I sit on Baileys floor in front of her mirror doing my makeup. Bailey was looking through clothes trying to decide what to wear.

"This summer is gonna be weird" I say. "Ya your gonna be here all summer" Bailey says.

I didn't want to be here all summer I wanted to go to the beach house. But nothing was the same now.

Flashback
I knew something was wrong when my mom got a call late at night. I knew that something happened to Susannah.

My mother left early that morning. Belly Steven and I where to drive to the funeral in two days.

The first days without her where wired. I felt like it wasn't real. I kept thinking that it was some sort of mistake.

Belly layed in her bed all day she didn't get up. Steven and I had to bring her food. She didn't eat much of it.

Steven was acting like nothing happened but I heard him crying in his room. I knew he was trying to be strong for belly and I. He was trying to be the brave big brother.

The second day was even worse. It was hitting me that I would never see her again. That couldn't be true! I didn't know how to live without Susannah.

Belly did leave her bed a few times in the second day. She got up to get some food and to use the bathroom. At one point I was happy to see her lounging on the couch. She looked miserable but at-least she was not in her bed.

Steven was doing laundry and dishes. He made dinner that night. I don't think I saw him sit down once that day. He was up till 3 AM cleaning the house.

The two days before her funeral the Conklin siblings where not doing to good. One of them was moping around. The other was cleaning the house to keep his mind off of it. I was just trying to get by. We were a mess.
End of flashback

Soon Bailey and I finished getting ready. We both looked really good.

Soon Josh was picking us up. Josh was being the DD tonight. I was going to be getting messed up tonight. I have been getting fucked up ever night that we have gone out. Witch has been a lot resontly.

Ever since I got with Nick I have been going out a lot. He is a party animal. I used to not drink but after Susannah's death I realized life was better when you where drunk.

As soon as I get there I go to find Nick. "Hey babygirl" Nick smiles at me. "Hey babe" I said. I gave him a quick peck.

I went to go get a drink and Nick followed me. He always wanted to make sure I was safe.

We got a drink then we went to find Taylor, Belly and Steven. When we did find them I went and hugged Taylor and Belly. Steven and Nick just high fived.

Steven didn't like Nick at all when I first started going out with him. He thought he was a asshole. Now they get along a little better.

I hug my brother. "Nice party" Nick says. "Thanks" Steven said. I went and hugged my brother. "I can not believe your leaving me" I say pulling away from him. "oh please I heard you and Belly planning who was taking my room" Steven rolled his eyes playfully at me.

Nick wrapped his arms around me. "I'll never leave you babe" he whispers in my ear. I giggle at him. Steven gives me a weird look but dose not say anything.

Soon we see Taylors boyfriend Milo. Taylor runs up to him and they give us all a PDA show.

Milo was one of Nicks friends. It is so weird that Taylor and I where dating two guys in the same friend group. It was also nice. We went on a lot of double dates.

Milo was just Taylors type. He did not have a brain. He did not think for himself so Taylor thought for him. She wore the pants in the relationship. I did not seem them lasting long term but it was nice to have a date buddy for a little while.

Nick and Milo do some stupid dude handshake. They start to talk about stupid stuff. That is when I excuse myself.

Taylor, Belly and I go to find a drink. Belly gets a soda since she is stevens DD. Taylor and I get a beer.

The party was fun. Milo was not that bad of a singer. To be far tho I was so drunk that I would have thought anyone sounded good on that stage. I danced around infront of the stange with Nick. He twirled me around and whispered the lyrics into my ear.

Milo rips off his shirt on stage. Nick whistled at him making me laugh. I look over at steven who had a jealous look on his face. I do not know if it was because he was jealous of Milos build or if he was jealous of the fact that Taylor was staring at him like he was the hottest man on earth. Either way he past his shirt to Belly.

"hold my shirt I am going to crowd surf!" Steven says. "eww steven I am not goanna hold your sweaty t-shirt!" Belly yelled. Steven jumps and falls on top of belly.

"Oh my god belly are you ok!?" I ask running towards my siblings. I don't bother asking my idiot brother if he is ok. If he would use the same brain that got him into Princeton he won't have even tried to crowd surf.

After everyone tried to check on belly she went to get a drink. "Bel...." I said following her.

"'Em I just need a moment" she says. I could tell this wasn't a moment she needed her twin she wanted to be alone so I let her be.