Hello Friends, I'm back with another Chapter..you gonna see the things by neil's Pov..how he felt when he make things right between them....

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Neil

The sun was shining in the window causing me to roll over away from its rays. Stupid rays.. I knew there was no point in trying to sleep again. As I got up the first thought came to my mine was Sam...

Throwing back the covers , I stood and stretched out. It was then I heard the family running around the house. It was obvious that they were busy getting things done for Radhika's marriage..then I heard door knocking sound

Groaning , I opened the door, it was Radhika standing there with glass of lemonade.

" so..where were you last night?? Since you ran away last night , we got to listen screaming of your fiancé all the while..." frowned my lil sister

" Went out....."

" where?" she asked

I wanted to avoid this topic . I wasn't really ready to let Radhika know that I have already seen Sam. My main reason were I really didn't know how I felt seeing Sam after four years...

" Dabolium.....went to a club there..." trying to sound at the point

" Oh..I see..so next time you decide that you need to go club, tell someone.. Personally I don't like dealing with your bitchy fiancée, so if you still consider me something..take me too with you next time so I don't have to listen to her.."

" I'm sorry Radz..i won't do it again..promise.."

" you better not..Are you okay??" she asked, looking at me strangly " you seem lost in thought..."

Lost?..yes...deep in thought of someone that I hadn't thought about in a while, but that someone wasn't ever completely gone from my thoughts. My thoughts were consumed by only woman. I was still kicking myself for not recognizing her at the time she enter in Club..how could I not know that it was her?? Yeah her hair might be done in other way and she might have been wearing a very tight and sexy looking dress..but that doesn't mean that I shouldn't recognize my friend. If she still consider me as her best friend...

" just the lot of thing going in my mind..and I know that Manya isn't going to be happy about Sam being here..i want to work on that..J just miss Sam , Radz, more than you can imagine..."

" I know you miss her... we all know.probably more than you know yourself..i need to go..." she stated " oh, yess..i need to call sam and see if she reached yet.."

" I will do it" I interrupted

" You?? Neil you haven't called her in four years...plus I don't know if she would answer the phone call by you..." she said looking at me strangely , " Neil, are you sure, you okay??"

" Yes, radz...As you are busy in wedding preparations...I can do this one thing for you at least ..."

Sighing, she still continued looking me with puzzled look . I was wondering that what was going in her mind. I knew she wanted to protect Sam from getting hurt by me....but still by her look I could guess that she was thinking something deep.

" Okay....but I don't think you will get any response..."

She turned around and left me in the middle of the room. After I checked that war room was empty..i mean there wasn't any sign of Manya....Yes, she was living in my house stating that she wanted to help in wedding preparation but I knew that she wanted to keep eye on me as Sam was coming...As childish I felt, I knew I hadn't got any more energy to deal her wrath about my disappearance about yesterday night., so stepped gently on the stairs as I went down.

While descending the stairs a thought crossed my mind about how people or rather my family viewed Manya and think about her..i asked few questions to myself..was she that much cold that she appeared to my family?? Why was I marrying her? was I just being stupid?

Maybe I don't deserve good women..good women weren't meant for guy like me..they won't go after womanizer like me..No they never choose man like me...they want a good guy who has some form of moral and etiquette and will treat them with respect...so I guess it's karma way coming back to me...do bad things and you get bad things at things..As they say,You reap what you sow

When I got the the bottom stairs, I heard Manya asking kitchen staff about me..it was do or die time, do I deal with her now or later? The fact that i knew there was a knock down was waiting for me..so I decided to avoid it..i wanted to talk to Sam first..

Sneaking into my garage room, I locked the door...but now I was very nervous to dial her..i was feeling sick like she gonna hit me the moment she will pick up my call...Sam couldn't be that cruel...but what I should say her..would she just hung up on me?? I knew that I deserved that , but some where in my heart I was hoping that she should give at least one chance..the chance to make things right...honestly, I don't know what gotton in to me to say that I will call her..i was crazy..completely insane..

I pulled my phone and searched her name and about to dial her but again I shut it down...my hands were hovering the phone and I was kept entering diffent numders...frowing I dropped my phone on side table.my mind wouldn't relax for a minute....it was something that I wanted to do from so long but at the same time I didn't wanted to hear her anger.. the greatest fear of calling her was, to see her hatred for me..

Looking upward, asking god to help me and after flipping stupid things couple of times before actually dialing her no.

Putting my phone to my ear I heard Sam's ring back...My heart was pumping blood at the velocity of light.

Dhak.Dhak.Dhak.

" Hello"

Then my heart stopped when I heard the most beautiful voice ever.

I was in utter shock to hear her voice..it was so familer but different. I wasn't sure what to say so I said the thing which came first in my mind

" I never thought you would answer me..." I said, kicking myself internally as soon as the words left my mouth

The line was silent. The silence was killing and it worried me when I didn't hear her sweet voice again..did she hang up on me??

" Neil?"

Her voice was full of confusion..no wonder..i hadn't called in years, she must be surprised..but I felt peaceful when I heard my name coming from that sweet voice of hers

" So you haven't forgotten me completely then...you remember my name..." I answered with lil bit of laugh

She went silent again..this time I was sure she would hang up on me..i didn't blame her either, I completely desereved it..

" what do you want, Neil?"

It was obvious from her tone that she wasn't happy to talking to me..though, she was still talking to me, which matters the most

" Radhika wanted to know if you arrived yet..."

" why didn't she call then ??"

" I told her I would call you..are you here?/"

" I think you knew the answer..." she retorted back

Hearing her speak to me like this wasn't something I used to. I was used to with kind Sam, who never used to hurt anyone. I made her this person , I made her this mad with me..i am an idiot..how could I hurt the person which meant more than...??

" Sam..." I said painfully

I didn't know what to say further..or how to say that I am sorry for being a complete jerk to her and I want her forgiveness??

"" I got to go..Good bye..Neil..."

The line went silent then..i pulled my phone and stared it for a minute..and what did I did next moment shocked me...I threw my phone against the wall of the garage and it shattered across the ground.

Damn it!! Now I had to get new one..Growling I picked up the pieces and cursed myself for not able to control my anger..normally it was only Manya that caused me to do such things, so why Sam ignorance hurting me now??

After that , I threw myself on Sam's couch and put my hands on my face. I was angry, but not at Sam, I was angry with me. Our friendship used to be normal always and now..it was far being normal..thought came, Sam never gonna forgive me.

No....No..that couldn't happen...I wouldn't let my stupidity to end everything. Sam meant so much to me, I didn't care if it made Manya angry.. I wanted her to be back in my life..

A week later

Standing in front of the mirror , I examined the shervani that I had on me. The fact was I never wore ethnic wear, so it made me feel silly, but Radz had picked this out for me to wear since it was her engagement party. She picked out a simple silver long sleeve button up sheravani and pair of black churidar. She said it would highlight my features. I really didn't know what that mean , but I put on those cloths and I hoped I didn't look like a complete fool.

" You looking Handsome more than usual..."

I turned around to find Nandini standing in the doorway.

" You know sid gonna be crazy if he found that you praised his little bro.." I chuckled as I adujusted my collar.

" Oh..shut up..next time I will say you look like a monkey in that get up if you don't like compliments..."

" Sorry, Nandu..."

She walked into my room and stood besides me and adjusted her already perfect hair.

" So, what bugging you??" she asked

"N-Nothing..just worried..." I said..i hate when my close one could read me like book.

" Let me guess, ...umm...Sam??"

" how did you know??"

" it's always Sam with you, Neil..it doesn't really matter for how many years she has gone for or how many countries away she stay..but she stii have ability to rule your universe..." she giggled..i was wondering was this the same Nandu who hated me so much for hurting Sam and refused talking to me.

" stop it..Nandu..."

" oops..sorry I showed you the real mirror right?? Which you don't like to see...so I just lie to your face..you love so much to Manya..." she replied sarcastically

I didn't said anything but it hurt..may be guy like me deserved cold hearted and ruthless Manya..i had to accept this fact

" its doesn't matter Nandu..you can say i got what I deserve..."

"Deserve?? God Neil..you are a great guy..though you have done a lot of stupid things in the past but you deserve to be happy.."

"Nandu..i m marrying her..i cant go back from my words..."

She look back at me..Sadness was written on all over her face.

" think Neil, when you woke up few years from now and found your life miserable. You have chance to make your life exactly what you want to be, but you won't.only once we get this life..don't ruin it by letting go the person whom you love. "

Nandini turned around and left be bewilder...After getting ready, I went down stairs and went outside before any body could see me...I didn't wanted to involve in party so I went to the back yard..the air was cold. I turned to look at sky and watched star above me.. my mind drifted off to Sam..did she still watch ed stars like we used to do?

It was then I heard back door slam and frustrated yell from behind me and I saw her standing behind me but her face was opposite side.. she was absolutely looking stunning..but seeing her upset made me upset as well. What happened to her?? so I asked her...

" what's wrong , Sammy?"

She turned around and I lost in her brown orbs. They were full of confusion and anger but they were still so soft and caring..i had urge to reach and hold her in my arms and comfort her. but what she said nxt , shocked me...

" where you going to tell me that you are there behind me or you gonna make me fool like you did at the club??"

It was clear that she changed a lot since I saw her last time..in many ways she was exactly the same but but now she didn't look like samaira khanna who used to wear hoodies and jeans but turned into sexy and desirable yet graceful woman.

" I didn't know it was you in the club in that blue dress until the DJ mentioned your name...."

" lie....you know it...." She stated

Her eyes instantly changed and become cold ...Not cold like Manya's but differnt cold...I never see her like that....this look of coldness reserved just for me..

" Sam, you don't look the same ..like now...you were the girl that didn't wear a dress apart from jeans..and now its like you wear them so freely..."

She rolled her eyes that told me that she thought I was lying.it hurts..now she didn't trust me and saw me as lier..but I never lied to her..just forgot to tell her somethings..

" this kind of stuff happened when we grow up, Neil..I'm not the same girl that I used to be then

" I know Sam..you don't know how much I know..."

" what are you talking about??" she asked and confused about what i said

" Sam, I have made mistakes in my life and I wish I could go back and do the right..like the whole situation about Manya..i would have told you about her before the night I dropped her infront whole family.."

After I said that, I realized the word mistake wasn't enough to cover what I did in my life..actually, th word mistake was an understatement. I was an idiot..i lost the person who cared me more than my family

" Doesn't matter, it's done..and I'm over with it.." she whispered, and stepped away from me

Her actions told me that she didn't wanted to discuss this topic..but I had to..if I wanted to fix our friendship , I had to discuss it with her and let her forgive me..the strangest thing was that I craved for her sweet voice..

" it does matter ..Sam, that moment cost me your friendship...I lost my precious thing...you don't know how badly I suffered..."

" Neil, it isn't the time for what ifs..the truth is done is done..we can't play the games that how we would do it differently if we had a chance..there is no point..life don't give second chance..person just can do that to move on from the thing..."

She was right about it, but she was wrong about it as well..Yes, what happened in past was done and over, but at least could make that past as bad memory and could start as friends again.

" it doesn't mean that I am not sorry though, sam.."

She stood completely still..i wished that I could read her thoughts that I could know what I had to do to fix this..she turned to me and her eyes were filled with fury..

" Sorry for what???sorry for that you forget to tell me about you girlfriend..sorry that made me so angry that I run away from my people without saying goodbye to them..sorry that you pushed me to the point that make me refrain myself from telling you about my PG plan..WHAT are you sorry for , Neil??."

I never heard Sam like this..i had no idea how badly I hurted her and now it was clear that I had hurt her beyond anything that I could have imagined. Knowing this make my soul ache with sadness..what kind of Friend I was?

" its so easy to say sorry than to suffer for that..and I suffered Neil..like anything...." She said again making my heart shattered in sadness..

I walked to close her and make her face to my eye level..and made her look into my eyes..and saw my truth...what I heart felt..

" Sam, I am sorry that I didn't told you about Manya..i am sorry that I make you ran away from Goa, leaving behind all of us..But mostly Sam, I am sorry that I was coward that I didn't try to fix this before..you are my best friend..the person that know me more than me..i missed you..i have missed you so much, and I haven't been the same Neil without you..so, I am begging for forgiveness because I can't live without your friendship or you being in my life....."

While I spoke her eyes went wide..i knew she was thinking about the all words I spoke..i hoped that she would forgive me anyhow.. to forgive me for my massive amount of stupidity and my inability to see my friend hurt.

Then thought crossed my mind..what if she didn't forgive me?? How could I live?? I had survived without her tiil..but not for more time..i was terrified with the thought

" Neil...it can't be exactly the same before..too many things happened to us since I left..you are engaged, I have boyfriend who loves me..."

Was she forgiving me?? How?

I was utterly speechless about what she said to me..Ohhh Goddd..she was thinking to give one chance..the only one thing I had to deal with was her boyfriend...Armaan Arora...that part didn't matter to me..the only fact that matter was she was going to give chance..

" Sam, I am not asking for exactly what we had before..i know it would be difficult for you to forgive me..but I want a chance to prove to you that I am sorry and opportunity to become friends again.."

" we can try....but I am not making any promise..i have one request..."

A request?? I would do anything for her..i was so ready to catch her every word..all she would have to ask to me..

" Anything, Sammy.."

"keep your damn fiancé in check..."

" what did she do to you?? Tell me Sammy...did she bothered you???" I asked

" she thinks I will snatch you..i really don't appreciate that...next time I will not think before kicking her stupid a**..Understand??"

I couldn't help but growl on Manya's action.. she had no right to do that stuff to Sam and she was going to have her lesson about keeping her mouth shut when it comes to Sam..Sam never hurt Manya then why she was keep bursting on Sam..

" don't worry about Manya??i will deal with her..." I said with smile.

Time flew by and I wasn't really sure how long we stood there , cool wind was blowing against her. I couldn't help but look at that shimmering sky which was over us like used to be in past..i glanced over her for moment, and pulled her closer and she put her head on my shoulder..and I couldn't help but to smile...

" thank you.." I whispered

" for what??" she asked

" for making my life right again..."

She broke out into laughter and it led us to talk about all the things we had gonna through past years..it was like old times..it was nice having my friend back with me, even it was for little time..

When I noticed Sam's friends , I knew that she was again going to leave me, but atleast it wasn't as much as long as last time.. I was incredibly happy , restoring our friendship back.

I walked with her to cab and wished her good night. When I turned I saw Manya glaring from inside the house. My family was smiling, I see those emotion in their eyes for me which I deprived from past four years...I grabbed Manya hand and take her to garage room..slamming the door behind me, I came face to face with Manya.

" what the hell do you say to Sam, Manya?"

" what do you think I said to her , neil?" she replied with attitude..

" I have no idea...but whatever you said started something which you don't want to finished by me..."

" she wants you..Are you f*cking blind? How much she says she doesn't or the fact that she has that stupid boyfriend..she still wants you...." She roared back

" are you mad??? I am YOUR fiancé and you are hurting a person who hadn't done one damn thing to you...Just know that one thing Manya, if situation like came, I will choose her... she is been my friend forever anf I am not going to lose her again..Do you UNDERSTAND ?" I yelled

" you would pick her?? Damn you, Neil..You are Fool...." She sheriked and stormed out of the garage...

A fool??? Yeah..but not for the reasons she thought...I threw myself on couch and stared at the ceiling for a while..trying to clear my thoughts...why Manya's word didn't hurt me??? They should..she is my fiencee and I don't give damn to what she thinks or feels anymore...maybe there is something wrong with this picture...

Sam POV

Radz Haldi and Sangeet ceremony

" at least you don't have to wear sareee.....only we girls know how much it is difficult to handle..."

" try wearing money suit....Sammy"

This was typical talk between me and Neil..we both hated getting ready in traditional dresses..and Neil was happy to know that I didn't changed fully.

" At least you will have material covering body..i will look horrible in that lehenga..."

" you will look amazing Sammy..i will be one of those guys in a monkey suit..."

I couldn't help but laugh hard.. he calls sherwani as moneky suit..it was nice to talk with him like that..it was very relaxing..

We were sitting chit chatting after heavy Haldi applying..no no..throwing on each other..Neil actually soaked me in haldi...

" Neil..."

I heard the silky sweet voice of his fiancé and it made me want to hurl .

" yeah..." he answered

" when are you going to be done with this silly function?" she asked

" when Radz declares...."

Neil turned his back on her and I saw her glare at me since I was standing so close to him...I turned my gaze away from her and saw Radz pestering wedding planner..

" your fience is giving me deadly looks..you should go for her.." I whispered to him

" let her..she is just in bad mood..."

I shook my head and found Neil and Manya's relationship were far from being normal...its like train wreck

Time passed, we all friends sat there, teasing and chit chatting with each other.. I saw Neil's eyes..they were sparkling bright..After that we went to dinner hall.

I was heading towards the hall when Jenny whispered

"it's nice to see that you and Neil are getting along...."I looked at her....Lyra to giggled back

"we know you still have a thing for him Sam.." lyra said

" No I don't..i have Armaan...."

Speaking of Armaan, my phone rang flashing his name on screen

" Helloooo..."

" hey Sammy, I and Kriti just arrived and will be in Panji in an hour or so..are you going to be home by then...."

" No..just going to have dinner...Kriti have keys na?"

" Yeah...I can't wait to see you, baby..i have missed you..."

" Missied you too armaan..i will see you in hour..bye..."

Then I hang up the call to find Jenny and Lyra giving strange look..

"What??" I asked

" I was wondering that what Armaan gonna think about you and Neil's friendship..."

" yeah..he knows..i told him the other night..."

" And??"

"He didn't like it much... he is worried that Neil would hurt me again.. he also told me that he would rip out Neil's heart if he tried to hurt me again..."

" I wonder what he gonna do if he learn that you still feel for Neil..."

I glared at Jenny " stop it..i don't have anything for Neil apart from friendship Jenny..pls..."

"Okay..cool down.i wll not mentined..." she whispered

We all arrived at the dinning table arranged for all of us..i sat at the far end of the table , away from Neil..he gave me strange look but didn't questioned me back..i tried to eat, but could feel Manya's constant glare on me..i made myself busy talking with Radz about other preparations..

God..this place..turning me back into that girl..but I had to stay strong...I wasn't going to let this place turned me again into weak girl..i would keep Neil away from occupying my life again..

I said good night to all and left for home..i just wanted to sleep and have rest...

As we entered into the house, I saw Kriti lying on sofa..she was sleeping soundly..i smiled ...Jenny and Lyra went to their room..i went to the kitchen to have a glass of water..then I felt the strong pair of hands grabbing me by waist and my back crashed to his front..

" Hey baby..." he whispered

" Hmmm..." I whispered back

" I missed you.."

" I missed you too...."

I wrapped my hand around his hands..normally I would like the feeling, but now it felt strange..

After talking for some time he went to sleep in guest room...I headed back to my bedroom and crashed on my bed..i looked over to see coffee table next to my bed having our farewell party picture..i smiled..that time was so innocent....not so complicated....the time when I felt that Neil would love me and we would be together..but Not now..everything changed

Slipping into deep slumber, I could see Neil and Armaan standing in wedding Sherwani hodling garland, they were waiting for me to choose..to choose to whom I want to be...I woke with jerk...it was crazy dream..never going to become reality..so why it felt strange???

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