Brendon,

Look I get that I left but why can't you be at least a little grown up about it? You either pretend I don't exist or you insult me and I don't really deserve that. You know damn well why I left and all you ever do is hate me for it. You're worse than some of our fans.

You know something I really can't stand that you do? You say you are Panic! Brendon you're not Panic! Panic! was a band that four friends created together as a way to do something that they loved. All your during is using our name to boost your own fame. I feel genuinely sorry for your new band mates because that's not even how you treat them. You treat them like they don't matter and that's not how a band works, Brendon.

I hate that I used to love you. You're nothing but an asshole. Everyone was right about you.

But no one is smart enough to see that side of you, right? They just see this perfect guy that can do no wrong. But that's not who you are. You're just about the opposite.

I really thought you were different.

Ryan

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Ryan,

Why did you have to leave? Do you even realise how much that hurt me?

I'm sorry I'm a total dick to you. It's just my way of coping. I guess being blue is better than being over it, right?

Did you know I write songs about you? Such a Pete Wentz thing to do, I know.

I miss you, Ryan. Every second without you is painful and my coping is barely working. Why did you have to leave?

I will come back to life, but only for you.

Brendon