AN: *apologizes for all the hell and sadness in about to bring* AND NOW-

MY SHIPS BRING ALL THE READERS TO THE YARD. AND THERE LIKE. ITS BETTER THAN THIS-

okay I'll stop now. All your guys's own one shots are awesome. :)

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I dunno what I was thinking

leaving my child behind

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He left. He left us all. Screaming at me that he didn't want to hurt anyone anymore. I knew he had an insane side...but I was always there for him to snap him out of it. His beautiful purple eyes drifted out of red to green then back to purple. It looks like his multiple personalities were trying to escape. But before they could he took my hand, I held his hand tightly, tears coming to my eyes. He gave me a small kiss and let go and ran.

I screamed for him. Hot tears falling down my face. I felt myself teleport home in my and Lalna-

I broke down even more.

"Lalna....Lalna come back....

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Now I suffer the curse

And now I am blind

With all this anger

guilt

and sadness

Coming to haunt me forever...

I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river...

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"Should I jump?" I asked myself. It had been about month since...HE left...everytime I thought of his name I broke down. I sighed and got up, getting up and walking back home getting a bad feeling. As soon as I walked in though my feeling was right, as I saw daddy and mom sobbing and holding each other. I walked over.

"Daddy...?" I asked softly. "M-Matthew...." he sobbed. I paled and turned to mom, "S-Star..." I paled more and ran upstairs to their room stopping in the doorway.

I dropped to my knees. Matthew was holding Star in a protective matter however his arms were limped. And Star her face held a look of horror. Tear stains down her face matched Matthew's. However, the words in their blood. Right above them is what broke me.

"Its me. Its Lalna." I whispered crying.

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Is this revenge I am seeking?

Or seeking someone to avenge me?

Stuck in my own paradox I wanna set myself free...

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Half a an hour earlier

I laughed at the boy holding the small girl close, they were both crying, I quickly stabbed the girl, and then the boy. The two slumped to the ground immeditly. I chuckled and wrote the words "its me" suddenly I snapped out of it. Looking down I paled and backed away.

Star. Matthew. Dead. Because of me. I held them both tight putting them in a position so they could love each other still. I began to sob, "I'm sorry.." I whispered. I wished I could get rid of this monster. But I can't.

It'll always be there.

I quickly jumped out the window, the landing not hurting and ran as this monster of me took over. I had to stay away. Stay away.

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Maybe I should chase and find

Before they'll try to stop it

It won't be long before I become a puppet.

Its been so long.

Since last I've seen my son

Lot to this monster...

To the man behind the slaughter

Since you've been gone

I've been singing this stupid song so I could ponder...

The sainty of your mother

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Today was the two year anniversary of when Star and Matthew died. They'd be fifteen today. It was a quiet day as we went upon our usual business. It was until we heard a high pitched scream coming from Endress's and Duncan's room is when me, my mom and daddy ran up and burst open the door.

But I wished we hadn't.

Endress and Duncan were slumped up against the wall in a pool of blood just barely connected. Their mouths were in a twjsted smile. Endress's was of acceptance, and Duncan's was or relief. I would never know why their faces were like that. But the two things simalier in this case was the same tear stained eyes. And the sentance "its me" held above the two.

I turned to daddy. He murmered something that sounded like:

"They finally got their wish." It slipped out before I had a chance to stop myself, "what wish?" He turned to me.

"To die."

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I wished I lived in the present.

With the gift of my past mistakes

But the future keeps luring in like a pack of snakes

Your sweet little eyes

Your little smile is all I remember

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"Alex! Look I'm a kitty!"

"Please don't cry..."

"I'll do ANYTHING for you...your my life."

I paused, "...then please stop killing off the last few people I have." I sob. I missed when we were younger. His smile, his eyes. I would never see them again. I have lost Matthew, Star, Endress and Duncan. One year later Lalna brought me a gift...

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Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper

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My mother.

He killed my mother. And her tear stained eyes were still there. And the words "its me" still were there. And my mothers torn clothes showed she fought back. That's what she always was. A fighter.

But then I hear a scream from downstairs.

"DADDY!!!!" I screamed running downstairs. I hid behind a courner and finally saw him after all this time.

"Lalna." My tone wasn't friendly. My father was the last straw. My daddy. My father. My one and only.

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Justification is killing me.

But killing isn't justified.

What happened to my son I'm terrified.

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He turned around, his eyes were purple. But mine were to white and glowing to notice.

Every good memory with him shattered like a brick in my mind.

There would be no more kisses from Lalna, no more little jokes and cute remarks, no more of him blushing, no more of him signing, no more of his hugs, no more of him.

"Alex..." this time he has the tear stained cheeks. His clothes are torn, he's older obviously. I grab his neck, everything gong blind.

And when I can see again. He is dead.

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It lingers in my mind

And the thought keeps on getting stronger

I'm sorry my sweet baby I'd been there.

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His eyes are purple.

His smile is at peace.

His tear stained eyes are of joy.

His curled up body is a sign of no resistince.

He...is at peace.

I go upstairs and sit down. Thinking. Everyone was dead now. Everyone. All Lalna wanted was to never hurt anyone else again. But he did. And he snapped out of it, but it was always too late. He always saw the horror. Leaving the message "its me" at Star and Mattie's, Endress and Duncan's and my mothers death scene.

However, he left "I'm sorry" at my dads. And my guess...is the message above him was his last words to me. "Its okay." Meaning he let me kill him. Out of rage.

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Endress:Its been so long.

Duncan:Since last I've seen my son

Star:Lost to this monster

Lalna:To the man behind the slaughter

Rythian:Since you've been gone

Lana:I've been singing this stupid song

Matthew:So I could ponder

Alex:The sainty of your mother....

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Who's the monster now?