I've actually been wanting to do this for a straight while now.

This is actually based on something that happened to me[except for the killing]..

Guess..

Was I the suicidal person. .

Or the savior?

Warning!: May Cause Trigger Warning, Suicidal Actions!

Author Status - Great

Request Status - Weak

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Here we are,
The place where stirred up feelings fall apart,
Where not so simple meets you in the dark,
But why stop now you've got so much to loose.

It's Up to You.

[M/Name] was unusually quiet today. There was no laughter, no giggling, no kindness but they're were little, fake smiles that would always send a paranoid shiver down the Uzumaki's spine. It was a free day, meaning the upcoming elite shinobi's could finally have a day all to themselves or with each other. Sakura spent her time in the Spa and Sauna, wanting to loosen up her tighten joints and muscles. Shikamaru stayed in and slept. While Lee, Choji, Neji and TenTen all got together along with Naruto and [M/Name].

In the middle of their walk to the Barbeque Hut, the [L/Name] stopped walking, gazing at the faces of his friends but his [Eye Color] eyes couldn't help but lock on Naruto. His face was filled with concern, his shoulders heightened and rigid. "I-I'm fine, Naruto. You don't need to be so worried about me.", he murmured aloud with another fake smile causing the blonde to bite his tongue.

"Yeah. Sure.", he replied, hesitantly.

The quiet male continued strolling along, his head tilted downwards towards the ground, his hands tightly wounded up together. People found it funny that [M/Name] was a Shinobi in general because people thought he didn't have the strength to become one, which is one reason why he doesn't wear his headband as much as used to. He thought that he was an embarrassment to Konoha, a failure, a waste of space that shouldn't have been trained to be the sorrowful ninja he was now.

His friends were the only thing to keep him happy but recently they pushed his unusual behavior to the side, continuing on their day. [M/Name] didn't want to bother anyone, he didn't want to worry anyone, so he faked it. He faked his smiles, his laughter, everything but deep down he really savored every moment he had with his buddies.

He thought of throwing it all away, wondering where he might have ended up. What if he left the village? How would things turn out for him?

Sasuke left a long time ago, and maybe he should have too.

And if we don't make it out,
Crash to Pieces,
Full of doubt,
Know that I still believe in you.

Someday you'll make it big,
Show the world just what they've missed,
Don't give up,
You gotta see it through.

Naruto swung his arm around the other's neck, laughing sheepishly, pulling himself closer to the [Hair Color]ed boy who had a confused expression on his face. Neji simply ignored the ignorance of everyone else while TenTen encouraged him to get involved.

"You guys look like a married couple.", Neji commented bluntly with a slow blink.

Both of the boy's blushed darkly, exchanging looks at each other before glancing at Neji again, who pointed his chopsticks over at [M/Name].

"And [M/Name]'s the wife."

Choji and Kiba burst out in laughter, nearly choking on their food. Neji then continued eating his food, with calm, closed eyes, leaving a flustered Uzumaki and [L/Name]. TenTen couldn't help but hold in her laughter by covering her mouth. "He's kinda right.", she whispered under her breath.

"Even if we are a married couple, [M/Name] might be superior to me in some way. If he does, I'm gonna be so proud of him because he's came so far!", the whiskered male cheered, ruffling his hair. "He deserves so much because he's worked so hard!"

A darker blush shaded onto the other's cheeks, causing him to look down at his lap. Inside his head, there was a voice denying every word that Naruto had said, causing his blush to disappear as quickly as it came. His eyes narrowed in discouragement.

"Thank you. .Naruto."

Hold back and face,
The mask,
Because no one seems to care or ask,
But it's hard sometimes to be,
That happy face that they like to see.

It's just not me.

And it's hard sometimes to show,
The person I want them all to know,
If they could know. . . .

For some reason, [M/Name] had permanently stopped smiling, even his fake smiles had ceased. All he had was an emotionless expression, but his eyes had softened into sadness. Choji perked his head up.

"Hey, [M/Name], you gonna eat that?", he asked, pointing to his barely touched food. The only thing he did in response was push his plate over to Choji, keeping his eyes low and shoulders sagged. Naruto watched his friends but in the pit of his soul, he was furious. So furious that his friends couldn't see the emotional and mental pain he was going through. Had it not been noticeable?

The Uzumaki actually felt like snapping each and every one of their necks for being so blind, so idiotic.

And that was exactly what he was going to do.

And it's all the same,
For so long you've got to make a change,
Break away.

If you try and fail,
Don't give up,
Just push through the pain,
Find a way.

Their quality time together was over and everyone had returned back to their respective homes. As of now, [M/Name] sat up with a fluffy, warm blanket wrapped around his fragile figure, staring at the kunai in front of him.

Cut.

Do it.

No.

Don't.

You have to many people who care.

No.

Reach out then.

Be happy.

I'm trying.

Actually...

Fuck it.

He began making slits on his arms, cuts being many different sizes. He winced at first, feeling the sharp metal grind against his skin to the point it tore open. [M/Name] gasped, slicing open a sensitive part in his skin instantly dropping the kunai. The soft, cold breeze brushed against the opened skin, making a slight sting feeling emit through it.

He glanced at the side of the room, seeing some leftover rope that came from a mission somewhere last week. His eyes narrowed downwards looking at his cuts before getting up and walking over to it, tying it around his neck gently while hanging it on the other side of the room. All he had to do was cut it, and he'd be lifted up into the air, hanging lifeless.

And you'll never reach the sky,
If you don't spread your wings and try,
Don't stop looking to the stars.

And they all try to bring us down,
We won't let 'em, stand your ground,
We won't let 'em, let 'em,
No,
No.

A small puff of smoke came into his room, a blonde headed teen appearing in the room. Once the smoke had cleared, his eyes widen, staring at the contraption his beloved had created before cutting it up and glomping the other into a tight embrace.

"Why would you go and do something like that?! Your just gonna leave me behind?! Are you?!? I care about you too much to risk you doing something like...this!", Naruto shouted, tears pouring out of his eyes. "I could have lost you and there would be no way to get you back!! I don't wanna loose anyone else. . .I can't risk that! I don't wanna see you hanging here dead."

[M/Name]'s eyes turned glossy, shot up, feeling tears slowly drool onto his shoulder.

"Please..please..dont go! Please!"

"Naruto. ."

"Without you, I feel like I'm already dead.", he mumbled, giving him a sincere smile. "I love you."

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Talk to me if you have suicidal thoughts, I promise I'll always be there to help you.

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