I stood up, but fall. Sebastian helped me to my feet. "Are you sure, you want to walk?" Sebastian asks I nod, my legs were weak and shaking. I felt his hand gently set on my hips, I take my first step, but slip. He pulled me up, "It is alright I have you." he assures me." I try taking a step again, I shook but managed. I smile weakly, "Just two more steps and we are ready?" Sebastian spoke from behind me. I did so, it hurt to walk my legs are sore. I managed four steps, but they were paced really slowly. "Hmm, now you can walk." he slowly let go of my hips as I walk slowly. My coat was bigger than me, that's strange.

      Finny and the staff stared at me oddly. When I removed my coat Ciel looked at me like if I were dead. Mey-rin walked in and gasped a little. I don't understand, why are they staring? I pretend to ignore the fact that they stare although it made me uncomfortable. "Marcel." I heard once Mey-rin had left, I turn around to see Ciel. "Yes?" I question, I was standing beside him in the dinning hall. "Don't you feel....too light?" he asks I shook my head, I try to make myself small. I just want to hide in the deepest place, and live there. "Are you sure?" I nod, I could feel myself getting nervous and scared. "Alright, you are excused..." I bow and walk off feeling embarrassed. I feel like hiding my face in my hands, I head to the garden. It was a cloudy day, I stroke the roses. I had white gloves on, they were a bit bigger than usual. I felt rain pour, I sigh. I love rain, but I get sad each time. I felt my heart pulse, it went silent I stood. I felt strong air push me, I fell to the ground. It went black, "Mister Blacksmith!" I didn't feel good.

      I felt pain in my head, my wrists hurt. I inhale, I could picture my heart. It seemed to be in pain, I honestly couldn't bare it. I breath slightly, I gag as I felt sharp pain in my chest. I woke up, feeling stiff and wet all over. I heard a ringing sound, I look around Sebastian was somewhere, Ciel on the other side. I lift my hand, it seemed slender thin. Ciel looked at me strangely then left, he had said something... I shiver, the ringing noise grew a bit quiet. "Are you cold? You must be with your clothing being wet." I heard Sebastian, he removed my shirt. I was lied under the covers. He kissed my lips gently, my hand slid against his neck. I wasn't strong in of to move easily, I don't know...why. He took my hand and stood to look at me in sorrow, he said nothing. I turn on my side a bit which wasn't that comfortable, but it doesn't matter. I didn't face him, I was a bit too... confused. I felt like crying, but that would embarrass me in front of Sebastian. I waited for him to leave, which he did after he had checked me. I began to weep, although I hate to cry it felt like it was the only thing to do. But, why am I crying? For the fact that I can't understand? For the fact I'm unusual? For the fact that I'm...alone. I kept weeping, which made me tired. I lie there, no one really is my...I can't say it anymore. I have to many problems, how will I leave? Is one of the very many that I had in my thoughts. Just buried under other things, sorta like me. Sebastian wouldn't worry as much if I left, Mey-rin would worry less. Ciel, he'd be better off with another tutor. An ordinary tutor. I stood, but my legs are too weak. I made my way to the wardrobe I found the suitcase the was set in a large drawer. I took it out and set it on the bed. I pull out clothes and fold it, I set them in the suitcase. I fall to my knees because I wasn't strong enough to stand, I set the clothes on my lap. Wet drops fell onto the clothing, I stood again to set my clothes away in the suitcase. I fell again, I try to reach for the wardrobe. I felt two hands on my shoulders, "What are you doing?!" Sebastian sounded angry this is the first time I hear this tone. I was facing him, these are the exact problems I didn't want to cause him. "Answer me." he was still very angry, "I-I...didn't..w-want to cause...a-anymore problems..." I stuttered, he knelt down and hugged me. He pulled me up easily, he kissed me I wasn't touching the floor. I am cold.

     My nose felt cold, I breath softly. "Why would you think that?" he asks, "It seemed...as if...I bothered you....so I thought I was being a burden." I am upset, I can see that. But what I fear most is being alone, even if my companion was bad in a way, I wouldn't feel lonely. "Am I not giving you enough attention?" he asks as he faces me, I felt my face burn in tears. I shook my head "I'm not saying that. I mean, if I am bothering you please tell me. I don't want to bother you..." I try to stop my unforgiving tears. "You...why do you think that? I wouldn't possibly, perhaps you do worry me, other than that I have no hatured towards you." he leaned my head against his shoulder as my held me. "One thing that concerned me is tour weight. When you were ill you stopped eating." Sebastian comments, is that what happened? I became too thin? I couldn't find any words, out of languages I know, none of them came to mind.