When you smiled, she smiled with you.

When you cried, she cried with you.

She was always there.

Well... not anymore.

She had a crush on a boy. She tagged him around, shouting out that she hated him but when alone with you, all she would talk about was how cute he was.

You tried to smile and listen, but it felt like you were choking, and then you finally burst, shouting at her that you didn't want to hear it then running off.

The next day, she was in the hospital.
All because you hasn't walked with her that day out of frustration, she had been alone and vulnerable.

You stand by her hospital bed, wincing at the deep knife wounds and choking back a sob, running your hands through your long hair, lower lip trembling.

She wakes up.

She sees you and she smiles, and you are so confused because why would she smile, you nearly got her killed.

She looked delirious, her eyes are unfocused.

"Osana, are you ok?" You ask sadly, and she smiles at you deeper, even though her eyes keep twitching.

"Taro?"

The moment the word is out of her mouth she falls back asleep. You stay frozen, her hand in your tight grip, your face fixed in a shocked expression before it twists into hate, jealousy and self loathing.

'of course' you think bitterly as you walk out, waving to the woman at the front desk. 'ill never be enough'

A month later, she and taro start dating.

A month later, you kill yourself.