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Is it right to live as I am?

Is it right to live using every trick in the book?

Just what am I meant to be?

Just who am I really?

Tell me!

Tell me!...

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Sometimes when the night is quiet, so quiet, Y/N can hear the voices of her past. Realising the lost she endure through all this years, as if a part of her is missing an important one - that can't never be replaced nor deleted.

Running around in circles through every door and every place, pictures of unknown people in her head.
Whispering her lost memories she didn't even know that she had lost them.

'What happened to me?

Why is my memory so bizzare?

Who did this to me?'

This questions were haunting Y/N since day one as she was back by her family.

She still could remember the tears of her mother, the happy expression of her brother and the confused yet angry mood of her father.

'Back then were this people strangers to me.'

'A family?'

'Why didn't my family rescue me from this cruel place?'

'Why was I even there?'

'How did I got there?'

But the most important question that she repeats since the day she could remember her thoughts and keep her family.

'Why was even I created?'

Looking back at the past and now Y/N her whole life was she searching and the people around her - were holding her back.

The girl couldn't even trust her own memories, everyday she wants to find the answers to her questions even they weren't good atleast she will know.

'I am just an instrument who doesn't belong to anyone and never will.'

But through the years she develop feelings towards her real family, the mother who gave birth to her, her older brother who is a bestfriend in her eyes and a father who wasn't truly a father figure.

'I could never learn to express myself, my only way was the things I loved to do.'

Lifting her hand up in the tent and imagining to catch a star while giving it free at the same time.
"Maybe, one day I find the home I never had."
She brings her hand back down and placing it on her chest while she lets quiet tears running down her face.

"Until then my war keeps going."

With that she closed her eyes and turn on her side as she tries to fall asleep before the sunrises and the day begins, bringing a new opportunity to enjoy the person she always was.

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Raindrops running down the window pane, the wind is hollowing through the trees,
The smell of fresh made dinner came mothers the kitchen while her children were in the basement and trained martial arts.

A older boy was landing a good hit against the stomach of the young girl and made her slip while she fell on her back on the sport mat.

"Y/N, you need to learn more until you are a professional."
He told her and helped her up while he gave her a reassurance smile.

Her brother gave her a pat on her head that made her blush slightly from the warm feeling.
"I will."
She says softly and enjoyed the pat like a kitten.

Being touch starved wasn't nice at all but one day maybe she gets a boyfriend who would give her affection as much she wants.

"Now, I wanted to teach you a new technique. Since you are not good with the heavy things how about chi-blocking? As well also a unique form of martial arts that targets pressure points located in the human body.
I asked my mentor and told me that this would you suit you the best."
He told her with a smile and walks to his backpack to get a book out.

As he was back in front of her - he gives her the book and winks at her.
"Since you are younger then me, you can master it quickly when you start now. After all you are my little sister hehe."
He chuckles and pats her head again while Y/N was surprised.

No one was so kind to her as her brother right now who seemed to be stoic and couldn't express himself good.
She hugs the book and smiles brightly at him.
"Thank you so much, brother."
She thanks him with happy tears in her eyes yet a voice brought both siblings out their moment.

"Y/N! Jun! Come! Dinner is ready.
Also don't forget to wash your hands."
The voice of their mother could be heard from upstairs as both children start to chuckle.

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Three days has passed while Ayanokoji and Horikita went on a reconnaissance to see what the situation was at the other camps.
Class B's camp was set up near a waterfall and operates much like class D's camp but at a better location.
Class A's camp was in a cave that is heavily guarded as Horikita attempts to take a peak. But she is turned away when Kōhei summons his security force and warns her that her actions might start a war. Class C's camp was on a beach where under Ryūen's leadership, all of the points are spent and the classmates treat this test like a vacation. Ryūen did this knowing that they will not be penalized if they had spent all of their test points beforehand. As such, Ryuen punished Mio for being disobedient and critical of his leadership. On the night of the third day, somebody broke into the girls' tent at the class D camp and searches Mio's bag for her phone.

Right now, was the fourth day and some certain girl was still sleeping like a stone.
Ayanokoji was blinking bored in the camp as Sakura walking towards him.
"Shall we head to Camp C, Ayanokōji?"
She asks him shyly and was happy to spend more time with him alone.

Yet the amber eyes boy stood up and looked towards the tent where Y/N was sleeping.

'Is she still sleeping?'

"I will check on Y/N and then we can go."
He told her briefly and starts to walk towards the tent.

The brunette was opening gently the tent and saw the girl was still asleep.
He crawls in the tent and knees next to her while he says her name a bit loudly, so she could hear it;
"Y/N, Y/N, wake up."

Silence.

H/C was still asleep and didn't hear him yet.
His eyes focus on her face as he starts to pinch her cheeks trying to wake her up through pain.

After few seconds it worked and the girl starts to wake up.
Kiyotaka pulled away and watched her like a Hawk his prey.

"Ouch! That hurt.."
She mumbles and rubs her eyes like a baby who just woke up.

Few blinks here and there as she could regonize who also was in the tent.

"Huh, Kiyo? What is?
I just was sleeping."
She mumbles still sleepy and looks at him with her hair being a mess while watches her with his poison eyes.

'Sleepyhead..'

"Not to ruin your sleep, Sleeping beauty but I need your help as well you will join me today at our task."
He told her and saw how she still needs to process everything.

Y/N yawns and stretch her body while she stares at him:
"How about...No?"
She says and turns on her other side to continue sleeping.

Ayanokouji watches her and blinked a few times with his monotone expression.
His cold hands find there way under her shirt and tickle her at her sides.
Y/N starts to giggle and laugh while she tries to push his hands away.

Few minutes later Kiyotaka grabbed both her wrists and holds them on each side of her head as he stares down at her.
"Will you join me today and help me?"
He asks her and watches her reactions.

The girl stares back up at him as her cheeks were pink while she breathes heavily yet her heart was beating faster from this position.
She could remember the same situation back then were he asks her why she was ignoring him.

One thing was clear somehow this boy enjoys to bring her in such weird position as well grab her hands.
"I will but you need to carry me on your back when I get tired."
She adds and looks in his eyes while he pulls her gently in a sitting position as their face's where centimeters away - their noses were almost touching as they hold still hands together.

The moment would be romantic when it would have been two normal teenagers..but they weren't and would never be, they are just to different from everyone.

"Its a deal."
He whispers and pulls completely away.
As he stood up and looks down at her:
"I will wait outside for you."
With this he walked out and closed the tent, so no one can watch her changes into her daily clothes from her pyjamas.

Sakura appeared in front of the young boy and made him realized that he completely forget about her.
"Y/N will join us and we can start the day then."

After ten minutes the girl was ready and joined Sakura as well Kiyotaka.
She was walking next to them as she saw from the corner of her eyes that pink haired girl seemed sad about the fact, she couldn't spend more time alone with him.

'I feel kinda bad..does he know she has a thing for him?'

Thinking as she continues to walk and looking up at the sky while she thought about the fact that she doesn't trust Ibuki at all.
As her ears catches a familar voice she stops and turns towards where the voices comes.

"Isn't that Ichinose?"
She says when Ayanokouji took the lead and both girls followed him towards the Camp C.

After few minutes they arrived in the camp and were greeted by Ichinose.
"Where is Class C? And what are you doing here Honami?
She asks her as she saw no one was here expected Honami and someone else from Class B.

"Y/N, I haven't seen you since the beginning of this quest. I hope you are doing fine."
She smiles friendly at her and turns towards Ayanokouji, Sakura and Y/n.

They met Ichinose only to find out that everybody except Ibuki had withdrawn from the test.

After talking with Ichinose and walking back towards their Camp, Y/N had a weird feeling about everything because of this she walks slower then Sakura and Ayanokouji.
It didn't take long until brown haired boy realised her change in her tempo.
He joined her and both were quiet for a few minutes until the girl spoke.

"Don't you think all this Camp C and Ibuki stuff is very weird?
It's not a 'accident' that Ibuki is in Camp D and that whole Class C withdraw?
Class C doesn't seem like guys who would withdraw on their own free will when there isn't a reason. After all they are winner types, example is their leader who thinks sparkling water is alcohol. I mean why he drinks it in such a cool way?"
She told him with a sceptical voice as well her eyes showed the distrust against them.

Ayanokouji watches her out of the corner and grabs her hand to pull her behind a tree to talk with her a bit privately since Sakura was almost by Camp D.
"Coincidence doesn't exist and your assumptions are correct in one way."
He told her and leans a bit back while he stares at her.

Y/N raised an eyebrow at him and stares back at him.
"You are having idea or more a plan how to win, am I right?"
She says softly and crosses her arms while he was a bit surprised how she could guessed what he was thinking yet he wasn't so much surprised after all he wants her to help him.

"You got me there. So here is the plan..."

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On the fifth day, Karuizawa found out, that her underwear was stolen.
The whole class more the girls conducts a bag search, and Yamauchi finds it in Ike's bag.
Ayanokoji takes it and a pat-down search was conducted with Hirata searching him.
Hirata reports that he does not have it and he decides to take the underwear knowing that his reputation would be damaged the least for being the culprit because Karuizawa is his girlfriend.

While everyone was so in crazy mood and searched only some underwear,
Y/N had her eyes on Ibuki yet her focus more on the fact how incompetent everyone was.

Not long after Class D decide to split the camp in two sides, one girls and one boys while Y/N sighed about the fact that this was nonsense.
Starting to get to her tent and putting it a bit to the girls side on her own as she saw Sakura was struggling on her own.
Her eyes catch the struggling girl and decide to help her.

After all she was finished with hers since few minutes.
"Sakura, let me help you."
She told her softly and walks to her while the pink haired girl was a bit surprised that someone from the girls would help her.
"You don't need to but thank you."
She whispers and continues to put her tent on the girls side.

Few minutes spend in silence until Sakura broke it, curious about something and with a emotion she doesn't liked at all.
"Ayanokouji - Kun and you seem very close, are you two?.."
She asks her nervously and shyly while Y/N continues her work beside her.

"Nope, Kiyo and I are just friends, nothing more and nothing less. I saw that you are also close to him, I thought you two would be a couple."
Y/N technique to lure someone to talk about themselves was easy, turning the question towards them while you make a complimenting guess about a obviously things; in this moment her romantic feelings towards the brunette.

Sakura got immediately pink around her cheeks as she plays with her fingers.
"No-No, we aren't. I don't think he sees me worthy of being his girlfriend."
Accidently she blurs her insecurities out about the bond between herself and Ayanokouji.

If she could, Y/N would have hugged her and comfort her about the fact that the certain boy would have rejected her sooner or later.
After all he seemed as someone who keeps you close until you fulfill your job.
Then he throws you away like a toy that is broken or boring after awhile.

"You can't never know the truth when you haven't asked him.
What if you have a chance?
No one knows until you take the risk and take a step forward.
But I'm rooting for you, Sakura."
Trying to lift her spirits with a obvious lie in her eyes wouldn't hurt her.

Y/N never liked to ruin someone's hopes but people need to learn on their own being naive is a flaw yet she could never hurt someone who doesn't deserve it
She wasn't so cruel like Kushida or the leader of Class C, Ryuen.

"Thank you, L/N."
Sakura thanked her as she thought no one had spoke like this towards her - Only Ayanokouji beside her.

As she finished helping around the girls her eyes catch Kiyotaka speaking with Ibuki who was blushing.

This scene made the heart of the H/C haired girl ache in some weird way.
It wasn't a pleasing feeling and she could guess what it was.

Jealousy.

This particular emotion she didn't want at all yet she asks herself;

'Why he does have such a affect towards girls? Everyone develops immediately a crush on him.'

She sighed as she turns around to think of something else she could do beside staring at Ayanokouji.

Y/N made her way towards the forest as she tries to calm her hurting heart who seemed not to calm down after walking away from the camp D to take a break.

"This whole project exhausted me to no end."
She mumbles and found a perfect place to look up at the sky that turned slowly towards the night.

Her eyes catch the north star not far away as she counts the others stars until her heart calmed down.

Closing her eyes for a moment to remember the conversation with Sae Chabashira who told her where to find the truth about herself as well the password.

Slowly opening her eyes to see the sky full with clouds.

'It will rain...not a good sign.'

"I will use it. May it be a trap or not, I'm not fret to find the truth out..I think I'm ready and prepared."
Stating it in confidence and determination as she gets tired with the minute. Through this days, she couldn't sleep properly at all. More hours awake then asleep.

"I should...go..bac.k.."
She mumbles and starts to fall asleep in the middle of a field while it got cold through the night.

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"Y/N!"

"Y/N!"

"Y/N! WAKE UP."

A voice was trying to wake her up and as her eyes open wide from the voice.
Her eyes catch a worried Suzune and not a far was a fire.

'How long have I slept?!??'

"Finally you are awake, I need your help. Ibuki had stolen my card and we need it back."
Suzune seemed helpless a bit and also seemed sicker then usual.

But the fire in the background concerned her yet she focus to be fully awake and help her.
"Of course, I will go with you and search for Ibuki."
She answered and stood up while she fixes her hair.

Putting it in a ponytail and fixing her clothes, Y/N and Suzune start to search for Ibuki.

'I must have slept almost a day and why has no one searched for me? Atleast Kiyotaka could have woken me up..ugh this boy.'

Her thoughts got interrupt as she hears movements not a far.
It's effective when bushes make sounds when you pass through them.
Y/N holds a hand up and let Suzune know that they weren't alone.

"Took you long enough."
Mio stepped in front of Suzune and Y/N as they kept their guard.

'I can't let Suzune alone..she is after all sick..i need to protect her..'

For just a short moment, she remembered a scene that she had seen in her dream.

She couldn't understand what he was talking about yet a warm feeling was spreading through her right hand.
Looking down seeing a boy her age falling on the floor and grabbing her hand.

He was sick. But why? Why was he sick?
Why does no one help him?

Y/N knees beside him and tries to help him.
"Help, he needs help."
Her eyes were filled with tears and her heart was aching from the pain.

But no one came to help him.

"Do what you want."
As Ibuki said this and start to become violent, Y/N decide to step in.

Suzune got fast out the way as Mio smirks at her devilishly and enjoying it.
"Ehh? Not bad."

Y/N watches the interaction between them before she starts to step in while she blocked the kick of Mio and pushed her back.

"Interesting, another one who can move surprisingly fast but this will not help you two at all."
Mio said and starts to move her legs while Y/N blocked every hit with her body.

Suzune watched in shock how someone else put their life in danger to protect her.

"Violence is an automatic disqualification."
Suzune says and tries to help Y/N but only was a burden to her since she was sick.

"And who's here to see it? Besides, I think you two came here for a fight!"
As the blue haired girl said this and starts to focus back on Suzune who kicked her again.

'I could handle it on my own since she just uses Capoeira but she gets in my way.'

"Suzune, step back. I will do it."
She tells her before she saw how Ibuki kicked her to hard this time as she saw it, she knew can't fight longer.

Grabbing the arm of Mio shortly to hit her on a certain nerve at her side but before she could hit it, Ibuki moved and made Y/N block again her attack.

"You two are very annoying even I must say, it's fun to fight with you."
She says as she starts to attack Y/N again.

It was a back and forth as both girls fought against each other while Suzune tried to keep her balance.

"Tell me how is it to be a slave to a boy who thinks he is almighty?
I bet its your kink, isn't it?
Your guilty pleasure to be treated like shit by him, sounds kind of a woman who doesn't have willpower at all to me."
Y/N provokes her and tries to anger her, so she makes a mistake through that.

Seeing she hit a nerve and how hard she was now attacking her with the kicks, before she could block it again Suzune catch Y/N attention who tried again to help her.

Before she could act Ibuki surprised Suzune and Y/N with a kick and made them both fall on the muddy ground while it was raining.

"Sorry. I've got a busy schedule ahead of me. Our conversation is over."

Y/N watches Ibuki running away as she sit up while she puts a hand on her head to see blood on her hand.
"Damn she had hit me hard.."
Mumbling as she looks to the side to see Suzune wasn't awake.

She crawls to her and sees she has passed out as Y/N put her hand on her head, feeling the fever got worse.

Hearing footsteps behind her and turning around to see who it was, made her head a bit dizzy.

"Y/N, Who did this to you?"
Kiyotaka asks her when he saw the blood on her forehead.

"Ibuki, she kicked me to hard and Suzune is passed out. We shall bring her to a cave."
She told him and stood up as he approached her.

Kiyotaka pulled her gently towards him as she leans against his chest for few minutes to balance herself and calm down.
This was the first time since long Ayanokouji got worried for someone.
He remembered this feeling as a kid when he had it every time his father took Y/N away from him.

Ayanokouji pulled her in a hug and grabbed gently her wrist to feel her pulse.
Feeling her pulse calmed his heart that start to hurt a bit at the view of Y/N being hurt.
This way he reminds himself she was alive and safe in his arms.

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Author Note:

Hey Guys! Here is Author- Chan,
I just watched the new episode of season 2 and it was good, I just feel sorry for Horikita (one of my favs)

Nonethless Thank you very much for reading this story. I really appreciate it.

Would you like that I make a playlist for this story? If yes, comment down below🤗

Which scene was your favourite between Y/N and Ayanokouji?

What do you think will happen next?
(I love to know what you all think👀)

I hope you like the new chapter!
I'm excited for your comments.

Nevertheless thank you for being patient!

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