Wandering Thoughts of a Lonely Girl.

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Dear life,

Why do you have to be so complicated? Can't we all just live in peace and possitivities? But deep down, I know it's not possible. What's the light without some darkness, right? And that's where I start my never-ending rebellion against your twisted ways.

One day, I know you'll work through the ones I love the most. But then again, everyone can be your enemy. Even yourself. There's no exception, and whether you still want to get stuck up in that cliche fairytale having a perfectly perfect life, then you won't be going anywhere, my friend. Life won't let you, along with his nasty companions---fate and time.

Everything will change, whether you're ready for it or not. Life doesn't give a damn if you're too weak to face the inevitable. People keep forcing themselves to look at the brighter side of things, not knowing it's just making everything all worse. We shouldn't be oblivious. There shouldn't even be a "we".

We need to be balanced.

That's what we need to be. Being optimistic is a pain in the neck unless half of the human population are saints.

We---I can't afford to grieve lost. Not again. Yet here I am, walking on shallow waters.. waiting for nothing.

And life, that's what I recently learned about you.

Don't be too kind, because people will always throw the bad stones at the right time. Don't get too attached to emotions, because if you do, you're whole existence will depend on shitty things on other people. It'll only kill you inside once they leave. And mind you, from my past experiences, I've witnessed a fair share of people waltzing in and out of my life.

If the society accepts you, be scared.

If people love you without the strings, be terrified.

If walls around you crumble down, be happy.

Because you don't need to be so sensitive to what other people think or say about you. You'll be injecting your own poison. You don't need to feel sorry for what you say or how you act if it makes you all too comforatble. If they can't get the heck with and just freakin' get over your little issues in life, while endlessly pointing out where you went wrong, then good riddance!

You don't need that shit.

You have your own decisions.

You have your own beliefs.

You have your on soul to worry about.

And if this road I choose takes me nowhere, I don't know what will.

I've long stopped being invested with people who choose to stay by my side. I know, it's like cheating but what can I say? This sin is the best I have. If I don't do this.. If I can't save my own heart from being shattered once again, then there's no point in trying.

Choose yourself over others.

Choose to be brave enough to draw that imaginary boundary.

I'm not a coward, people just can't get a grip on my strong personality.

And life?

Bring it on.

Yours ever-so respectfully,

The girl you broke and fixed