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Xander's mother, Abby, approached me while I was writing in my book.

"Lizzy! Okay so, the Luna Ceremony is tonight. I was wondering if you'd like to go shopping with me to get yourself something nice?"

I smile at her, "When were you thinking?"

"In a couple of hours. I need to get some things done before we leave."

Just before I was about to answer yes, an image came into my mind. His hand cupping my core, making me feel dirty and disgusting.

I shake my head, getting the picture out of my mind.
"Oh...right, ummm I'll get back to you on that."

She nods with an understanding smile.
"Okay, just let me know before we go, yeah?"

"Will do."

I go sit under the tree. I would've been happy to go shopping with her...it's just...I had this weird dream a while ago. I was in the mall with the girls and I was suddenly grabbed. And Xander came. And now whenever the girls invited me, I always hesitated because of this unknown fear. I don't know if it was real or if it was just a nightmare. What makes that fear worse is I have a psychotic man after me which makes me kind of paranoid about this dream. Can he get into dreams as well?

Izzy?

My head snaps up, I see Xander's wolf. His beautiful big black wolf. Such a contrast to my own, yet they suit so well.

Are you okay Sweetheart? I felt that you were scared.

I smile softly and patted the spot next to me.
Xander nods and quickly runs behind a tree to shift and change.
He comes back only in basketball shorts. I stare at him while he makes his way towards me. Damn he is gorgeous. He is so hot! And he's mine!
"You checking me out?"

"Yes and I have every right to as your mate." I said unopologetically.

Xander laughs, "That you do. You have all the looking rights."

He sits next to me under the tree and pulls me to his side, leaving his arm wrapped around my shoulders.
"Your mum asked me to go shopping with her for the ceremony..."

"So what's wrong?" He asks softly.

"It's stupid," I mumble.

"Hey, tell me. If it bothers you then I want to do something about it."

I sigh and rest my head on the side of his chest.
"I had this dream a while ago," I slowly began, "Me and the girls were at the mall and suddenly this man drags me into a closet, he starts to...do things to me that were inappropriate," I feel Xander's arm tense up along with his whole body,

"He whispered disgusting things to me,"

I feel his rage burning inside of him. A growl echos out of his chest.

I touch his chest and start to rub him in slow, circular motions.
"And then you came. You saved me. You took the guy off me, beat'em up and then you lifted me into your lap and started to whisper comforting words. Then everything went blank."

"So why are you scared? It was just a dream." Xander said looking up at the trees. Intentionally avoiding my eyes.

"That's the part that has me scared," I confessed as I stared at him, "Was it a dream? It was so real Xander...So real. How can that be a dream? Why would I even dream that? Is it real Xander? Or is it a dream?"

I look into his eyes and see a tornado. A fight between hot and cold, truth and lie. He doesn't answer straight away, and that alone answers my question.

"You did something didn't you? It was real and you knew. Why would you keep something like this from me?" I sat back from him.

"Because I don't want you to live in fear!" He snaps in anger, "You had been through enough in your life! I was too busy hurting you and resisting you. I should've been there. That should have never have happened to you Izzy. I don't want you to question my ability to protect you. I want you to feel safe with me. How can You feel safe when the one person who is supposed to protect you, me, wasn't there the one time you really needed me."

"It was selfish of you to keep it from me. It seems you have a habit of making decisions that concern me, without actually talking to me." I said angrily. 

Xander crosses his arms, "I don't regret my decision. All I wanted to do is prevent as much as I could at the time. Remembering it wouldn't have done you any good anyways."

Xander's brows drew together in a harsh frown. Seeing him like this...I knew he was still feeling guilty for not being able to prevent the last few incidents that had occurred. He is so hard on himself. Now he's afraid that he won't be able to prevent any coming incidents that could happen to me.

 I sigh, "It's okay to be protective Xander," He doesn't look at me. His hard frown was still cemented into place but I continued anyways, "That's not the part that really bothers me. What bothers me is, you can't look past your own perspective of things. You do what you think is best for that person, but you don't take in the consideration of that person at all. At the end, it's all about you."

He winces at my words. I didn't mean to hurt him, it's just that I need to tell him how I truly feel.

"Sometimes...I feel like I need to overprotect to make up the times that I should have been protective over you. I still feel this guilt inside my chest for how I treated you and I don't know why."

I climb onto his lap, straddling him. He grips my his as I cup his face.
"But I forgave you."

His face held such torment, "I know that's why I don't understand. I feel this weight of guilt sitting on my chest and I can seem to lift it off, no matter how many times I remind myself that you forgave me."

I lower my lips so than they were next to his ear.
"Maybe because you've never forgiven yourself. You blame yourself for things that's totally out of your control Xander. You blame yourself for this psycho stalker and now you blame yourself for this. You're adding weight to your own guilt. You're making it harder and heavier without yourself noticing. You need to let go."

Xander buries his face in my neck, inhaling my scent.
"I have such darkness inside me, Elizabeth."

"We all have dark and light inside us Xander. It is just the one we choose to act upon that matters," I whisper.

We sit there together in a comfortable silence. I guess we're both contemplating what we just talked about. I feel him relax every intake of my scent he has.
My effect on him kind of made me more secure in our relationship.

Xander lifts his head and kisses my lips with a quick peck.
"How'd I get such a wise Luna."

I smied, "I don't know. I guess you're lucky or something."

He chuckles, "Or something?"

I laugh and then rest my head on his shoulder, closing my eyes.

"Everything will be okay Xander, I believe in you and your judgement on things. Just wait and see."

3 HOURS LATER...

"I'm not sure this is the right one. I mean it look so extravagant." I said to Abby.

"Oh pish posh! It looks wonderful darling!"

I look in the mirror and see a green dress...that's all I can really say about it. I don't need to describe it for you to know that its...horrifying.

"I think something else please."

Abby sighs loudly, "okay then! I'll go look for something else." She walks away while I wrestle my way out of the dress.

There is literally nothing to wear. I wanted to wear something white. You know when the moon shines down then it will look like in glowing or something. I mean that would be cool right?

"Abby, maybe a white dress would look cool to, ya know, reflect off the moonlight?"

She turns to me and frowns, "Xander didn't tell you?"

"Tell me what?" My ears are wide open, ready to listen.

"It's tradition to always celebrate the Luna Ceremony when at a Lunar Eclipse. A Blo-"

"Blood Moon."

She nods, "Yes. So I was trying to find more bold and dark dresses because honey there ain't gonna be no moonlight at this celebration."

"Is there anything else he wasn't supposed to tell me that he should have?"

"Well I cut my hand as you will as well and I will be surrendering my power as Luna to you. But, this might be a little different. Your wolf link to your previous pack is still on you. You will also be disconnecting from your old pack and connect with your new one at the same time."

My heart starts to beat faster, "So, what will all this feel like?"she grabs my shoulder as a motherly gesture, "Honey, I'm gonna be honest...it's gonna hurt like hell."

I nod, "Oh." Great. I hate my life! Not literally. Just a figure of speech.

"Okay."

She gives me a sympathetic smile and walks of, in search of a new dress.

XANDER! I mind link.

What's wrong sweetheart? Is everything okay?

We are having serious words when I get home mister!

Wha-

Before he could finish I blocked the link. Series him right to keep information from me. I thought we had a heart to heart conversation about not holding things from me. Obviously it has taken no effect on him! Fucking men!

I take a deep breathe. Stay calm Izzy. Stay calm. You are in public, don't act like a lunatic while people are watching.

I go around the store and look for my dress. I need to get my mind off of him.

Red moon. Red moon. Red moon. Hmmm...I feel the clock work turning in my brain. Red moon...red dress? A red dress would be pretty appropriate right? A red dress for a red ceremony. I like the idea. It's definitely appealing.

I look at all the red dress. Going through one by one by one. Then I finally found the dress....my dress. MY DRESS. I feel so giddy inside. Xander is going to love this.
It's a long dark red flowing dress, but with a little bit of a tight lace pattern at the top. It's so beautiful.

I wear this with some nice black stroppy heels.

PERFECT.

I show Abby what I chose and she said they were gorgous. Which I took as approved.
As I was checking out I notice a man leaning against the wall.
He has some shades on. He lights himself a cigarette, took a drag and the pulled off his shades.
He had a very distinctive look. He's got one brown eye and one green eye, a scar ran down his left eye. He's got a light stubble, blonde hair, quite handsome. The man also had a little tattoo on his cheek.
It was a tattoo of  three tear drops. Each tear drop holding a wolf.
Werewolf.

My heart rate picks up because I realised his eyes are staring right at me.

He's becoming restless you know.

His voice invades my mind.

He craves your smell and touch.

No he's not. He's just wanting to hurt Xander.

True. But he hasn't had a woman for years. Since Alpha Xander slaughtered his mate.

Which she deserved and more I growled.

Feisty. I like it. Just remember the longer you resist him the more danger you put to your friends...and mate.

What do you mean?

Now that would ruin the surprise. Just a heads up, maybe you should watch out for your friend Avery. Don't want a pretty girl like that get hurt.

You stay the fuck away from her you pathetic piece of shit!

He chuckles
By the way honey, maybe you shouldn't move too much. Don't want to hurt the little one now do we.

I frown. What the hell.

Who are you?

He gives an evil smile.

Go ask Noah. He might know.

I block him from my mind and quickly grab my things and rush out.

I look around for Abby. Where'd she go?
I grab my phone with shaking hands to text her. I see there was already a message from her.

Sorry had to leave! I forgot that I left the cookies in the Oven! See you home darling xx.

Why would she do that? Great how the hell am I going to get home now!

A hand touches my shoulder. I jump and spin around, ready to defend myself, only to come face to face with my brother Eddie.

I hit him with my shopping bag, "EDDIE! You don't sneak up on me like that! You don't do that to people! What were you thinking!"

"Whoa baby sis! Slow down and take a breathe! Xander sent me to watch over you."

I roll my eyes, "Of course he did."

Eddie hugs me to his side while I watch, "What's gotten you all riled up anyways?"

I wrap my free arm around his waist, "There was a man...I think he's working for my stalker."

Eddie immediately turns around scanning the area with hard eyes. "Where is that sick fuck." He mumbles.He starts to walk around but I stop him.

"Eddie he's gone! Xander wouldn't want you to leave me and go look for him. He would want you to stay with me and keep me safe."

He looks at me and his warm brotherly eyes soften. He sighs as he slings his arm around my shoulder, "Let's go little sis."

I rest my head on the side of his chest. Please let this be all over soon.

"Do you know who the guy was?" He asks

I shake my head, "No, but I think I know just the person who does."

When we finally got home, Eddie went to the kitchen go try find my baking, while I went up stairs to my mate's office.

I slam the door open, "Xander do you know where No-"

I stop mid section. What. The actual. FUCK!

Xander is sitting on his chair while Lana is naked and standing his desk.

Xander's eyes hit mine. They widen with shock.

"Izzy. Stay calm, I know it looks bad but it's not what you think."

He gets up his chair and rushes over to me and grabs my face, "She came onto me."

Lana smirks as she looks down at me. Using her situation to look superior when we all know I am way stronger than her.

"Looks like The Alpha wasn't getting enough from his mate. He had to come to me to at least get some kind of release."

"He wouldn't do that to me." I said firmly.

"Oh but he would. He begged me actually." She said with a smile I wanted to rip off her fucking ugly ass face.

"Lana you shut the fuck up!" Xander shouted.

She started to look a little skid dish when Xander used his alpha voice.

I look at Xander and see the rage and disgust in his eyes."You make me sick Lana. You think just because I slept with you once in HIGH SCHOOL that we are practically mates? Stop making yourself more pathetic than you already are."

Lana pouts, "But, baby, you said so yourself. I was a good fuck."

He smirks evily, "Exactly, only a fuck. You're just the slut that every guy goes to get scratch an itch. And by the way, I only had you once because you weren't even that good of a fuck. It was too....used...kinda saggy."

I try so hard to not laugh at the last bit.

Saggy...nice touch. I mind linked him.

Yeah I was thinking of loose, but I thought saggy is a better way to describe it.

Lana's mouth opens in shock. "How could you say that. You ass-"

"Finish that sentence and I'll be the last thing you'll ever see." Xander growls.

Fear is held in her eyes, "Now get the fuck out of my fucking house whore, I want my mate."

She rushes out and closes the door.

"I hate her." I whisper.

Xander holds me against him and starts to kiss my mark, "She's not worth fussing over Sweetheart, there's no competition."

I smile playfully, "Really?"

He chuckles, "Really really."

I kiss my way up to his ear and whisper,
"Prove it."

I pull back and see him smile with lust in his eyes.

I giggle as I push him back and make a run for it.

I run down the stair and into the kitchen, I hear Xander's heavy footstep coming.

I look around frantically, trying to find something that will help me defend myself. Flour!

I hide on the side of the entrance way so than he won't find me.

"I smell you Izzy!" Xander shouts

That's the point. I want him to find me, so than I can cover him with flour.

Wait I have a better idea!

I run to the sink and fill a big bowl of water just as he runs through the door with a big boyish smile on his face.

I open my arms, making him think I want a hug.

Her wraps his arms around me, "I finally have you."

"So you think." I whisper.

"What?" Clueless man.

I push him away and throw the water in his face. And then I throw flour EVERYWHERE ON HIM!

"What the hell!"

I laugh as I fail to try run away. He wrap his arms around my waist, pulls me back and wipes his flour covered face all over my face and neck and chest. I scream and laugh, "Stop Xander stop!"

He grabs a bunch of flower and egg, "Hey now, I think we should just stop and clean up, there is no need fo-"

He just puts aside what I was trying to say and pours all the flour on me.
"XANDER!"

I hear him laugh. While I wipe my eyes, he picks me up bridal style. He takes me up the stairs and into our bathroom.

"You need to use a different bathroom."

Xander turns to me and frown in confusion, "Why?"

"I need to get ready and I can't do that while you're prancing around naked."

He smiles teasingly, "I'm glad I have such an effect on you."

I roll my eyes, "Don't be such a guy and leave!"

He laughs, but he does what I ask.

I turn to the mirror and have a good look at myself.
Yup...gotta lot of work to do