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When Neil and I settled in his Limo and went for drive, I thought it was going to be an ordinary drive. ....one that had hanging us together Like old times.....Nothing could have prepared me for what was come.

Neil pulled over the side of the road , and got out of Limo before I could say anything to him.....I watched as he strode out toward the beach, and I couldn't help but be amazed by his presence in my life. No matter how angry I had been with him , especially when he was with Manya , I still cared about him , just having him in my life made me happy, happier than I had been in a really long time..Like I was myself with him, I didn't have to think or worry about anything going around me...or in my world...I never knew that one person could change my life so much.

Getting out of the Limo , I walked slowly to him, my eyes constantly studying him, trying to understand what was going on with him...I could feel something was bothering to him, and I really wanted to sooth his every worry which was stopping him to be him..As I reached to him,and touch him, I heard the thunder roll around us..Looking up I saw the clouds rolling in, and I looked back to him, his eyes starting up to the sky too.

"Neil..." I stated

He turned to look at me, letting me see something, something I had never seen before in my life. His eyes were dark, very mysterious, and flooded with some emotions one that I had never seen him give me before.

" What's wrong?" He asked

His words were like he was missing something terribly in his life...he was struggling with someone. He always appeared to be so sure of himself always, that he was sure of what he needed to do with his life , but hearing that sadness in his voice made me wonder what part of his life created this deep sadness within him. Never in my life I heard my friend so sad, so heartbroken...I had resist the urge to reach out and to hug him tight to comfort him.

It wasn't my place to offer such solace, it never would be.

" the dance....we did here..Remember...." I said with unbound happiness

As I saw it was the same beach he brought me once..where I had asked him to dance with me..One of the precious memory I have.....One of the best time of my life..

He nodded with smile, and that smile reach to his eyes and felt warm at my heart

It continued to thunder around us, and I turned my eyes back to the sky the thunder storms were still coming in. The storm that was coming towards Us was huge, that much was clear.

" Neil, we should leave...looks like it will start pouring soon.."

" we still have a little while , Sam...Let's stay here for little longer..." he answered...His voice came soft..Like he was at peace and I didn't want that peaceful moment of his.

" Okay.."

Standing there I could hear quietness of our surroundings, and the closeness we shared, though we weren't even touching..i couldn't describe though...it was just there...unspeakable feelings..

" Sam..would you dance with me?"

Turning to him, I couldn't help but to wonder what brought him to ask that question. He was Crazy..Idiot...that's what I called him always...we were on the verge of thunderstorm, and here he was asking to dance in a beach...without music...

" Neil...we don't have any music?"

He walked to me and slipped his arm around me...I almost gasped at the closeness and my heart skipping beats along way.

" I believe you asked me to dance once ..and we worked it out just fine..."

I couldn't help but to remember the words that I had spoken to him years back.

How could he remember that?

It was an important memory to me only, I thought...sighing I slipped my around his neck , laying my head on his strong shoulder as he begun to sing. It was one of my favorite song . The piece was so beautiful and the way he sung it was so exquisite. I wonder what inspired him to sing it with that much true emotion...

Then a stray drop of rain dripped down on my shoulder, causing me to shiver slightly. I knew we needed to go, but something inside told me to stay. To stay with him, I wanted nothing more than to stay with him always though I never would have the chance. Old feelings die hard....that's for sure.

" Neil, its starting to rain " I whispered

" I know..we'll go soon"

The words barely escaped his lips when the heavens opened up and the rain fell in thunderous streams. My hair started to cling to my face, and pulled closure to his strong body, trying to keep the rain from beating me down.

He suddenly pulled some back, his hand gently touching my face , lifting my chin making our gaze lock. He never released his grip on my waist, but pushed some hair which fallen on my face.

When I looked into his eyes , I could have sworn that there desire in them. That he wanted me, but that couldn't be true, he wanted to be my friend ...that's what he told me all those years ago...with his free hand still touching my face, I watched him. Without me realizing it, I brought my hand away from his neck and brushed his jaw gently..i could feel the slight stumble.

He moved his thumb from many of my features, caressing them gently. When he finally ran his hand across my jaw line, I felt my body reacting to his gentle touch.

Lightening continued to crack around us, but I care less. The only thing mattered was what was going on in this moment, with this man that had been such a huge part of my life.

When he tightened his grip around my waist, I should have afraid, but I wasn't. his eyes were focused on me completely, and I felt his hand start to move into my wet hair, strating to pull me closure to him. My hands had now locked themselves in place, one on his neck and other on his waist. I didn't know what was happening , but I couldn't move away nor did I want to try.

In a swift movement, he brought his lips to mine. At first I was shocked, I didn't know what to do. He moved his lips slowly, in a teasing motion over mine. Then, suddenly my mind clicked everything into places...

Neil was kissing me and it felt good.

I knew it was wrong within a moments start , but my body wanted this, craved this man's kisses more than anything in the world. Its wasn't like any kiss I had ever had. ......not that I was really experienced in kissing in the first place.

Something about this kiss made me relax , and I began to kiss him back. I never wanted this to stop , this was my teenage dream come true. This man , the one I wanted so badly, now was doing something I never thought he would do.

He kept pulling me closure, not allowing any distance between us , not that I wanted the distance. His kisses became fiercer and more passionate as the seconds ticked by, but suddenly he pulled back , both of us gasping for the air.

His eyes sparkled , I was sure, because the lightening flash and I saw them. As soon as his lips left mine, the first thought came to my mind was of......Armaan.... Oh My God..I just kiss that man who wasn't my fience...and I liked it....and wanted nothing more than to kiss him again.

He grabbed my hand and dragged my back to the Limo. Opening the door for me and shutting it behind before I had try to close it. When he got inside, he wouldn't look at me as he pulled the car on the road.

We drove in silence, but my heart was pounding within my ribcage. I could still fill the warmth and tingle of his lips on mine, and my mind couldn't rationalize how his touch made my body shiver, not even Armaan could make me feel that way...Armaan's kisses weren't like that. I mean, they were nice , but they never made me feel like I was going to melt into nothingness.

Neil's kiss though , made me want to more than kiss, more than I had ever given to a man in my life.

I couldn't help but to think about what was going on his mind right now. Neil's concentration was on road , but I knew him better. He was in deep thought about what had just happened.

What made him do that? What made him kiss me like that? Maybe he thought I was someone else or something...........he wouldn't want to kiss me like that....I was just Sam......Plain...Ordinary Sam.....

Neil pulled in front of my house and turned off the engine. The rain was still coming down in the streams as he got out and quickly come over to open my door. Grabbing my hand he took me up to the house, both of us wet from the rain. Pulling the house keys from pocket I opened the door and got inside, Neil followed me.

The door shut , and I turned to look at him , he was staring at the floor, water dripping from his disheveled hair. I wanted to cross the room and touch his face, like he had touched mine, but it was wrong.

He wasn't mine to comfort

I was engaged, even though I wanted to see nothing more than what it meant..i couldn't...

I had made commitment to Armaan, and I cared about him. I already felt horrible for kissing Neil, as good as it was, it wasn't right for me to want it again. In a way I had felt I was unfaithful.

" Sam..."

Turning to look at him, I saw regret in his eyes. Studying his expression, I didn't know what to expect to come from him.

" I'm sorry...I got caught up in this moment and I let myself go somewhere that I shouldn't have..."

Frozing, I tried to process what he was saying....every word cutting my soul. He was saying it was mistake to kiss me..It hurt so much, I wanted nothing more than to die...it shouldn't have been affecting so much ,but it was... he wasn't meant for me and I was promised to Armaan....

So why did it hurt?

" I'm gotta go...." I begged

" Neil, don't go " the words came automatically from my mouth

He smiled at me before he opened the door and he was gone in a flash. I ran to the window to see him get into The Limo and he was gone within seconds.

Walking back to the couch, I collapsed on the floor and sobbed. I knew it wasn't meant for me and that I already spoken for , but it still hurt...Like Hell....i didn't know why I was crying for him , but I was. It was Neil, and I was fool letting him hurt me again and again...he was still the man I loved long ago and it still hurt...

Maybe Armaan was right...maybe it was too much for me to have Neil back in my life..

Two weeks later....

Two weeks had passed since Neil played guitar for me and kissed me in the rain, and now it almost seemed like distant memory.

During that time, Neil hadn't been around me as much and though I didn't question him. I still missed him. He called me everyday, always right before I would go upstairs to get into bed. We would talk about everything that we did in a day, and he got in a habit of humming the songs to me . there was something about it that made me feel safe and loved.

I never questioned Neil about the kiss we shared, I knew there was no point. He wouldn't talk about it if I wanted to...he must have been embarrassed that he even kissed me...I wasn't his type and I knew that he was ashamed to have kissed me.

When he did come over here , it was normally with Arjun and Sid came along. They liked my house for watching cricket all the time, but it made me happy to have them around me. Most of the time I was busy witing my book or curl up with book .

Radhika and Nandini were working 24*7 in preparation for my wedding and engagement. I had been trying to talk to them out of engagement party but they wouldn't.

Armaan and Kriti were going to be flying in soon , and that made me uncomforatable....this was going to be first time I was going to see Armaan after I left for goa ...I had a lot of guilt with me about kissing Neil...something that had been haunting my dreams lately.

So, sitting on the couch I Saw Armaan and Kriti pulling in the driveway . I jumped up and ran into Armaan's open arms but my guilt settled in the back of my mind. Though I did good job hiding it from him. It was wonderful to be in the arms of man who loved me, but knoin g what I had dome, made it hard for me to be near him. My acting skills were becoming really good this days.

" Hey Beautiful " he whispered " I missed you"

" I missed you too ,Armaan...."

Kriti was standing behind Armaan and could see through my carefully made façade just by looking into my eyes. She knew something was wrong , but couldn't ask now. She would wait untilshe could jump up on me and ask when Amaan wouldn't be around.

I clung to Armaan for moment, trying to remember why I was marrying him. He was good to me, cared about me, wanted me to be happy, was honest and truly genuine person ......the perfect person to marry . He definitely would be wonderful and caring husband to me and that what I wanted, at least I thought so...But still why this unexplainable feeling driving me crazy?

When he released me, Kriti pulled me into the hug.

" we will talk later " she whispered into my ear

Pulling back, I nodded to her. As Kriti went to guest I followed her where Armaan and my mom was busy talking about wedding preparation...Yes, Mom was back from Mumbai last week.

Sitting down on the edge of the bed, I watched her start to unfold some of her things, not speaking to me yet.

How do you tell someone that you cheated on your fience ? ...not in the physical aspect of actually having s*x , but I kissed Neil , and on some level I still wanted to? Damn....This Crazy heart of mine....

There was the knock on the door, and Armaan leaned into the door

" I just got call from my Dad, so I need to run over to Cabolium..I'll be back in couple of hours, okay?"

" Yeah...Be careful...."

Stepping in he kissed my forehead and left. Kriti didn't say anything till she heard front door open and shut.

" what's going on with you? You aren't acting like yourself " Her voiced appereared bit confused.

" you don't want to know...." I replied

Throwing herself on the bed, she turned turn to look at me

" what happened Sam?"

" how do you know something happened ? " I ask in wonder

" I can read you like book, Sam...and I would guess it has something to do with your Best friend, right?"

Sighing, I covered my face with my hands.. why does she have to know me so well?

" Sam...."

" if I told you what happened, you wouldn't believe me..."

" Are you done with your dramatic effects??? Now tell me straight...." She said cocking her left eyebrow

She was a pretty little information digger..won't stop demanding until I speak up.

Sighing, I told her everything, told her about guitar playing, the thunderstorm and the kiss that had rocked my life to the core. Her eyes were soft during the whole explanation , I knew she wouldn't have that " I told you" attitude. ..but it was still heard to tell her which I kept hidden from everyone, including Radhika and Nandini, which was very challenging thing.

" so he leaned in and kissed you, huhhhh?"

I nodded, still feeling the shame that built within me

" I never thought he would get enough courage to do that"

My eyes went wide at her response and she begun to chuckle as she looked at me, ..honestly, I didn't know what she find in that so funny

" don't laugh at me...this is horrible..."

" Sam, are you blind ?" she asked

" Uhh..I guess I am because I don't have any idea what are you talking about..."

" Sam, he cares about you..more than he will actually admits to you..He felt bad for kissing you not because he didn't wanted to kiss you, but because you are engaged to someone else. duhhh"

I hated it when she got like it that, all knowing and sarcastic. Rolling my eyes I turned away from her

" you must be delusional..because Neil told me that he didn't think of me that way..i think I need to remind you whole brake down back in college ?"

" Things change though, Sam...you both have grown up a lot since then...things have happened to both of you...You both went through hard time..have you ever considered that?"

No, I wasn't going to. As much as my heart wanted Neil, I knew he wasn't good for me..he didn't love that much I was sure of. I wanted stable life that Neil couldn't provide me but Armaan could.

Our worlds are miles apart, though I wish it wasn't true. I couldn't go back to being that girl, I had career and a life which didn't include Neil

" it dosen't matter Kriti..we have picked up our path and we have to live with them.."

" you don't belive that Sam..." she stated

Turning to look at her sad eyes..i knew what I was saying to be true...how could she not support me??

" I do..Armaan is my future. Neil is my friend and is in my past..Neil will find someone someday.."

She stood and walked towards the door but paused and turned, her eyes looked deeply into mine.

" The reason you want Armaan because you are scared. You are afraid to feel something that is real.. Armaan may love you Sam, but you don't love him. You are settling for someone that dosen't give ypu butterflies like Neil does, or makes you laugh, or could make you feel alive...Damn, Sam...your heart has always belonged to Neil, and always will. Only when you realize that will you be happy and your life will be less complicated. I wish I could force you into realizing this, but I can't. you have to figure it out and I guess it will happen only in time..."

She shut the door behind her as she left the room, leaving me siiting alone. All her words burned deep within my soul...but didn't matter...it wasn't true....i loved Armaan , didn't I??? Ofcourse I did..i wouldn't be marrying him if I didn't..she was just saying things to confuse me...No, she wouldn't do that..she cares too much about me and my happiness . so why were all my thoughts still flooded with the black haired man with the deep black eyes?

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