I thought I would never see his face again, but here he is. On a table in the middle of the living room. With shaky legs, Soul and Noah helps me to stand up. Soul holds my arms gently as I walk near the body of my mate. I look down at his face. They had wrapped a bandage over his forehead so than you couldn't see the bullet hole. I felt like I couldn't even breath at this moment. It's so surreal. He's just laying there with his eyes closed as if he was sleeping. A part of me is waiting for him to open his bright eyes and tell me that this was all a part of his plan. But another part of me knows the reality of this situation. He's not going to open his eyes, he's not going to tell me that this was a part of his plan...and he won't be able to watch his son grow into a good man. I put my hand on his chest. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. Please make a beat, please let me feel a beat. But I feel nothing. His heart is dead. He's not going to come back.

I lean into him and kiss his forehead, eyes and cheeks. I see bits of water on his face. I didn't even realize that I was crying till I touched my cheeks. With everything I am, I knew that I was saying good bye. My lips start to quiver violently. With a shaky hand I cover my mouth to try and keep in a sob, but I couldn't. There is so much pain in my heart. I feel as if I am being tortured from the inside out. I sob out my pain. I let everyone know that I am not okay. I hold Xander's cold and pale hand as I cry, sob and scream. "Please come back to me Xander," I cry, "Please don't leave me, I need you! You asshole! How dare you leave me!" I scream. I feel Soul come behind me, "Come on Lizzy thats enough. I can't bare to see you in anymore pain."

I look at my mate for the last time. Then I close my eyes and turn away. Soul leads me back into my room. Before a shut the door Soul tells me, "We're gonna send Xander off tonight at midnight, when the moon is at it's highest. It's a tradition for when an Alpha passes, we burn his body at midnight of the full moon."

I nod my head, "Wake me up when you're ready."

He bows his head, "Luna." Then walks away. I close the door. I lean against it and slowly sink to the ground. This is when I really struggle. When I am in my room alone. All of my emotions that I try to block for the whole day rushes back to me. I relive the pain I felt the moment I saw my mate get killed. I get up and had a long hot shower. It was about 10:30 when I get into bed. I lie there and feel alone. Ever since I came home, I have always woken up with me holding Xander's pillow to my face because his scent always chased the nightmares away. I remember whenever I had bad dreams he was always there to hold me. I turn away from Xander's spot and silently cry painful tears. I always hope that I'll fee his strong arms pull me into his broad chest. But I just feel empty and cold. I end up falling asleep to tat thought.

I open my eyes and see the window open, snow and wind was flowing in. I slowly walk towards it. I look out and see scratch marks all over the window cell. I felt a shiver go up my spine, not because of the cold, but because I knew I wasn't alone.

"I'm sorry I took so long coming my love. Some of Noah's guards tried to keep me from you." My heart literally stopped. I turn around and see Matheseus. He walks towards me slowly as if he was stalking me, "I've been waiting patiently for that baby," He then drew out his dagger, "I think it's time for it to come out now."

"SOUL!" I scream.

All he does is laugh, "They're not here, I made sure my men would distract them by killing that sweet little doctor. What was her name again? Mary."

NO! "You bastard!" I growl deeply, "I am going to kill you," I snarled.

"That doesn't sound like a nice Luna."

"I'm not just a Luna anymore...I'm an Alpha." I lung towards him. He didn't actually think I was going to do it, so I took him by surprise. I tackled him to the floor. I straddled his waist andstarted to punch him with everything I had. All my anger, all my pain, I gave it back to him tenfold. "You took EVERYTHING from me!" I yelled, "You son of a bitch!" He pushed me off of him. He tried to punch me int he stomach, trying to hurt my pup, but I dodged it. However, as I dodged it I fell over. I got myself back up quickly before he could kick me. I formed my hand into a tight fist, ready to destroy him. I used all my body weight to swing my arm towards his head, but something has me stopping. I felt this warm liquid running down my body. I slowly look down. At that very moment, time stopped. His dagger was inside my stomach. He stabbed me. A whole bunch of blood was leaking out. "You shouldn't have played with fire kitten." He snarls.

I collapse unto the floor and scream my head off. "NO! MY BABY!" I shrieked. He killed my pup! I hold my stomach, trying to stop the bleeding. But I knew it was no use. My pup is already dead. I heard shouting from downstairs. Matheseus growls in frustration, "I'll be back for you my love. Don't worry." He then jumps out of the window. I see him running into the darkness of the forest in his wolf form.

I look down, I am still bleeding like crazy. I sob as I grabbed a towel to hold against my stomach, "NO! PLEASE NO! PLEASE DON"T TAKE THIS AWAY FROM ME I BEG OF YOU!!!" I yelled. I look up as if I am looking right at the moon goddess herself and cry "NNOOO PLEASE!!!!"

I wake up in a sweat. I look down and see my stomach is fully intact. There is no matheseus. I curl up in a ball and cry. It felt so real. I suddenly shivered unexpectedly. I lookout and see the window was open, just like my dream. Withshaking hands and weak legs, I bring myself to stand at the window. There was scratch my marks on the window. Just like the dream. My heart was starting beat hard...Just like the dream. Then a deep ancient growl echoes in the room. I am struck with deep fear. I turn around and am met with a giant black wolf. I collapse onto the floor. I was so scared that I couldn't even stand anymore. I look away from it, but it snarls at me as if saying that he wants me to look at him and his glory. I slowly look back at it. It was slightly blurry from the tears. The wolf starts to stalk towards me as if it was gonna attack soon. I start to sob. This is the end...I know it. I close my eyes...waiting for some kind of pain. But instead, I felt the wolf licking my tears away. I open my eyes in confusion. Now that I could see the wolf properly, I was frozen in place. His eyes were so familiar. They were soft and comforting, protecting. "Impossible." Xander? This isn't real. I'm dream. "I have to be dreaming," I whispered.

The wolf laid its giant head on my shoulder. I slowly put my hands around him. I weave my hand through his fur. I press my nose against him and inhale his scent. Xander. I start to sob. "I thought I lost you forever." Suddenly big arms circle around me. I knew that he had shifted. I hold onto him even tighter. I kissed his chest. "Never do that to me again." His hold tightens around me. "Ssshhhh..." he whispers comfortingly. He strokes me hair and rubs my back. I felt whole again. I didn't feel the pain. Then he whispers to me, "Lizzy...wake up."

I open my eyes and see Soul sitting on the bed beside me, "Lizzy wake up. We're starting the ceremony in a couple of minutes. I look at him for a while. Trying to process everything. "Oh" I whispered, "Right...yeah I'll be down in a minute."

he nods, "Okay, I'll be waiting."

He leaves. It was a dream. I really thought that he had come back. It looks like the moon goddess really does hate me. I got out of bed in a haze. I quickly looked at the window. it was closed and locked. I felt the hole in heart get bigger. I walk into the closet and chose to wear a flowing black dress with long flowy sleaves with a black vale. As I was putting it on, I cried. Everything is just building up. I put on a little bit of foundation with concealer to hide my blotchy red skin. After a quick coat of mascara and red lipstick, I went downstairs where Soul escorted me outside and into the clearing.

I see hundreds of our pack a long with other packs who were allies with Xander. Soul nods towards the center of the giant crowd, in front of a pile of wood where Xander was placed.
I walk towards there. Everyone I passed bowed their head towards me and said "Luna."

(A/N: So I found this soundtrack song and for some reason I felt like this really matches her speech and I think it really shows the weight and depth of her words as well. So just listen to it and then read her speech so than you'll get the full impact haha! Enjoy! If you have another song that would match this her speech, show me!)

https://youtu.be/Cq7vKWK3FIU

I stood in front of the crowd of hundreds of people. I take a deep breath. "The Alpha is dead." I stated, "I was taken by an evil man...and I am still being perused by him. I was locked away. But the Alpha, my mate, came. He exchanged his life for my safety. To all of you, he was the Alpha of alphas, but to me...he was Xander. He was brave, courageous, selfless, he walked in integrity, respect and humility. He was an ALPHA. He was a soldier. So I ask you now...come and honour him. Honour your Alpha."

Every person in the crowd of hundreds of people lit their own candles. All of them would throw their little fires onto the wood. Soon enough, we had a huge bomb fire and my mate was burning in the middle of it. Everyone was silent as we witnessed the send off of Xander Nightwalker...the Alpha of alphas...my beloved mate. I look up into the sky where all of the smoke and little sparks were floating. It was my mate. I knew it. I could feel his spirit. I look at the stars, hoping he could see me right now. I smile and whisper, "I love you...may we meet again."

Afterwards, while all the people were mingling, countless Alphas approached me, saying that they will stand with me. I was relieved in a way. I thought some of them may think that I might be unfit to rule as a Luna and Alpha in one.
But they didn't have such thoughts. One Alpha however, caught my eye. He looked dark and brooding, but very handsome. But no where handsome as Xander of course. There was an intense power radiating off of him. What kind of an Alpha is he? He approached me and bowed. "Luna Elizabeth."

I returned the gesture, "Alpha...?"

"I'm sorry, I cannot exactly give you my real name, or position for security reasons of course. But i can tell you that I was very good friends with your mate."

"How so?"

"We were in that prison together."

"You were one of the little boys?" I whispered. That breaks my heart a little more. Matheseus has broken so many good people.

He nods, "Yes. Xander saved my life. I remembered he tried to get as many lives free as he could before they caught us. I was one of the lucky ones along with my two other brothers"

I nod, "He doesn't...I mean didn't...he didn't like to talk about it much."

I think this man caught my self correction. His eyes soften in sadness before he masked it away. "I couldn't imagine him wanting to. I don't think anyone would."

"Yes...it must be very hard to...deal."

He shrugs his shoulders, "You get to a point where you're just numb," I see his eyes slightly glaze over as if he was reliving a memory, "You just end up becoming the shell of yourself to try and keep the pain at bay. Or if you have a mate that can help you drive the pain out perminantly. Xander was lucky to have you. You made the last bits of his life the best." It's silent for a minute. The man scratches the back of his head slightly and chuckles awkwardly. I just give him a soft smile to show it's okay.

"The reason I came to you was to let you know that if you need anything, you just ask me. It is the least I can considering that your mate saved my life."

"Thank you...but I can't exactly ask when I dont know your name."

He smiles down at me, "You can just call me Titus."

I nod, "I'm guessing that's not your real name is it?"

He laughs, "Nope."

I laugh, "Well thank you. It was nice meeting you Titus," I emphasised his fake name.

He leans down to give me a hug. I'm kind of shocked for a moment. He's very...friendly? I chuckle uncomfortably and pull away. But before we fully part, he quickly kisses my cheek. I growl at him, "That is no way to treat a Luna."

He winks at me and says, "See you around...Luna Elizabeth." He shifts into his dark brown wolf and runs into the forest.

"Be careful around that one. He can even get the most committed wives to fall to their knees and beg him to take them to bed."

I turn and see a small yet odd looking elderly woman. Her scent indicates that she's not a werewolf. "Yes, he was fine at the start, and then he got a little weird."

She shakes her head, "Stay away from. He may have been a good friend to Xander, but that doesn't mean he'll be loyal."

I nod my head in understanding, "So, you are?" I ask politely.

She gives a bright smile, the kind of smile that grandmother would give. The kind of smile that makes feel instantly comfortable and familiar.

"Just call me Mrs Witch."

"Let me guess...you're a witch then?"

"How'd you know?" She asks sarcastically.

We both start to laugh, "Yes I think I know why Xander loved you so much."

"Because I'm his mate?"

She shakes her head while having a knowing smile, "No just that, it's because you have this way about you. People feel instantly bright and positive around you. You make people happy."

"How do you know?"

"Because that's just what you did to me."

Her words warm me. They treasured words a grandmother gives to her grandchild. "Thank you so much."

She smiles at me, "No problem sweetheart."

"So what do you do exactly?"

"I have a shop filled with potions, spells, magic gadgets and what not. Some of my customers have been stealing though. I have lost an expensive potion. These kinda if thing really get on an old lady's nerves."

I giggle slightly, I can imagine her using a broom on these thieving customers. Not to fly after them. But to run after them and hit them with it.

"You should come by the shop sometime though! I have a lot of baby things that can be fun."

"Oh really like what?"

"Well, I have this magical contraption that you put on your stomach. It had a screen on it. It changes colour which indicates the baby's mood."

"That actually sounds really interesting. I might come by once the snow passes."

"I'll see you then. Well, my old bones are getting tired. I better get back."

As she turns to leave something falls out of her bag. I bend down to grab, "Oh wait Mrs Witch! You dropped your-" but she was already gone.

"Nevermind." I mumbled to myself. I look at what it was. It was a strange looking contraption. A letter was strapped on it.

Free of charge

-Mrs W

I smile down at it. it must be the mood thing.

After a couple of hours of talking, I was exhausted. My brain literally couldn't function anymore...like literally.

I dragged my feet, which feel like stone, Up the stairs. I took a quick shower and decided I couldn't be bothered wearing anything. So I decided to put on Xander's t shirt with nothing under it. I climbed into bed and sighed. Here I am alone again.

I can feel it catching up to me...the grief, the loss, the pain, the heartache, the torture and the tears. I curled myself up in a blanket while cuddling his pillow and cried myself to sleep.