the time to talk to you" Yoongi's assistant said.

Yoongi then said "Let them in", The assistant walked out and came back in with Hoseok.

Yoongi grumbled and Hoseok spoke "I won't be fast here, I just wanted to tell you that..." Hoseok took a deep breath.

"I want to break up with you" Hoseok continued "...Why?" Yoongi asked.

"Our spark is going Yoongi, It's not going to work out anymore...You don't have time for me anymore and i've been trying my best to get you back home but it just wouldn't work anymore".

Hoseok reached to the back of his neck and removed the necklace before walking towards Yoongi's desk.

He placed the necklace gently on the desk and said "I hope you're going to be happy without me" Before walking out of office.

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After a few months have passed, Hoseok thought that he would be sobbing and locking himself in his room.

But it was surprising for him that he's feeling happy and free, That's when he realized he was feeling trapped by Yoongi.

Jin was the one that helped Hoseok get over him quickly, And Jin wanted to take his chance right.

"So hyung what did you want to tell me?" Hoseok happily said and Jin took a deep breath.

"Hoseok sweetheart, I love you... And I want you to be mine and mine only, I love you eversince the day we met. Remember when you guys announced that you were officially in a relationship? I was heartbroken but nevertheless happy for you.

But now I wouldn't want to let my chance to slip away, Jung Hoseok will you be my boyfriend?" Jin took Hoseok's hands into his hands.

Hoseok smiled and said "Let's give it a shot hyung, Yes i'll be your boyfriend".

That night, One was fueled with happiness and one was fueled with anger, Sadness, and all negative emotions.