i'm whiny and dramatic so pls if u wanna call me out go ahead but i'm having a shit day and i need to rant. this is what you signed up for. this books is literally called a rant book.

alright so we have a student teacher in geography but anyways yesterday was my best friend's birthday (which i forgot :-( i hate that i did that i felt horrible) so i started to sing to him and my actual geography teacher comes and says "come with me" and we go out into the halls.

his actual words were "your behavior has sucked that last few weeks, and you know it. you're better than this. you see this? this is disappointment." and i just nodded along and was like yeah i know i'm disappointing please you should've given up on me long ago. i've never seen him so angry. the thing that pisses me off is that he's barely in the room..

today just happened to be the day i forgot to take my anxiety meds.

i had a horrible anxiety attack when i left to go to the bathroom. i'm just so mad at myself because i know that i'm not acting like i should i guess? i've been sick to my stomach and on the verge of tears all day.. we played jeopardy in geography and i could only half enjoy it.

plus, today was the student teacher's last day, and he's really chill and was one of my favorite teachers. i don't want to be in a classroom with my actual teacher, or even in the same building.

also thank you MadeWithFandoms because you actually made my day. i started crying out of happiness in the middle of class.

sorry i just needed to rant i guess