In our life, we all have questions we want answers to the things we truly desire the most in our lives, for most it's wanted a true purpose we go after or the things we want to know about ourselves, why are we here? why do we live? why do we even exist in this life?

For me, it is being alone forever, being hated forever, my purpose and existence is nothing more but to be born in this world as something that is to be hated by all and never to be loved by anyone, and with no one to remember me when I'm gone.

when I Truly realize that I know that I can't feel anything anymore, Naruto Uzumaki the forgotten that what I am and that all I ever be in this world to be alone, it was over five years ago when I came to accept my fate in this life of mine.

back when I use to live in Konoha village for the first 13 years of my life was all about trying to make the villagers see me not as a demon fox but a real human being but it never happens.

it was all because when I was born my family Either die or abandon me to the fourth Hokage who die sealing the great Kyuubi kitsune king inside of me.

for this everyone seen me as a demon fox when I was nothing more but a boy, when they try to kill me on my birthdays, every time I went to any shops for food, clothing, or other things, they would just kick me out, so I had to go through the dumpsters to get most what I need, the only clothing I found that was at least in good condition an ugly orange and blue jumpsuit, I also find some ninja tools that were worn down.

I had to gather for food from dumpsters and streets until someone was generous from a Ramen shop and gave me free ramen there so I can eat.

when I turn seven I was able to join the ninja academy, I was know as the dead last of my class by everyone, I also was bullied a lot by most in my class, calling me things and names like...

stay away from us loser.

you will never be a ninja.

 you should just leave.

 you never be like this.

those were the things and names that they would call me, I always get angry at them and yell and them telling them that they were wrong but on the inside, I feel like they were right about me but I would never admit to it.

the one good thing about the ninja academy when Iruka sensai started being kind to me, I saw him as father in my eyes.

When I found out the truth find out the about me being the host of the king of kitsunes I didn't know what to do but Iruka was still there for me and to save me and that keeps me going on.

when I was on team seven, Kakashi would always train Sasuke and not me as sakura always hate me just because I was not her beloved Sasuke kun, she was just like the villages.

I have my dreams of being a hero and one day of being Hokage of the village.

I went to waves and many other missions and was great at what I did but Sasuke Got all the credit for what I did on those missions.

on the day I fight Sasuke at the valley of the end, that was the day I never felt so strong but so unhappy at the same time.

I Promise to sakura that I would bring back Sasuke, when I make a promise I don't brick it.

Sasuke would not stop yelling at me telling me things like.

what do you know!? you never had a family you were alone from the beginning!!

those words hurt me hard because it was true but I keep fighting back until I had won.

 but sadly all dreams that are just dreams do have to come to an end for what we hope for, never came true for us, because everything I did everything a fight for, everything was for nothing.

When I brought back Sasuke, I saw a bunch of villagers waiting for us, Sakura and Ino were there too, I keep carried Sasuke on my back and when they all saw their loyal Uchiha beaten up, they started to yell insults at me, Sakura even went so far as to sucker punch me in the face while Ino kicked me in my gut, They both then grabbed Sasuke and went off to the Hospital, leaving the rest of the villagers to beat the hell out of me for hurting Sasuke Uchiha.

After that beating was over, I went into a coma for three days, I woke up in the hospital covered in bandages, and the first thing I see was an angry Kakashi staring down at me. He repeated what he said on the first day I and the others became Genin and he even called me trash then left me to be alone.

Iruka and the ramen family never came to see me, none of my friends came, I was soon taken to the Hokage and the council wanted to see me.

the Hokage with the council had made the decision to have me banished and that was not the end Jiraiya came and had my chakra seal away with his own hands, my stuff was to be stripped from me, I had three days to leave and if I was still here after that I would be put to death.

but I was only going to be banished for five years then I would come back and be a ninja again.

none of my friends wanted anything to be with me some even call me a demon even Iruka and the ramen family were the same.

I ran out soon when it gets dark I made camp for the night, going to sleep for the last time feeling so sad and alone.

I knew then this world had Rejected me from it.

when I woke the next day, I didn't feel sad anymore, I didn't feel anything anther more after that night.

I wander around for over a year, ever thing I now see is a dark cold shadow world, Everyone I see was nothing more but a blank silhouette in my eyes.

I soon find myself in a town where people there wanted to know where I live.

when I told them I was alone, they took me into a teenage orphanage, the people who work there didn't care what I did as long I follow the rules there.

go to school, help clean up the place, stay out of trouble, and do my school work, and that what I did, for the next four years I went to high school, Did my cleaning chores around the orphanage, and did my study on my school work.

I don't talk to anyone else unless they come to talk to me, for the first year of being in the orphanage the other teens ask if wanted to hang or go out with them, I said no as I stay in my room, after some of them find me To be a weirdo, at school its the same, I only hang our talk to other students If the teachers make me do a school projects with them but do nothing more but just what I was told to do with them, some teenages thought of me being a lonely teen, some bully me I didn't mind it, I keep to myself eating alone and doing my work alone.

might be hard to understand this but every day is the same to me because it's nothing more but just another day closer to my death where I will end on that day.

it's not bad as it may seem I know that I'm broken but I don't care about that because no matter how you try you can't fix something that is already broken You just got to accept it.

but then something chance in me when I meet that girl who I call my senpai.

I remember that day I was sitting alone away from everyone else as this girl came to me.

"Hey are you all right is something bothering you?" She asked me.

"No nothing does to me," I said to her.

"Why is that?" She asked me.

"Because nothing in life matters to me," I told her.

"I know how that feels Naruto," she said.

When she said those words to me I took a look at her eyes and when I did they were just like mine, sad, broken, misery, pain and lonely, as if she truly did understand me, I need to ask her something, "how do you know?"

"Because it's... I'm sorry Naruto kun I have to go I'll see you in class," she said.

"Okay bye," I said as she walks away from me I something inside of me that I never felt before, it was something that feels so good to feel.

Something about that girl made me feel different on that day that I never felt before.

Who is she?

Whoever she was she was my senpai.

to be counted.