Jaemin stared the spots on his best friends body. Donghyuck was shaking tears spilling down his chubby cheeks. He had been staying over with Jaemin for two days straight, unable to say a word.

"You love Mark. I knew it from seventh grade Hyuckie." Jaemin wiped the streaming tears with a soft smile.

"No...no..." Donghyuck hiccuped hugging Jaemin tightly. He couldnt say it he just couldnt.

"Sweetheart its best to tell him how you feel. Even if you cannot be together you would still know if it was one sided or not. I know your father would make your life a living hell but rather than dying with the weight in your heart its best to confess first." The blondie fed his best friend who often turned a baby at times of distress. Donghyuck hugged Jaemin, screaming tears into the laters chest painfully.

Mark was a wreck, the cut was deeper this time. It hurt to stay away from the brunette now. He shamelessly needed the boy every second of his life. The golden haired was loosing his mind. No one knew why Jaehyun and Johnny hated each other nor neither did they know why homosexuality was forbidden.

Mark got into the school bus, Donghyuck sat with a runny nose red and fluffy. He was terribly sick after the rainy moment they had shared two days ago. The younger had his head snuggled into Jaemins neck.

"Jeno looks hwat!!" Jaemin cooed when the bus stopped at Jeno's mansion.

"Fuck you!" Renjun hissed throwing a lunch bag at the beauty.

"Whats with you!?" Jaemin yeld at the Chinese boy who pouted sadly.

Renjun ran off the bus the moment it screached to a hault at the school. Donghyuck gestured him to run after wondering why the boy had become so upset ever so suddenly. 

The Chinese boy crouched down in the middle of no where, why was he crying so hard? How could Jaemin change so soon? His face turned rosey and hurt.

"Renjun! Whats wrong with you!?" Jaemin panted catching up with his crush had turned into love a long time ago.

"Wrong with me!? Whats wrong with you!? How can you move on from me!? Yeah its obvious Jeno has a better body than me but......." A hand was placed on top of those thin lips as Jaemin kissed the back of his palm. An indirect kiss secretly given.

"It's always been you Renjun. I did it so you would finally notice my ass. It worked!! Ima go buy Hyuck food." Jaemin squealed as Renjun blushed pulling the boy into a hug.

"Idiot monkey." Renjun mumbled shyly, the blonde hugged the older tight.

"But.......Until Markhyuck happens I cant let us happen. I'm sorry, Donghyuck might sound sassy yet he's a baby that needs someone and my honey bun is crazy for your best friend." Jaemin pushed himself away with a disheartened sigh.

"Jaemin.......I understand. Mark might kill himself the way its going. I wish their parents would let them be together " Renjun laced their arms together and smiled at the blonde.

Donghyuck stood at the bus stop, calling in sick he dragged himself to the deserted bus stop. Well he ended up walking home since the bus took too long to come. A hand pulled him into the near by woods his body slamming onto a tree trunk.

"Mark...." Donghyuck whimpered the fever hurting his joints. When Mark dipped down to smash their lips the younger stopped him with a whine.

"I'm sick...." The brunette whispered softly trying to push the older away. Not wanting to make Mark any sicker than he already was.

"I dont care!" Growled the older boy as he smashed their lips. Marks arm slipped under the brunettes school shirt feeling his tummy up, mixed with a pinch of saddness the kiss only got deeper. 

"E-Enough!" Donghyuck sniffled, his hormones vulnerable and his emotions scattered. He was desperate yet cautious. If he'd let the boy do as his heart desires then he'd loose his virginity under the blue vibrant sky. The olders lips moved over his own, the yearning too intense to muster courage and push him away.

"Donghyuck......" Mark ever so softly whispered the brunette's name for the first time. The husk, the intimacy hided behind every syllable drove Donghyuck insane. Their steaming breath fanning across their swollen lips. The taste lingering too close, drawing them both into each other. 

"Say it." Donghyuck's lips trembled as the thin lips ventured down to his neck. 

"We can never be together." Mark whispered his lips brinning with tears, he was hurting more than anyone could. Donghyuck pushed him away from his body panting and whimpering.

"Then stop all this! Stop touching me like you own me! I want a hero who would fight for me not a fucking coward that pushing me away and only comes to me to ease his pleasure!! What do you want? To watch me sleep with another? Since you are a fucking coward!?" Donghyuck slapped Mark across his face as tears streamed down his cheeks.

"No......." Mark mumbled his heart breaking at what the brunette had said. He held Donghyucks arm but was pushed away again.

"Dont touch me!" Donghyuck's voice broke as he ran home crying his heart out.

Marks head spun, his eyes watered, he was loosing himself again. The boys locked themselves in their room that night. Lucas took care of his sick brother as Mark drowned in his own blood. The brunettes words banging in his mind, why cant he just scream how much he loved the boy? Why? No one was at home, the silence creeping at the golden head as the blade slipped off the olders finger tips with a sickening tinging sound. Thick ropes of metalic red liquid ran down the drains.

"Mark!!!" Renjun gasped at the amount of blood that seeped through the bathroom door.

"Get out!! Leave me alone! Let me fucking die. I'm a coward after all." Mark screamed back so loud the windows shook.