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YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! YOU ARE WORTH EVERYTHING THE WORLD HAS TO OFFER! YOU MATTER! YOU MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE! SO LIFT YOUR HEAD DARLING, YOU ARE A QUEEN!
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Yasmin stood at the door,watching as Huzaifa got out of the car and she stepped into his open arms,her hands going around his neck as she buried her face in the rook of his neck.Huzaifa wrapped his arms tightly around Yasmin’s waist,he pressed a kiss to the exposed skin of her shoulders.

“As salaam mu alaykum,love.”

Yasmin lifted her head,resting her chin on his shoulder,“Wa alaykum mu salaam,Zaify.”

They stood,locked in one another’s embrace not willing to move from where they stood until Huzaifa moved his head back to look at her face,“Let’s go in.”

Yasmin nodded her head,a unhappy sigh leaving her as she moved her arms off Huzaifa only to smile when he locked their fingers together.They walked in,Huzaifa put his work bag on the table before they walked to their room.Yasmin let go off his hand as she made her way to the bed,she put her knees on the bed,crawling to the middle before turning to face Huzaifa,her legs crossed beneath her.

Huzaifa smiled at her as he loosened his tie,placing it on their dressing table before he removed his shoes and suit jacket,“I’m going to make wudhu.”

Yasmin nodded her head,“I already read my asr salaah,so you can take your time.”

“I won’t be too long.I promise.” Saying that he disappeared into the closet,with Yasmin’s gaze never leaving his back.

Yasmin looked around their room,a shiver going through her body at the memories of what had occurred here just two days before.Yasmin hated the feeling of regret and foolishness that flooded her body but she also could not help but think of the lesson it had left behind.She may have turned to Allah yet at her weakest moment shaytaan had overpowered her will to do one of the biggest sins in the eyes of Allah.She could not thank Allah enough for the wonderful,understanding husband she had got and she could not beg enough for Allah’s forgiveness for her actions.

It had been her first day home alone but she had not felt like the world had ended,she felt a need to fight,to survive for herself,for Huzaifa and for her family.She had spoken to her mother on the phone then she had spoken to Maryam who had spoken words of comfort to her and she had shed a couple of tears at the soothing motherly voice.Throughout the day,whenever she had felt the need to find something wrong in the lose of her nana and nani she had picked up her Quraan to read Surah Yaseen and pass on the sawab to the marhooms.

Now she knew once Huzaifa would read his asr salaah,he would sit down to talk to her.She was aware of the exchanges between him and his cousin’s spouse regarding how he should help Yasmin overcome her fears and the loss of her grandparents.

Yasmin laid down,her hands behind her head as Huzaifa walked out of their closet now dressed in a t-shirt and track pants.He looked at her form on the bed before reaching for his topi and musallah.He performed his salaah ending off by making dua and then he folded his musallah,making his way to the bed.He watched Yasmin sit up,he sat down in front of her and she looked at him,biting her lip.

“Did you eat lunch and the snacks that I left for you to munch in between breakfast,lunch and now?” He asked looking at her with a serious tone,eyes sharp as they scrutinized her face for any sight of lie.

Yasmin nodded her head,“I did,in fact I had two servings of the lovely mag dal and roti mummy sent over.I also ate my snacks proof of which is the empty bowls.”

“Good.” Huzaifa said with a proud smile before his smile dimmed and his face got a tiny bit serious,“How are you feeling?” His voice,low almost as if he did not want his words to hurt her.

Yasmin shrugged,“I’m feeling much better than I did two days ago.I think I’m coming to terms of their passing away but I still feel a burden?”

“A burden?What type of burden?”

Yasmin looked down,“The burden of not being there with nana and nani when they passed away.The burden that I wasn’t there in the most difficult times of their life.I keep on wondering if I was there what would their last words have been to me and what I would have said back.Though I’ve stopped doing one thing.”

Huzaifa tilted his head as she looked up at him,“Which is?”

“I’ve stopped asking why they were taken away from me and I’ve replaced it with,we are Allah’s creation,we belong to Him and unto Him is our ultimate return.One day we all have to go and it was nana and nani’s time.I couldn’t have stopped it but I can make dua for them.”

Huzaifa held her hands,putting them on his lap as he smiled at her,“Wherever we are at whatever time it is all set by Allah and what Allah plans for us is always the best.Maybe there was some good from you not being there when nana and nani passed away.You never see it now but who knows in the future sometime you will see what good Allah had instore from you not being there.The best thing you can do right now for nana and nani is send them lots of dua and read Surah Yaseen for all the marhooms,you’ll see this burden you are carrying will fall away.”

Yasmin pondered over what Huzaifa said and she nodded her head,as she looked at her husband,“How could I forget that we plan but Allah is the Planner of Planners,and what He plans is always for the best.”

Huzaifa nodded his head slowly,gathering courage to ask the next question,“Yasmin,have you got any urges or needs to cut yourself since I found you in the bathroom?”

Yasmin thought over his question,working through her memories and then she shook her head,“I haven’t.I have kept myself so busy in cleaning the house,cooking,reading salaah and reading Quraan,that I haven’t even thought about it.Yet at times I think about what I almost did and I want to slap myself for losing control and almost harming my body that is an amanat from Allah.I keep on reminding myself what happened should not happen again because it was not me just almost cutting myself,it was me going against the command of Allah of harming my body,myself.” Huzaifa sucked in a breath,shocked when Yasmin cradled his cheek in the palm of her hands and he gazed at her kind smile,soft eyes,“I thank Allah for sending you just in time,for stopping me and for not letting me go when I really needed you to hug me.Jazakallah Huzaifa,if it weren’t for you I would have really harmed myself.I am so lucky to have you in my life and I constantly thank Allah for sending you to me.You are really my light at the end of the dark tunnel.”

Huzaifa leaned forward,pressing a kiss to her forehead,“Ameen.I’m always going to be there to hold you when you need no words,I’m always going to be the lending ear that you need but more then that I make dua that Allah always makes me your saviour from doing wrong and vice versa.”

“Ameen.Magrib azaan is going to go…” The azaan went on through the Bilal intercom and she smiled at Huzaifa who ‘boop’ her nose,“Let’s offer our salaah.”

Huzaifa nodded,they go off the bed and made their ways to their musallah’s.They laid out their musallah’s,his in front of her’s,he wore his topi while she donned her burka  and they both awaited the azaan to finish off.Once the azaan ended,they took their places on the musallah,lifting their hands to start their prayer after making their intention.

As they both went into ruku,two different dua’s started to go towards the sky.The one made by Huzaifa asked for Yasmin’s happiness and the one made by Yasmin asked Allah to grant Huzaifa whatever he wished for and more.

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TWO YEARS LATER

Yasmin crinkled her nose at the disgusting smell of fish that sat on the counter and she gagged before leaving the kitchen to make her way to the guest bathroom which was nearer to the kitchen.She reached the toilet in time to puke out her breakfast and what she had eaten in between.She stood up,flushing the toilet as she pondered as to what had made her feel so horrible.

I haven’t even eaten out in a long time nor did I eat anything from anyone.I hope I haven’t caught a bug or virus that would suck completely.I better go see the doctor.

She thought to herself as she made her way to the kitchen,covering her nose with her hand as she picked up the fish which sat in a packet and placed it in the freezer.She removed her hand from her face,sighing at relief at the fish in the fridge even though her stomach cried at the remaining smell of fish.She quickly reached for her phone dialling Huzaifa’s number.

“As salaam mu alaykum,jaan.”

“Wa alaylum mu salaam,Huzaifa.I’m going to the doctor.”

Huzaifa kept quiet before asking her in a worried tone,“Why?What’s wrong?”

She walked out of the kitchen,sitting on the couch,“I’ve puked for the second time this week and I need to go find out whats wrong.”

Huzaifa shook his head,“I told you I should have taken you but noooo madam wants to do what she wants to do and doesn’t want to listen to anyone especially her husband.I’ll come home,then I’ll take you.”

Yasmin rolled her eyes,groaning,“Don’t be stupid,Huzaifa.You have that important meeting tonight and by the time you come the doctor will be closed.” She yawned before continuing,“So I’ll just go alone.”

“Are you sure you sound tired?”

“I’m just fine.Please let me go without worrying.” She pleaded and Huzaifa let out a sigh,even thou he was filled with worry.

“Aghh,I hate when you are right.Are you sure you’ll be able to go alone or should I phone Fatima bhabi or Husna to go with you?”

Yasmin chuckled,“I’m going to the doctor not to visit someone.I’ll be fine going alone.I promise.”

“Okay fine but phone me when you reach and phone me once you home.”

“I will do so.I love you.”

“I love you too baby girl.”

They greeted one another,cutting the call.Yasmin made her way to her room,throwing on a scarf as she reached for her bag,keys and she put her phone in the bag.She left the house,reaching the doctor’s office in twenty minutes.She messaged Huzaifa to tell him she was there while she waited her turn to see the doctor.Four patients and forty minutes later she was called to go in.

“As salaam mu alykum Yasmin.”

“Wa alaykum mu salaam,Dr.Zaahida.How are you?” Yasmmin asked as she sat down in front of her doctor who gave her one of those friendly doctor smiles.

“I’m well but since you are in my office,I won’t ask you how are you.So what’s wrong?”

“I’ve puked twice this week and I’m certain I haven’t had anything bad because I’ve been cooking.I’m feeling exhausted and I’ve had really bad back pains but I think that’s due to my period coming soon.I’ve had these really bad headaches.”

Zaahida jotted down what Yasmin said before gesturing to the bed,“When was the last time you had your period?”

Yasmin bit her lip as she tried to remember when was the last time she had her period before pulling out her phone to check the Flo app.She froze when she saw she had missed her period this month by two weeks and she looked at Zaahida,“I missed my period this month.I had my last period last month at the beginning.”

Zaahida nodded her head as she jotted down what Yasmin said before giving her gentle smile,“Let’s check your blood pressure and your heart beat.””

Yasmin got off the chair and laid on the bed.Zaahida conducted the teats before telling her to sit down.Zaahida jotted down her results before looking at Yasmin with a comforting smile which Yasmin took positively.

“Is everything fine,doctor?”

Zaahida nodded her head,“Yes,everything is fine.Yasmin,I think you may be pregnant.”

Yasmin froze,her body ran cold and she stared at Zaahida as if she had said something out of the world,then her heart begun to beat a bit faster and she put her hand on her tummy as she gazed at Zaahida,“Are you sure,doctor?Like I mean can you maybe mistaken?”

Zaahida put her hands on the table,still giving Yasmin a comforting smile,“I’m 90 percent sure but to make that 90 into a 100 we are going to have to conduct a blood test,if you want to?”

Yasmin thought about it for a couple of seconds before nodding her head,“Let’s do it.By when will we get the results?”

“In two days time.”

Zaahida took the blood tests and with a promise to see one another after two days Yasmin left the surgery.She sat in the car,locking her doors before letting an almost crazy smile take over her face as she gazed down at her tummy.She knew that she should not be getting too excited but she could not help it.Her duas to have a baby would perhaps be true and if they were not she and Huzaifa would keep trying.She kept her faith in Allah as she drove away from the surgery to their house.

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As salaam mu alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa brakatu everyone

Yes there's only one chapter left to the end

I hate pulling a story when I feel like everything has been written about

I hope you all enjoyed this chapter

I asked a question on my wall and I'll ask it here:

A big wedding and a short honeymoon

OR

A small wedding a long honeymoon (or/and a house)

What would you choose?

I'd go with the second option because I don't want to invite people I don't know and people come to a wedding, eat gossip and forget about it but a long honeymoon stays with you forever

Or I can buy a nice house rather then spend money for a couple of hours

What would you choose and why?

Take care

Fi Amanilah