Renjun had found Mark in a pool of blood, the boy wouldnt stop slicing himself. Why was he bottling up his feelings to the point he was loosing him mind? Mark hugged the Chinese tight, very tight, as he broke down crying into his chest.

"Mark its killing you. Please just tell him you love him. Fight for him." Renjun pulled Mark away trying to make the older understand.

"No Junnie It's not killing me." Mark gave out a dry chuckle that had no smile in it.

"Mark you are hurting." Renjun wiped the streaming tears that wouldnt stop falling off the boys pretty eyes.

"I dont want to hurt him.I dont want him.I dont love him.I can live............cannot live without him.........SOMEONE STOP THESE VOICES INSIDE MY HEAD!" Mark screamed like a lunatic he was breaking, and no one seemed to understand.

"Mark....." Renjun sniffled not having it in himself to watch his childhood best friend be droven crazy before his eyes.

"Get out! Just fucking leave! Go away!" Mark pushed Renjun away with gritted teeth and bloody hands. The Chinese left with tears dripping down his eyes, feeling ashamed of himself for not being of any help.

"Haechan baby get in the car." Lucas sighed at his baby brother refusing to get into the car.

"Son we'll miss the flight. Hurry up." Johnny pushed his glasses to sit properly on his nose bridge.

Donghyuck stood rooted to the ground, he didnt want to budge, leaving meant having to live without Mark until summer ends. They had an argument which created a very thick atmostphere.

"Let him stay back father. He's old enough to stay home alone. Take care okay?" Lucas kissed his brothers forehead as they drove off in the car.

Mark showered, wincing at the cuts stinging everytime soap touched the raw skin. He pulled on sweatpants as he slid down the bedroom wall bare bodied. Staring at the window that hadnt been open in days, he missed Donghyuck.

The brunette stared at the picture of his mother, it having faded these passing years. She must have been beautiful he believed. Sighing he locked all the doors and went to his room, his heart skipping a beat when saw the boy he loved watching him like a crazy bastard.

Mark stood up, making his way towards the younger, as he jumped inside the balcony. The Juliet roses reminding him of Donghyuck dressed in Juliets lacy attire.

"Why do you hurt yourself!?" Donghyuck gasped reaching out to touch the golden headed boys scars of love and pain.

"I need you. And I dont how to say it." Mark whispered softly like the wind sneaking through the glass doors. "You wont leave my mind, I'm going crazy." The older once again slid down the nearest wall his eyes becoming void of nothing.

The brunette crawled between the boys limbs, his stumby fingers feeling every scar on the olders flawed body. Donghyuck was dressed in shorts and a hoodie, he looked like a teddy bear making things worser for Mark.

"Mark......" Donghyuck met Marks gaze, pushing his lips on the thin soft ones. The forbidden relationship tasted like heaven, so intoxicating but fragile.

"Donghyuck please dont leave me." Mark mumbled against the plump lips as tears flowed down his cheeks.

"I wont......." The brunette felthimself being lifted, his body being placed over his own bed. The kiss getting deeper every second, the youngers hoodie being removed gracefully without him even knowing.

"I love you." Mark whispered pulling away, the brunette smiled so genuinely, softly giggling when tears splashed on his cheeks.

"I love you." Donghyucks arms caressed Marks neck crying softly and for the first time ever the older lips stretched into a breath taking smile.  

Mark kissed him all over his face, neck and collar bones. The innocent butterfly kisses bringing them closer than they already were. Finally confessing their crazy love for each other the boys felt alive for a little while. Donghyuck let Mark touch him in places he never could before.

"Stop hurting yourself." Donghyuck sniffled sitting up with a pout.

"If I stop I'd go crazy......" Mark hugged Donghyuck as he broke down completely in the boys bare chest. The golden haired boy cried so much Donghyuck cried with him.

Wrapped in the blankets of fear and dread of being caught the boys let their grievencess wash away. Mark started feeling light hearted after years, he said nothing to his brunette but he knew the boy understood.

"If you cut yourself again I'll cut myself too." Donghyuck bit his lips with a blush. Mark chuckled nodded kissing those plump lips softly.

They were afraid, but they wanted each other. They were eternally trapped in forbidden love. The kiss intimate and bashfull as their skin brushed against their bodies.

"Runaway with me." Mark caressed the hourglass like bare waist.

"Take me away." Donghyuck whispered as he was pushed back down slowly the older lips burning against the youngers neck.

"Right now?" Mark smirked biting the beautys neck his fingers tickling the baby belly button.

"I-Idiot....If you can then take me." The brunette bit his lip trying his best not to moan out loud.

"What if we get caught?" Mark licked the youngers collar bone. Pressing a finger inside the belly button.

"Ahh ahh Markkk!!" Donghyuck writhed feverishly under the man he loved. The acceptance visible in every moan the brunette whispered.

"I really love you. I'm not after you for your body or shit like that. I....." The brunette shut Mark up with a kiss.

"I know Mark........I love you baby." Donghyuck sniffled. "Even if our fathers oppose or seperate us we will be together. Hmm?" The brunette hugged Marks neck tightly. Mark buried his face in the boys neck as he hugged the waist he loved.

"We will baby." Mark sniffled crying like a baby but he smiled for he finally confessed and Donghyuck loved him back just as much he did. If was on fear that lurked at the back of their minds. Their fathers.