Is it wrong to want to be hurt?
To crave pain because it's the only thing that registers anymore?
To love the heartbreak and the breaking of bones?
To yearn for scratches and bruises?

I'm empty inside
No real emotions
No real feelings
Only hollowness

I want to be hurt
I want to feel something
I want a reason to live
A reason to wake up

I'm not going to pretend I'm okay
Because I'm not
I'm not okay
And I'm not a liar

I've asked for help
I've begged
But no one helps
And I'm left stranded

I let myself hurt
Just so I can feel alive
One more time
Before I slip again