Matthew

Hey baby. | 8:50 P.M.

I don't know where to start. | 8:50 P.M.

Everything was so messed up in the beginning. | 8:50 P.M.

It still is. | 8:50 P.M.

but there are a couple of things that changed you know? | 8:50 P.M.

Your parents and my parents have become closer. It's like we're just one big family and they all have supported me so much. | 8:50 P.M.

We supported each other and still do. | 8:51 P.M.

Your friends came up to me and we all became pretty good friends. They're so nice especially Ryan, because he reminds me so much of you. | 8:51 P.M.

School made a memorial for you. Everyone can write something and put flowers or whatever they want by your locker. | 8:51 P.M.

I'm doing good at school now and I'll graduate soon enough. | 8:51 P.M.

I quit Rugby, because I want to pursue my dreams and like you said, I should really do something I love so I started taking guitar lessons and it's been great so far. | 8:51 P.M.

You told me that doing something I love, would feel so damn good and it'll always be there for me through my darkest days. So that's what I'm doing now. | 8:51 P.M.

Not just for me, also for you. | 8:51 P.M.

Justin reached out to me after hearing about, well you know. | 8:52 P.M.

He supported me through thick and thin. | 8:52 P.M.

It's so funny, because I literally hated his guts and you knew I did. | 8:52 P.M.

Justin told me he's gay a couple of days ago. | 8:52 P.M.

He said that you made him realize that and that he never wanted to hurt you in the first place. | 8:52 P.M.

I actually believe him now. | 8:53 P.M.

I'm just so glad that he was so confused about his sexuality, I would've never met you in the first place if it wasn't for Justin. | 8:53 P.M.

I haven't been dating anyone after you and I won't. | 8:53 P.M.

I couldn't even think about being with someone except for you. | 8:53 P.M.

Hell, I don't want to think about finding anyone else attractive besides you. | 8:53 P.M.

I mean, I know you would've wanted me to move on with my life and I will someday. | 8:54 P.M.

I will for you. | 8:54 P.M.

I may like Justin and I think he likes me too, but we're taking things slow. | 8:54 P.M.

Because I will and could NEVER forget you. | 8:54 P.M.

Maybe you were right, Justin isn't that bad of a person after all and that's one of the many reasons why I loved you. | 8:54 P.M.

Why I still love you. | 8:55 P.M.

You always see the good things in other people and you won't judge about the bad things. | 8:55 P.M.

I will keep this conversation so I can look back towards the good times whenever I'm sad or just feel like some 'Rain' time. | 8:55 P.M.

These are just memories now, but I will keep them and never forget them okay? | 8:55 P.M.

I don't know why I'm doing this to myself. | 8:55 P.M.

I think I needed this closure besides your funeral and besides visiting your grave. | 8:56 P.M.

After all, this is the place where it all started. | 8:56 P.M.

This is 'our' thing you know? | 8:56 P.M.

Something nobody can take away from us. | 8:56 P.M.

Something nobody knows about, except for us. | 8:56 P.M.

I miss us. | 8:57 P.M.

I miss holding you in my arms. | 8:57 P.M.

I miss playing with your curly brown hair. | 8:57 P.M.

I miss your smile that brights up my whole day, my whole life. | 8:57 P.M.

I miss hearing you talk so passionately about the things you love. | 8:57 P.M.

I miss looking into your intimidating blue eyes that looks like the ocean and whenever I look at them, I drown. | 8:58 P.M.

I miss you Rain. | 8:58 P.M.

Rest In Peace my beautiful angel. | 8:58 P.M.

God, I can't believe that a stupid illness could take you away from me. But don't worry. In the end we won, because you're still in my heart and mind. Like I promised you; I would be there till the end, we would fight your illness till the end and we did. | 8:58 P.M.

May we meet in another life baby. | 8:58 P.M.

We'll be reunited soon okay? | 8:58 P.M.

We just have to be patient and wait, | 8:59 P.M.

So you get stood up by another guy and you're texting the wrong number again. | 8:59 P.M.

I love you Rain Stanford. | 8:59 P.M.

Love, | 9:00 P.M.

Matthew. | 9:00 P.M.