/// Virgil's P.O.V. ///

I sit up to see the living room but now it was al lit up with no one else there and all the blankets were gone. I get up to see if I could find anyone and I finally found Roman...but different. His eyes were darker then they were supposed to be but maybe I' just seeing things. " Morning " I say and smile at him only to get a groan in response. " What do you want? " Roman asked in a much more harsh tone of voice. I take a step back takes aback by the tone of voice that he was using " I just wanted to say hi...." I looked at him confused while talking only to get a slap to the face. " Why!? You are just a waist of space and are an idiot if you think I actually loved you! " Roman shouted at me and then walks off. I start to feel tears in my eyes but then....I woke up.

I jumped up awake in a panic to see everyone else asleep around me and I carefully get up to go to my room. I closed the door and locked it behind me walking over to the dresser. I knew that I shouldn't do it again but I couldn't help myself. I grabbed the blade that I had hidden in my drawers and I pull up my sleeves and make more cuts on my arms. I watch the blood drip down and then clean everything up and change my clothes. I went back into the living room and turned on the tv but I kept seeing things....Remus and Janus....over and over.

I snapped out of it when I felt a kiss on my cheek and quickly turned around to see Roman " Good morning love " Roman said and smiled at me with his bright smiled and I smiled back " Morning. " He went into the kitchen to make breakfast and I followed not wanting to be alone. I hug Roman from behind and nuzzles into his back hiding my face hoping that I wouldn't see anything anymore. Patton was the next one to wake up and he helped Roman with breakfast. Soon enough everyone was awake and at the table eating...aside from me. I really wasn't that hungry so I just sat their.

After breakfast Remy and Emile left and Logan and Patton went off with each other and Roman went to the imagination. Leaving me alone in the living room with no one but my thoughts and myself....my mind wandered for a while until all I could think about was how much of a failure I am and I don't deserve anything. I don't deserve any of the things any of them have given me. Why did they save me, what did I do to deserve being saved? The answer was nothing. I have done nothing to deserve it yet they did. The thoughts kept going through my mind but I knew I couldn't do anything to stop it.

( Okay yes I know this is a short chapter but it's setting up for the next chapter which is going to be a big chapter so just hang in there guys. Thank you for being so patient with me! )