I stared at my phone just laying on my desk. It was almost time for me to give him a call but my heart was racing. I had sent a text earlier saying who it was and received an almost immediate response. After awhile he made it quite clear that he wanted to FaceTime. Which directly leads back to why I was so nervous.

Not only would he hear my voice in a one on one conversation (not really cause Bee was here and he was with his band mates) but he could see my facial expressions. Expressions I have no control over.

As much as I bragged about being an independent woman, my brand was really working against me today.

My eyes flickered to the ice cream in my hand and I spun around in my chair. Bee was lounging in my bed, looking through movies on my Firestick.

I quickly put a spoonful of ice cream in my mouth and tried to think about how the sugary goodness tasted.

"Nervous?" My mom walked in and sat on the bed beside Bee, followed by her mom who sat on my beanbag chair.

Glad my room wasn't a dirty wreck.

"Oh yea, she's nervous. She's been shoving ice cream in her mouth for the past half hour while she stares at her phone. Good think she can't choke on it," Bee put the remote down and joined my mom on the edge of the bed.

I hadn't realised I had eaten that much ice cream but with a look down I saw that I had almost finished a quart of it by myself. I sat the container on my desk and smiled.

My phone vibrated with a notification but I ignored it and shrugged my shoulders. "I'm a nervous eater, what can I say."

Another notification came and this time I picked up my phone to see what it was. It was a text from Namjoon saying he was free. The second message was him asking me to download Kakaotalk. Apparently it was a really popular app used for texting, calls, and FaceTime.

As I went to the App Store, I decided to ask a question. "What happens after this?"

Finding the app, I downloaded it and began to set up an account.

"What do you want to happen," my best friend's mom asked from the floor.

I looked at her quizzically. I didn't know what I wanted to happen. I just knew that this was happening very fast but not fast enough. Something in me itched to meet him. To have his arms wrap around my waist in a hug, his hands hold my face while his brown eyes looked into mine. My heart ached as those thoughts ran through my mind and I felt the bristle of a longing pain in the back of my head.

Pushing away the oncoming headache, I looked at Bee instead. "Download this app, I text the name to you."

Returning my gaze to our mothers I set my phone down, done with setting up the account besides finding a profile picture.

"I want him to like me... and I want him to want to meet up. I want to visit him. I have to."

They shared a glance after what I said I couldn't help but smile shyly. Way to give your mothers ammo.

My mom got teary eyed and it took all my will not to roll my eyes. "Oh my gosh. For the love of- mom do not cry. Cause then she'll cry. Then I'll cry. Then Bee will get mad about my makeup again."

A disgruntled sound came from Bee's direction and I smiled.

My mom stood up, "it's just... I knew you had your soulmate sign but now that you've graduated I noticed the slight changes. The way you would smile at your arm as something new would show up. The way you would write in your notebook with a smile and then murmur about how you think he'll like it. The way you slowly started to fall in love through his words. My baby is going to leave me."

No words could come out of my mouth as I listened to my mom speak. I never knew I did those things let alone realize that she noticed. She knew I was falling in love before I did. I blinked back the tears and walked over to hug my mom. She wrapped her arms around me and pulled my head to her shoulder in a comforting way. I took in her perfume and sighed at the familiar position.

"I'll never leave you mom. I'm just growing up."

She nodded and I pulled away, my smile mirroring hers. "Plus, I literally look like you. I couldn't forget or leave you if I tried." I got a chuckle from her and smiled wider.

My other mom stood up and rested a reassuring hand on my shoulder. "He's your soulmate, I'm sure you're not the only one nervous."

With a nod of my head, I tried to imagine him being nervous. Of course, everyone gets nervous, but it was hard to imagine HIM nervous. Especially about talking to a girl. He talks to millions of them everyday.

A buzz sounded from my phone and I looked at my mom to see if she was okay.

She smoothed my hair down and smiled at me. "After all this hard work, you deserve something for yourself." She gave me a kiss on the forehead and released me from the hug.

As our moms walked out, I went to my bed with my phone in hand. Opening his text, I saw he wanted to know what my ID was. The app was a little confusing but eventually I found it. I showed Bee who added me right away and then sent it to Namjoon.

Suddenly, I had gotten 8 adds, including Bee.

"What the-," I couldn't understand any of the names which just goes to prove I really need to start those Korean lessons.

I opened up a text from one of the people and saw it was Namjoon. He told me I could change the names if I didn't know who was who and boy was I thankful.

"Wait, how do you have 7 other people already added?"

"I think they're his... friends?"

Bee took my phone and typed in all their ID's. She text me on it and I looked at her like she was stupid. She shrugged and I watched as she started to explore the app.

Then I realised I never text Namjoon back. My finger hovered over the keyboard not really sure of what to say. Should I ask about a call or just carry on a conversation?

Namjoon: Should we call?

If my eyesight could burn a hole through things, my phone would be in flames right about now. All I could do was stare at the message. That's it. It was like stupidity decided to take over my brain.

A person clearing their throat broke me out of my trance. "Are you going to answer or just keep staring at your phone weirdly?"

Me: Yeaaa, lets do this....

Namjoon: You sure?

Me: Mhm, lets do this before my anxiety eats me alive

Namjoon: Trust me, with these boys around it won't be anything to personal being said in the conversation

Me: 😅😅 I'm ready then

The vibration of my phone scared me as I wasn't expecting him to call so fast. My heartbeat increased at least 30x the normal rate and I'm pretty sure that isn't healthy. Bee had her head on my shoulder and I'm sure she could feel the erratic beating from my heart cause it felt like my body was literally shaking.

"I can't do this!" Before I could throw my phone on the bed, a arm wrapped around me and answered the call. I froze.

His face popped onto the screen along with two other boys.

My mouth dropped open and all I could do was stare at him. His light brown hair was in a messy hairstyle as if he kept running his hand through it. I noticed he had two small silver earrings in and a silver bracelet on his wrist. He sat in a simple muscle tee and had his face on his hand a slight smile playing on his face. One of his dimples stood out and it took everything in me to not sigh in content at the sight of his face.

The brown haired boy on the left of the screen looked young but I knew for a fact he wasn't the youngest. He was leaned back in the chair beside him but had immediately brought his face closer to the screen. He smiled brightly and his cheeks made his eyes disappear in the cutest way. I noticed he had on a silver choker and one silver earring in. The boy on his other side had purple hair and I immediately knew who he was. The gem on the right side of his face twinkled and his full lips were pulled into a grin. He was also wearing a silver choker but one slightly looser than Jimin's.

After studying everyone, I realised that it was quite loud where he was at, Jin must've too because he turned around and yelled something causing the room to be quiet. Before I know it, four other faces were also trying to squeeze in to the frame.

A giggle bubbled it's way out of my mouth and I clamped my mouth shut in shock.

Bee suddenly sat beside me with wide eyes, "did you just giggle?"

I moved my hand down. "I think I just did?"

My attention went back to Namjoon and I smiled. "Hi. We've been talking for awhile but I'm (y/n)."

This time his dimples were on full display as he smiled at me. I swooned so hard.

But only on the inside.

Bee however swooned on the outside.

"Hi (y/n). I'm Namjoon. Of course, you already know that. This is Jimin," he pointed to the brown haired boy beside him and then pointed to the purple haired boy, "and this is Jin."

Jimin waved and Jin said hi politely. I waved back.

"Also these four guys behind me are Yoongi, Hoseok, Taehyung, and Jungkook." He gestured towards the four boys with varying degrees of brown hair.

"Hey everyone!" I then looked beside me and saw Bee patiently waiting to be introduced to them.

Rolling my eyes, I put my arm around her. "This here is (y/bf/n). But I like to call her Bee. It holds a special place in my heart."

"Please do not call me Bee. Call me anything else but that," she pushed my arm off of her and pretended to act hurt. Which I ignored and threw her a cookie instead from the package off the floor.

All 7 of them waved at us but I could see Namjoon wanted to say something.

I looked at him and rose an eyebrow.

It was actually scary how fast I had gotten over being nervous. Maybe cause it wasn't in person.

"Um (y/n)," he said my name slowly and I liked how it sent shivers down my spine. "I'm... I don't .... you're beautiful."

A sound between a choke and a laugh erupted out of me. "Wait what?"

He laughed and I realised it still echoed in my head. "I didn't mean to startle you."

Bee nudged my arm beside me and obnoxiously reminded me that I should kill her later.

"It's not that... I just didn't expect you to say that. I don't know what I expected you to say to be honest. But why beautiful?"

I won't lie, I was curious to why those were the first things out of his mouth. Not a 'hi, how are you?' Or a 'woah long time never see.' You know?

Jin said something to which Jimin responded. Namjoon then rambled something off before Jin broke into laughter and slapped Namjoon's shoulder. I could see Yoongi looking at Jin weird and I glanced at Bee, both of us trying not to laugh.

"Be quiet," could be heard from out of frame and I laughed as Jin suddenly stopped laughing and got angry, standing up and storming after whoever said those words.

"Anyway," Namjoon said turning back to me and moving over so Jimin could be more in the frame. "I don't know. It's just, your writing is so beautiful. And I can see that you are too...." he started to trail off.

"Oooooo, he likes you!" Bee singsonged.

Namjoon nervously laughed and put his arms behind his head.

Tall and muscular.

Me likey.

Before I could finish drooling over the amazing man in front of me, a controller was hurled across the room. Jin ran after it talking fast and angrily while Jungkook was quick after him, eyes wide.

I could see Hoseok shaking his head but laughing all the same.

"Is it always likes this?" I decided to abandon the other topic and spare us both the embarrassment.

Namjoon spoke in Korean to Jimin who nodded in understanding. "Sorry, I'm translating a bit for him. To answer your question, nah. Only when everyone is in one room together."

My best friend cocked her head to the side. "Isn't that most of the time?"

"Exactly."

I laughed at his joke and then watched as Hoseok tried to stop Jin from disciplining the youngest boy. I noticed Taehyung was curled on a hotel bed sleeping and Yoongi was on his phone, oblivious to what was happening.

Jimin looked at me and then said something to Namjoon. He nodded. "Jimin wants to know how old you are."

I smiled sweetly at Jimin. "Thanks for asking. I'm 19, I graduated high school this year actually."

He understood what I said and started counting the age difference on his fingers. He held up 7 fingers.

"You're 26," Bee interjected curiously.

"Korean age. Actually I'm 25 international age."

Jimin put down a finger and I nodded at him. He smiled again and I couldn't help but smile at how cute a grown man could be. It's not often that you call a grown man cute and actually mean it in a cutesy way. Jimin then ran his fingers through his hair and sat back.

My eyebrows furrowed and I squinted at my phone screen. How does someone go from cute to manly in like 2 seconds.

Turning my attention back to Namjoon, I smiled. "I'm sorry, I didn't want this to be so awkward. I really just don't know what to say when I talk to you sometimes."

Bee started texting on her phone and I laid on my stomach, focusing my attention on my phone.

Namjoon twisted the bracelet on his arm. "It's okay. It is cute." He slightly faltered at the last line and I realised that he was just as much a dork in person as he was when we wrote each other.

"Fame will never change you will it?" The question made its way out on its own and I saw his face scrunch up in confusion.

"What do you mean? You act like you've known me for ages." A playful tone was in his voice and I flushed.

"I just mean," I looked at him. "Wait a second, 3 years is a long time mister."

"We didn't even talk the whole time." His hair fell over his face and I felt the urge to run my hand through his hair.

"But when we did, it was quite meaningful. Am I wrong or am I wrong?"

I brushed my hair to the side and leaned into it, staring at him as I waited for a response. His eyes seemed to be taking me in and it took awhile before he answered, his voice low.

"You're right."

My tongue slightly went inside my cheek. "Oh I know I am Namjoon. Remember, in a relationship, the woman is normally right. Even when wrong."

"A relationship? Is that what you would call this?" He seemed genuinely interested and I couldn't help but fight back a smile.

"Well, we are soulmates. Eventually, in logical terms, we'll end up in a relationship. So, I'm not ashamed to be pretty forward."

I may not be ashamed but I sure was pretty nervous. When did I get this bold?

The moment I realised it was still the exact same man I was falling in love with.

That's when I got bold.

Which, coincidentally, is the same moment I realised he was still a huge dork.

A smile slowly creeped onto his face. "No, you're not."

There were a few moments of silence as we just took each other in. It wasn't awkward. In fact, I enjoyed studying him. It was nice to notice the little things about him. Like the mole underneath his mouth and the one on his cheek. Or the ways his eyes seemed wide and set deep into his face. How his laugh lines and dimples showed up when he did that cute close lipped smile. And how his chin scrunched up when he did it. Or even how his nose seemed more defined on one side than the other. It was all those things that made him so dorkable.

But the smile was my favorite. Even now, as we sat in silence, his smile lingered as his eyes darted over my face like he was trying not to forget it. If only other people could see what I see, he'd never get hate.

My mind drifted off to some of the hate I had seen on Twitter not just about me but him as well. How could people hate someone so nice? It was late and I could tell I was tired but my mind just stayed on the same topic. How?

"(Y/n)? (Y/n)!"

I opened my eyes to Namjoon calling my name. "What, What?! Did I die?"

He chuckled. "No you fell asleep. But you started frowning in your sleep and I got worried."

Gingerly touching my face, I sighed in relief as I hadn't gotten deep enough to start drooling. "Ahhh, yeaaaa. Sorry. I fall asleep on phone calls and stuff a lot."

Bee shouted in agreement. "Something on your mind though," he asked.

I didn't want him to think I was worrying so I disregarded it. "No, nothing. You should probably get back to your friends though. Jin looks like he wants to tear apart your youngest one." Jin sat on one of the beds staring at someone's back, who I could only assume to be Jungkook. He looked like he was planning to yell at any moment now.

"You're right. Before I go, did your friend Bee add the boys as well?" I nodded and Namjoon immediately yelled at the boys.

"Thanks just checking it wasn't some wild fan. Go to bed weirdo. We can talk more privately tomorrow maybe?"

I nodded vigorously and yawned on cue. "Night dork."

With that, I ended the call and sat up straight.

"Oh you guys are so into each other. And he wants to talk privately? Ooh Lala. Love is in the air!" Bee dramatically hugged a pillow and smiled at me. Her phone lit up and I could see the boys had added her back on kakaotalk.

I moved beside her and got under the covers. "Shut up and turn everything off, I'm going to bed."

"Will do Mrs. Kim."

My updating schedule was a lie. Yes I know.

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On another plus side note I also updated my Jin book and I'm working on Yoongi and Engima soooooo updates will be rolling out in November.

So tell me, did y'all like this chapter. It could've been better but I wanted the conversation to feel authentic. Like let's be honest, you first FaceTime a boy you like and it's not always going to be straight into a convo. But eventually you and Namjoon will get more comfortable with each other as you already have towards the end.

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