so i was going through and deleting screenshots from my ipod and i found all the screenshots from someone i used to date and just all the sweet sappy things hurt so much to read because now he's such an asshole and how he made all these plans for the future honestly how was supposed to know we'd have a future at all? and i dunno it just made me really sad and i felt very sick and light headed reading it all because people make promises all the time and a lot of the time they can't keep them and i know i'm better off without him but the things he said to me were unbelievably sweet and i don't know i felt better about myself reading them but now he insults me and says the exact opposite of the things he used to say and it isn't him i miss it's the way he was

another thing i was talking about this girl who i think is an attention seeker because she lies about cutting and says every other day she's going to commit suicide and maybe i have no right to say that she's an attention seeker but ??? anyways i said something about it and i wasn't even talking to him but he goes "oh wow you're a hypocrite" because at the time i was dating him i was cutting and had a very low self-esteem

i would tell him because i trusted him

and now he's fucking bashing me for it?

he was the one who wanted me to stop.

he was the one who wanted to help me.

i was and still am so pissed about it.