October 2015

"See you in the morning, Neil.."

I turned back to my colleague and yelled back before I jumped on my bike to head home..

So much things had changed for me lately. I had finished my training in dad's office and I was now working as normal employee in his office...like Sid, I too started by this..

As I rode back towards home, I couldn't help but to think about how much my life changed up to this point. My family was being rather secretive lately. I kept asking and asking , but they kept changing the topic. The funny thing was that started a few months back after Arjun and Radhika went on that small trip.it was the trip that they would never talked to me.

"That was so sweet of him..i wish Sid would do such kinda sweet and romantic things for me...." Sighed Nandini.

"she got lucky to get that guy...this is for sure...." Agreed my mother...

I was really confused so I stood back in the doorway and continued to listen to what they were talking about..

" She also told me that he is going to be taking her to see some play in New york.... I think New York city Theatre...she said that it was one of the famous thetre..."exclaimed radhika

"That Armaan Arora is something yarr..he appeared to be like some hero in Romantic Film...." Said nandini

Armaan Arora? NewYork?? that meant they were talking about....SAM!!

I looked down at my hands and they were shacking...I tried to calm myself down and get myself together..maybe Armaan and Sam were friends and he was just hanging out with her as friends...she wouldn't date someone like Armaan...She was too good for him, he wasn't the type of guy that I could see for my best friend.

She deserved someone that knew her heart and soul and would make heaven upside down just to make her eyes sparkles or her lips curve up into that innocent smile of hers. She would want someone that would laugh with her and understand her intense fascination for books and let her talk about them..Armaan couldn't do that..i was sure of that..

"She won't really tell me anything..nothing spicy atleast...I got that after seeing her swollen lips when she came back from her first date with Armaan.. ...I bet his kisses make her melt...."

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THREE TALKING ABOUT??"

I couldn't take it anymore.the thought of that pathetic creature kissing Sam caused something to snap inside my head. I couldn't stand in shadow and hear them talking about Sam like that..

The three of them turned to look at me. My Mom and Radz looked as if they were caught doing something wrong , Nandini on the other hand had a smug smile on her face

"I guess the secret is out now...Sam is in relationship with Armaan..." stated Nandini, her voice full venom.

My eyes must have shown that how much shocked I was because her smile became wider. The expression of my mom and radz was full of sadness.

"No..she wouldn't date someone like him..he is a pathetic looser...."

"That pathetic looser has been dating her since May and from what I heard , he makes her feel all kind of things..."Nandini sneered

"Nandini that is enough.." stated my mom " Neil..just calm down..."

I turned out to look at my mother, she was annoyed..what I did now? I was just freaked out when I heard Armaan dating Sam

" Neil..this is why we were keeping it under wrap..we knew you would take it badly..however, you who doesn't have any interest in Sam, why you overreacting about her being with Armaan.." Radz said sarcastically

Yes..I did hurted her..but the idea that Sam would let that man touch her making me go insane..That wasn't My Sam I knew all this years. That Sam wouldn't have given Armaan any chance...what happened to that woman who left me long ago?

"she wouldn't date him..he is not her type..." I stated firmly.

"If you haven't figured it out, Sam has changed some since the time you last saw her...she is very independent, she works hard, and she finally saw her soul mate in Armaan..that what he is..." stated radz

Before I could cut her in and say something she continued

"Let her be happy Neil....you never saw her how sad she was after she told you that she loved you and how deeply your rejection cut her...Armaan has brought happiness back into her life and had made her incredibly happy...she needs that kind of happiness..you broke her in so many ways that she still have that scars in her heart...and by the look you are giving now, I can tell that you want to go to Newyork and kill Armaan..but don't..Leave sam alone..let her be live with happiness that she deserves.... "

I couldn't listen this anymore..i headed towards the door to slam it as I left the house.the idea that Sam changed into some other person that was unable to digest...she still had to have same heart and soul that I had used depend on everytime.

My mind flooded with all the moments with her that I couldn't forget.i still remember the day when I first saw in school.how her eyes shines with the terror and fear of being in the new place..she never knew it but I watched her all the time that day..when Lara and Sophie started to bully her I came to rescue her..i got my chance to talk to her...I just knew that she needed someone. Someone to watch her, to take care of, but she wasn't here and I realize it wasn't her that needed taken care of but it was me that needed her.

I jumped on my bike, and it roared to life with one kick..when I hit the highway , I pushed the gear, I was flying down the road , the engine roaring..i kept thinking through.i couldn't figure out what I did to make her hate me that much that she didn't want me to know what was going in her life...just exception that how I told her about Manya..

Manya ?? how could I forget her?yeah she was dominant person and we were facing some issues..but every relationship has their issues, right? Like other girls she too didn't like me talking with my best friend...I know she was ruthless sometimes, but aren't we all ruthless at times?

I pushed manya's thought from my mind and my thoughts occupied by chocolate eyes of Sam. I hadn't really thought about Sam lately since it hurts so damn much...the thought of her living happily with that Armaan there without me was badly hurting me...

I wasn't really paying any attention where I was heading..i got surprised when saw Calgute name on board..Its Armaan's native place...on the out side of town, there was a local bar, THE CALL OF WILD...I parked my bike in lot and hopped off from my bike. I noticed it was occupied by most of the localites and none of them I knew. I walked up to the bar table and finally bartender came and after asking my orders he went to his group of friends which were sitting on another end of that round counter table.

Though they were bit far from me but as they seems rowdy I could hear them clearly

"Hey Maddy, heard from ARmaan Lately?" yelled one of the guy

"Yeah...Rohit..i talked to him..he really loves that girl..never tired of talking about her like she is the only woman in this world" answered the bartender.

Armaan..that was the name I didn't wanted to hear while here, but it was expected as Armaan grew here and his friends still lived here.

"I am so glad to see him happy...he dated those hot chicks in college, but never serious about them..he was always love Sam..I told him that she wouldn't give him chance but he told that he will forever wait for her...and he finally got the girl of his dreams..."

I felt immense pain in my heart like thousands of nail piercing in it...I knew that I was eavesdropping on their conversation, but as they were talking about Sam and having them talking about her making my blood boil.

"Didn't Armaan told that she used to love some guy from her collge?? " stated one of the other guy from their group..who was sipping bear from his can

"Yeahh..she was in love with that guy..but Sam is so sweet person..i wonder how that guy loose her.." yelled another guy

" Okay..just cheers..for Armaan and Sam...for their happiness of togetherness...finally Armaan gonna ask her to marry him in upcoming days..." started the bartender guy..

"You are right..cheers for Armaan and Sam.." all exclaimed in chorus.

I was staring their celebration for my best friend and her boyfriend. I looked down to see my empty bottle and yelled for another .to hear them talking about her....hurting me bad...and what I figure out from it that Sam was happy with him. Why it making me sad?

I don't know how long I sat there and drank beers. I finally threw money on table and walked out from the bar and I looked up the shining night sky. This caused me think about Sam all again. It was almost always a night when her memories got stronger and choked me..staring the stary sky was her favorite... we could not able to see night sky at the same time now...We got parted.

When I reached to the home and parked my bike, I saw several miscalls from Manya.It seems midnight.....i wasn't in mood to talk to her..so I switched off my mobile. I walked around the garden and sat down on lawn and began to stare up the sky.

"Neil?"

I turned to see Radz standing behind me, I just looked at her and turned back to stare the stars. I heard her sigh as she sat down beside me. I kept my attension on what I was doing and ignore her presence

"Are you okay, Neil?" she asked softly

"I don't know what are you talking about..." I replied..I didn't looked at her

"Yes you do...you are mad at the idea of Armaan and Sam being together..i'm sorry Neil, I didn't tell you as I knew you would be angry.there is no point in letting you know that...you both made your choices...You have Manya and she has Armaan...."

We sat there in silence there and Radz choose to broke it.

"You know it could have been you and her??"

I turned to look at her for a moment, but nothing said

"Neil, Sam still loves you....you are her first love....it said that na..we never forget out first love...I know you too loves her..but I don't think you ever gonna realize that....Especially Armaan is in her life now, and she really cares about him....though she wouldn't do anything to hurt him...including her feeling on you....."

"She has Armaan....Radz..let it go.." I replied in monotone

Radz didn't know that in that single day I had listened enough praising of Armaan's greatness from my own family and his friends in bar....this was starting to make me irritate more now..

"why you are acting like it doesn't matter to you?" she said in bit angry tone

"It doesn't matter to me Radz..." I said to her..rather I said to me..

"the hell it doesn't...Its killing you deep...you want to be that guy for her and plz don't start that bullshit about Manya being nice and all.. we all hate her, we have told you that...you are with Manya cause you are too scared to hear your heart wants..you always wanted Sam and will always wants her...but you are a coward Neil to accept your feelings...."

I looked at Radhika , her eyes filled with fire..i looked back to sky.

"Did you know that Armaan's friends are thinking that he gonna ask her to marry him soon?" I asked which was bugging me more than anything.

"how you got to know that?"

"I just went a bar near to calgute and hear his frinds talking about it..."

Radhika sat for a while.

"Kriti told me the other day that Armaan planning to ask Sam about the marriage..."

I said nothing as that thought made me blank..numb...Sam marrying Armaan Arora..becoming...Mrs. Samaira Armaan Arora....

I shook my head to push that horrible thought from my mind..

"You should stop acting Neil...we all know that you missed Sam all the time and not as a friend..and why do you think Manya goes psycho when it comes to Sam? Cause she know who possess your heart and she keeps trying to push Sam out of your heart...but it doesn't work..why?? because you love Sam..."

That was it...that was the last thing I could take...I didn't love sam..I love Manya...right??? Yes..i love her..

"Radz, I don't..i repeat..i do not love Samaira Khanna...She is just my friend and I tired of proving it to everyone...."

"Then you truly lost her My big Brother...." She sighed and went back to house..

I sat there for longer time and it was then sun began to rise and I realized that what I needed to do to prove them that I didn't love Sam..

November 2015

I have been so busy for past few weeks to get ready for something that I planned.but it was making me sick...I should be happy right? This one thing will change my life forever..

"here you package sir, I hope your lady likes it..." said the man standing on other side of counter

I thanked him and I quickly put the box in my pocket. It was all planned and nothing was going to make me stop from doing what I had planned. In that moment, Sam's angelic smile flashed in my mind, I pushed it back..this moment wasn't about her, it was about me and Manya.

By seven I reached at the club where I called manya to meet me..my stomach was rolling..feeling like sick...something about this moment was wrong, but I had to do it...it was almost like that it wasn't supposed to happen this way.or it had to be with someone else.

I saw Manya in black strapless dress with stilettos. She was beautiful, but as I watched her, I realized that she wasn't as beautiful as she was at the beginning of our relationship..she might have physical beauty , but she didn't have that inner beauty that someone had..

Manya pulled me to the dance floor and wrapped her arms around me and placed her head on my shoulder. I closed my eyes , and my mind travelled back to that night with Sam. How she perfectly moved with me and how perfect the moment was..

Then I heard the Dj calling my name..

"is there Neil Malhotra in the disc?if you are, come on stage please.."

The moment was here..I went to stage, making manya confused...I got the mic from the guy..and ..here goes the.....nothing....

"Manya we are been together since two year...we passed many tough moment..but I know I care for you..So Miss Manya tondon would you like to be my wife?? Marry me....."

I did it before Armaan had planned to do it with Sam...

I could hear the awes from the people in the room and Manya squealing from the end and ran, wrapped her arms around me..i pulled out the box and put the ring in her ring finger. As I placed the ring , I looked up to see Manya but I couldn't see her as I saw an angel with chocolate eyes...I had to shake my head to make me come back to reality.

When I glanced across the club , I met the eyes of two people that I didn't expected to see .. their expression shinned with the hurt that they felt by seeing what I did a moment back..

Tears began to fall from radhika's eyes, and which hurt me so much...Arjun just glare at me as he took Radhika out from the disc...I wanted run back at them to explain why I did this but manya's strong grip on my Shoulder..she pulled me back on the dance floor...staring that shinning stone, rested on her hand..

I started to feel sick..i did care about Mnaya, but I really wanted to marry her?? Why did I keep seeing Sam everywhere??

May be I had done huge mistake, but it was done now..I couldn't back out now...Something inside me keep telling me that I did biggest mistake of life...but I had made fire bed for me and I had to lie on it...

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Guys I know you wanted to hit Neil for this grave mistake he did right now.....he is lost....

 but one spoiler on the occasion of New Year....soon Neil gonna see Sam...Yess some time soon NeSAm face off gonna happen...Excited???

I'm so excited for it..so please review about this..how's it?

PS:PlZ take a note... I'm not gonna post this chapter on TU

...so plz read here and shower your love and support on me!!!

Thank you sooooo much Guys for making me smile!!!

Happy New Year in advance,....May this new year brings happiness and Love in you life...

LOve you loads!!!